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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Andre Wilson <darthxilon@... wrote:
with this is wonder if mine perception of the universe is correct.
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From: moonshadow48@...
Date: Mon, 12 Sep 2011 14:39:50 +0000
Subject: [Advanced_Meditation] Re: Guardian Demons
Okay, you asked for it! Now please keep in mind, this is ONLY my own experiences--and the things my GD told me, were for me only--they don't necessarily apply to anyone else. The reason I think Satan has always been with me, is that when I was a child I was forced to attend the Baptist church--much against my will. Even at a young age I somehow sensed something was very, very wrong with the bible. But yet when they talked about the "beautiful angel Lucifer"--I was fascinated. Even when they told me he had been turned into the "evil, ugly Satan"--I was STILL fascinated. They tried so hard to make me believe Satan was the "Prince of lies" and the root of all evil, yet a voice inside me said, "Is he? Where is their proof?" Because even their stupid bible can't PROVE Satan to be evil. He had pride--so did I. He rebelled against a murdering "God"--so? I would have too. As a child I was very stubborn and just WOULD NOT believe what they tried to shove down my throat. I never told them that, of course--my stepmother was so adamant about her religion I knew that would be inviting disaster. So I feel that Satan has always been with me, that he even protected me as a child and sent me telepathic messages. He definitely was the little voice in my head that told me they were telling me complete lies. Once I got in trouble for "laughing at prayer"--b/c what my aunt said was so stupid I couldn't supress a giggle. I was a teenager then. I think if Satanists look back on their lives, they will see places where it is quite possible Satan has been working on them all their lives to learn the truth.
As for my GD--I am a Goth and an artist and writer, so I am inclined to want to do things my own way in the first place. And my GD said that was fine, in fact--he said there was more than one Hell, that Satan oversees. He told me that in my case I would be happy with where I was going because it was "a Gothic wonderland." Whatever that means. I don't think I "created" it myself--I just think the saying "like attracts like in the universe" is true. I think Satan loves his children and wants to give us everything we truly desire in the afterlife. Now, some are going to disagree with this probably, and I say fine--disagree. But it is what my GD told me, and I believe him.
Hail Satan!
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Motive <catalyst.motive@ wrote:
kokabiel share your stories. I'd love to hear them
On Tue, Sep 6, 2011 at 9:26 AM, kokabiel24 <moonshadow48@ wrote:
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It's great that they obviously protected you, your Guardians. I think Satan
was with me when I was young, and now another demon, one of Azazel's
brothers, is my Guardian--Satan told me he "gave me" over to his protection
as Satan himself is very busy, and also Satan has told me many times it is
his desire for me and my GD to be together. I love my demon and he says we
have been together in past lives. He is very wise and talented. I am a
writer and he is helping me to write a novel. I will be with him in the next
life, he has even told me details of what his world--one of Satan's
Hells--is like, and it is fascinating, especially to a creative person like
me. GD's are awesome...
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Pierce Talanski" <ptalanski@
wrote:
It just dawned on me that I've had three different Guardian Demons so far
in my life. My first one was Lord Azazel, from the time I was born until I
was about 5 or 6. I'm pretty sure he's the reason I was born almost 3 months
early and lived to tell about it. My second one was Lucifer himself, from
when I was about 7 to the time I was around 11-12, around the time my dad
started drinking and becoming violent, but Lord Lucifer made sure he never
laid a hand on me, to the time my dad was arrested and my mom and I moved to
another state. And finally, my guardian demon from when I was about 12 to
the present day is Lord Thoth, which was from around the time my
grandparents and a large portion of my immediate family died or was trying
to sue each other, and the Department of Social Services tried to put me up
for adoption, which luckily they weren't allowed to do, to the time I had
depression and almost went as far as trying to waste myself, to now, when
Jehovah and his servants seem to be getting desperate and unstable. I never
really realized just how many times my ass would have been toast if it
wasn't for them, and I never really showed my appreciation for them, in
fact, for the first ten years of my life, I was raised as an Episcopalian
with a heavily Catholic father and a closet-Wiccan mother. I think
mentioning all they've done for me and trying to express my gratitude is the
least I can do at the moment.
Hail Satan!
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