Welp, there is medicine for this self blame if it's some chronic disease. I had this and up to now, I've had stupid greys try to put me in fear and all sorts of stupid shit; they can overinflate ego, cause behavioral problems, weird thoughts, dumb images or thoughts of bad omens/failure and they blame me for it.
They tried again and again to get me to hurt myself and quit or die but they are not going to have it, even if they'll try to go too far to molesting me mentally because I can just try acting like its hentei(I've seen things the heavens and hells out there would made truces to stay away from...) to try make them feel off.
I heard that works(My e.g. "Want me to have sex with that hooker? Oh yeah! I like it! Give me more! WEEEOWEEEOWEEOWEE..."). Or I can just kill them with demonic blue fire around my room, sometimes they seem stronger than before.
I got through these thoughts a year ago instead of trying to hang myself, even if they try to reoccur.
First off, I did kuji-in plus the final rtr which gave me a kick for a while, stayed low until I graduated senior high and advanced with hphc's 40 day meditation program, but with changes like energy ripping on people who made me look foolish in senior high and college(Xtians and moosleems are throwing their energy into the trash can), working on all chakras at once including the minor ones, but stayed on a level until I can proceed and not fall at all(I know when to stay at a certain amount until I've completely adjusted to it. If ever I feel like falling, I have the merkaba meditation to kick my energy higher), until I'm used to it and get somethings out of it. There are times I prioritized on artistry improvement but the crazy thing is that everytime I get out of charging myself a lot, the enemy seems to know this and use it against me.
I'm going to need someway to block them off from spying on me for good. Banishing rituals.
Until I am able to, without danger to myself, invoke the fire element on myself for positive effects like to keep me happy and protected. Right now, I'm using it for my success with a side of sun, venus and jupiter square.
Energy ripping for those who have questions on it, psychic vampirism can be a help especially in my situation I need it when in animation training for energy, from toxic and retarded people who annoyingly YOLO with their lives and ruin other people in the process. (Come here to Philippines and try standing senior highschool here.) Just remember to clean your aura and soul after, then program the energies you stole for empowering yourself:
https://www.joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Energy_Ripping.html
On fire for those wandering:
https://www.joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Elements_Magick.html
Heard this amplifies whoever the person is:
https://www.joyofsatan.org/dawn666blacksun.angelfire.com/Star_of_Astaroth.html
On how I got myself focus, there are times that breaks are allowed but they started becoming scarce that I needed to resort to chakra spinning, akasha or fire element for power.
These also help:
https://www.joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Advanced_Chakra_Spinning.html
https://www.joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Aura_Empowering_Meditation.html
My focus is undisturbed in jeepney rides, appropriate public places or at home, this means losing sleep but I cycle but not stop giving on priorities. I have been feeling effects and opening of certain but NOT a lot of abilities. I just hope I don't go mad.
It's also a fun thing for me to diss the enemy and their "watchers" in what I'm pulling off, at the same time I try not to break down mentally in my situation, being almost alone in my state.
Why did I write all of this? Incase there are also those who are depressed and feeling rock bottom like they've hit it real hard, I wrote this so you can have an example on how to kick back up if whoever reading this is feeling down in the trenches. If this doesn't inspire you then you are free to find yourself your own way to truly dig yourself out from where you are. If you are reading this, the probability that I may be at a low or a high now is totally unexact. As long as I have a metal baseball bat to my problems as I also get busy trying to educate my own Filipino people in secret. We have duterte who is killing off commies and targeting pedo priests here, what is left is to share this link around in my place: deathofcommunismdotcom.
This is good for motivation, this can be used to fuel being motivated to get up.
https://youtu.be/HoFizLtAZMo
To the enemy infiltrators reading this, this maybe intel to you but it's very outdated.
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Sun said:
I don't understand why theres 'enemy Nordics' to begin with.
Me too, but did HPHC not say that this is just a "meme" somewhere? That can't happen but what can make it look like it is the fact that there are other humanoid races that could be as powerful as the Nordics but they use it to satisfy reptilian spirituality and ideology. People with so much intelligence but they can't use it the right way. Please correct me if this is wrong.
What I think of this imo is just like in socializing, there are people who are very different that they really cannot be with each other because they'd hate each other completely if they do so, all it takes is one to be arrogant enough to start disrespecting boundaries of the second individual because they become spiritually inferior or they really are that. There exists the weird and the insanely weird. Life looks like a collection of higher and lower levels of nature to me, correct me if I'm wrong because I am trying to find real answers on this on my own too, I'll be very grateful if there is a final conclusion to this mystery someday.
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The Alchemist7 said:
Maybe those nordic alliens were microchipped and turned into "nordic goyim" by the reptiles, who knows. Maybe they do not even live anymore on their home planet. If that's the case, that's what they got from betraying the Gods, enslavement under the control of the reptilians who control the greys and jews as well. I wouldn't be surprised if it's true.
Yes, but I think GOD brains are very hard to microchip since gods are a lot much more psychic than them so the chips will break before being put into them instead. They won't let all that happen to them in the first place if they are gods.
Also, if microchipping god brains are POSSIBLE then OH HELL THE FUCK NO FINAL RTR LIKE IT'S AN ENDLESS WWII NIGHT FIREFIGHT.
WARNING: THIS MAY CAUSE MENTAL HYPERACTIVITY. LOOK AT YOUR OWN RISK BEFORE SHOOTING ME.
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