Gay

[skinny91mp]

Has anyone else experienced a change/shift in sexual preference since practicing? I was wondering if there was chakra work that I could do to be completly heterosexual? I'm not going to live a bi sexual lifestyle nor act on these "feelings". I can't even control my eyes when I interact with other men and they give me this disgusted look on their faces and it kills me a LOT. What do I have to do to kill these feelings? Its very depressing . Help

 

[Shannon Outlaw]

I hope you understand that homosexuality is completely natural and is in the soul. Why are you trying to block or hide your preferences and feelings. Actually most heterosexuals are slightly bisexual. I am pretty much straight and still have slight bisexual feelings. Actually ever since practicing yoga and other meditations this has come moree to surface and I was able
to realize it and recognize it and be comfortable with my sexuality.

This happened especially after about practicing kundalini yoga for about
4 months and more.

We are NOT christians and muslims. Hiding and repressing sexuality and who you are is NOT healthy and NOT part of satanism. Dont forget this. Let the meditations evolve you and free your soul.

If anything your soul is probably evolving and going through temporary changes. Just keep meditating.
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On Thu, Mar 6, 2014 3:23 PM PST skinny91mp@... wrote:

Has anyone else experienced a change/shift in sexual preference since practicing? I was wondering if there was chakra work that I could do to be completly heterosexual? I'm not going to live a bi sexual lifestyle nor act on these "feelings". I can't even control my eyes when I interact with other men and they give me this disgusted look on their faces and it kills me a LOT. What do I have to do to kill these feelings? Its very depressing . Help

 

[Teloc Vovim]

It's interesting that you ask that, but you shouldn't be ashamed of your sexuality. That's a jewish program, where they want to restrict your soul and just who you are. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being gay. When you start meditating consistently you start to open your soul and you finally begin to feel free. Example most people are programmed to be monogamist and having more than one lover is a "sin" or people will make this big deal about it. When I got on a good mediation schedule and really started opening my soul I found I was a polygamist. It's just me and how I feel, I hate being restricted in any form. Don't try and repress sexual feelings because they are natural. Don't be afraid to be you, restricting your soul is never good and can cause psychological harm.   "The absence of darkness in a person does not suggest an abundance of light, for to know the light you must have known the darkness."[/B]
www.JoyofSatan.org
www.exposingchristianity.com
http://spiritualwarfare666.webs.com/Satans_Library.htm

On Thursday, March 6, 2014 10:42 PM, "skinny91mp@..." <skinny91mp@... wrote:
  Has anyone else experienced a change/shift in sexual preference since practicing? I was wondering if there was chakra work that I could do to be completly heterosexual? I'm not going to live a bi sexual lifestyle nor act on these "feelings". I can't even control my eyes when I interact with other men and they give me this disgusted look on their faces and it kills me a LOT. What do I have to do to kill these feelings? Its very depressing . Help

 

[skinny91mp]

I don't want that in my life. Where is it located in the soul? What if I want kids and a wife that's not open to dating bi sexual men? This doesn't have to be apart of my history I don't want to like dudes.... Help this is not a gift FOR ME

 

[Shannon Outlaw]

You don't want it in your life because you feel that everyone around you (who are programmed by the jews) don't want it in your life. Be who you are. You don't think you want it but it may just be apart of you. You either accept it and let your souls's natural energy flow or restrict your self and have more blockages and hang ups in your soul area. Stop feeling like you have to please society or be accepted. Homosexuality is not wrong. Like I said before, Most people have bi sexual tendencies and desires but are so repressed by the enemy.
Fine. You can still have a wife and be so called "straight" but acknowledge and accept the fact that you may naturally be bisexual. Its okay.  Hail our Creator God Satan.

