Sarmenti
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I posted this in the new members section, but I guess it was buried by many other posts. I would be grateful for any help.
I have been wanting to know who my guardian demon is since my dedication. A few months ago I spoke out loud before going to bed for my guardian to please come in my dreams so that I could know who he or she is. Well he did but just his voice. It was a regular dream but with his voice overlaid upon it. All he said was his name. I knew what it was when I woke up but a very short time later it fled my mind. Recently I have been looking through the Demon lists and the name Abraxas sounds very familiar. I dont know if it was the name said in the dream though.
Also on top of this everytime I have felt some ...uuummm....presence it has felt female. In fact just a couple of days ago I was not doing well emotionally and it felt like there was someone sitting on the edge of my bed just hanging out. It felt female, very loving and comforting as if coming from a lover. All of this has me so confused.
In Abraxas' section it mentions somethings that caught my eye. I dont know anything about these things and Im guessing they have nothing to do with what Im thinking. I was born March 1st, pisces, and reading the elements section water seems to fit me best. All three of those things are in his description.
A strange thing happened today with this search of mine. I have been having some stupid petty problems with people at work. To get my mind off of it while working I was thinking about who my gaurdian is, whether it is Abraxas, and bouncing everything I just typed above around in my head. I was repeating his name in my head and sometimes looking at his sigil through memory while trying to figure this all out.
Suddenly I felt slightly light headed and than my brain seemed to just shut off. All thoughts stopped, my ears started ringing and I felt a small electric buzz spread throughout my body. When this faded I felt calm and focused. A short time later I noticed that I was feeling better emotionaly then I have in a few weeks.
I have been wanting to know who my guardian demon is since my dedication. A few months ago I spoke out loud before going to bed for my guardian to please come in my dreams so that I could know who he or she is. Well he did but just his voice. It was a regular dream but with his voice overlaid upon it. All he said was his name. I knew what it was when I woke up but a very short time later it fled my mind. Recently I have been looking through the Demon lists and the name Abraxas sounds very familiar. I dont know if it was the name said in the dream though.
Also on top of this everytime I have felt some ...uuummm....presence it has felt female. In fact just a couple of days ago I was not doing well emotionally and it felt like there was someone sitting on the edge of my bed just hanging out. It felt female, very loving and comforting as if coming from a lover. All of this has me so confused.
In Abraxas' section it mentions somethings that caught my eye. I dont know anything about these things and Im guessing they have nothing to do with what Im thinking. I was born March 1st, pisces, and reading the elements section water seems to fit me best. All three of those things are in his description.
A strange thing happened today with this search of mine. I have been having some stupid petty problems with people at work. To get my mind off of it while working I was thinking about who my gaurdian is, whether it is Abraxas, and bouncing everything I just typed above around in my head. I was repeating his name in my head and sometimes looking at his sigil through memory while trying to figure this all out.
Suddenly I felt slightly light headed and than my brain seemed to just shut off. All thoughts stopped, my ears started ringing and I felt a small electric buzz spread throughout my body. When this faded I felt calm and focused. A short time later I noticed that I was feeling better emotionaly then I have in a few weeks.
