get rid of intrusive thoughts

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Hello,
Lately, ever since this Saturday/ Friday I’ve been having these thoughts of “I’m going to hell- for I have sinned-“ and “I will never be able to repent” like you know, the whole xian bullshit, following these thoughts/attacks of feelings of dread.
This is mostly when I’m off my adhd meds (vyvannse, and no please do not suggest anything like getting of my meds in gen that never works trust me..they help my behavior)
BTW- I do not come from a Xian family.we have no Xian symbols in our house, or media from xians.
My dad is VERY atheist, my mom is a witch, they are very okay with me being satanist, and my brother has no feelings about god.most of my friends themselves hate Christian’s and Catholics and are witches/ satanists. I myself OF COURSE hate Xians.
I have in the past struggled with xians making fun of me.but It’s been years since someone has made fun of me for my beliefs. So I doubt it’s that.
Any advice/ rituals/ words or anything of help for this?
Sorry if I sound retarted I have autism and I tend to over explain everything [sob]
Thank you
- zee

 

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This is common for beginners. The enemy attacks beginners, because they are the most attack able. This is to prevent people to keep advancing.

Your pfp is very inaccurate, so you might have not read even the half of the JoS main website. Start studying it even if it looks a lot.
The meditations page, and the witchcraft page information sections, and Maxine's sermons, this is where I would start.
https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Satanic_Meditation.html
https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Satanic_Magick.html
https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/2001_2005_Sermons.html
https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/SERMONS.html

also the symbols page
https://satanslibrary.org/666BlackSun/Satanic_Symbols.html

and these
https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Origins_of_Satanism.html
https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/TRADITIONAL.html

And everything else afterwards.

 

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If these are negative thoughts with accompanying bad feelings, rather than random thoughts, than this sounds more like an attack than just a hyperactive mind, although the enemy attacks through our weak points.

With this in mind, what are you doing for protection? You should most likely increase this.

As for a hyperactive mind itself, you would do anything to balance your yin energies, like void, alternate nose breathing, lunar breathing, yin-building acupoints, hatha yoga, balancing elements with ether energy, or even using runes like Isa or Berkano.