On Friday, March 7, 2014 12:14 PM, Teloc Vovim <teloc.vovim666@... wrote:
  It's interesting that you ask that, but you shouldn't be ashamed of your sexuality. That's a jewish program, where they want to restrict your soul and just who you are. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being gay. When you start meditating consistently you start to open your soul and you finally begin to feel free. Example most people are programmed to be monogamist and having more than one lover is a "sin" or people will make this big deal about it. When I got on a good mediation schedule and really started opening my soul I found I was a polygamist. It's just me and how I feel, I hate being restricted in any form. Don't try and repress sexual feelings because they are natural. Don't be afraid to be you, restricting your soul is never good and can cause psychological harm.   "The absence of darkness in a person does not suggest an abundance of light, for to know the light you must have known the darkness."
www.JoyofSatan.org
www.exposingchristianity.com
http://spiritualwarfare666.webs.com/Satans_Library.htm

On Thursday, March 6, 2014 10:42 PM, "skinny91mp@..." <skinny91mp@... wrote:
  Has anyone else experienced a change/shift in sexual preference since practicing? I was wondering if there was chakra work that I could do to be completly heterosexual? I'm not going to live a bi sexual lifestyle nor act on these "feelings". I can't even control my eyes when I interact with other men and they give me this disgusted look on their faces and it kills me a LOT. What do I have to do to kill these feelings? Its very depressing . Help

 

[egon_88_666]

You can't, and you don't need, to change you sexuality just like you can't change your race. Instead, you have to accept yourself and deprogram your mind from xtianity, read:http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic2629.html
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic1615.html
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic1012.html

 

[skinny91mp]

So how do I get my life back? Exploration is not for me I only had sex w a woman once ..watch gay porn? I need to be able to function w out people knowing at least

 

[skinny91mp]

Race and sexuality are not he same by a long shot. I don't consciously like men! I don't care for the masculine anatomy ... It's l subconscious ... I. Don't control my eyes..i constantly try to make eye contact from other men's Chests and balls and asses. It's. Not a good life...it's the mediation and yoga..I don't want to like men or be have an upper chakra disposition.. gay men are not socially attractive to me.. NO OFFENSE I can't live like that I don't consciously want a penis in my mouth

 

[Shannon Outlaw]

Now you are just being immature and ignorant. Are you een comprehending all the information and advice given to you??

The advice and info was given and thats that. You still have some homophobic enemy programming in you.

No more excuses...



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On Fri, Mar 7, 2014 4:49 PM PST skinny91mp@... wrote:

Race and sexuality are not he same by a long shot. I don't consciously like men! I don't care for the masculine anatomy ... It's l subconscious ... I. Don't control my eyes..i constantly try to make eye contact from other men's Chests and balls and asses. It's. Not a good life...it's the mediation and yoga..I don't want to like men or be have an upper chakra disposition.. gay men are not socially attractive to me.. NO OFFENSE I can't live like that I don't consciously want a penis in my mouth

 

[Fourth Reich]

As I have learned the hard way, attempting to suppress your sexuality will do nothing but mess you up. Every time you try you are fucking yourself. Due to Islamic programming from early years, the only person who is homophobic to me is myself. Like you, my sexuality became apparent to me because of spiritual progress, and I wasn't ready for it. Again, like you, I tried to "change it" which fucked me up even more. You have it stuck in your mind from programming that sexuality is a phase/concept. You think it's like religion; you can switch whenever you choose. Your ignorance is only getting you in to deeper problems, Shannon and others have informed you this about 6x already.. You should start taking her/their advice before you regret not doing so later. Also, check this out/ <font>www.gblt.webs.com  HAIL WOTAN!!!/HAIL AMON RA!!!/ HAIL HORUS!!! HIEL HITLER!!! SIEG HEIL!!!!14/88!!!
-fourthreich666
From: "skinny91mp@..." <skinny91mp@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, March 8, 2014 7:09 PM
Subject: [Advanced_Meditation] RE: Gay

  So how do I get my life back? Exploration is not for me I only had sex w a woman once ..watch gay porn? I need to be able to function w out people knowing at least

 

[skinny91mp]

Ok ok ok...How do I not look at men subconsciously...you made your point

 

[skinny91mp]

Ok I did some research but how do I regain my ability to look other men in the eye? THAT is the biggest problem. I don't need that

 

[Shannon Outlaw]

Why do you have a problem looking at men in the eyes?

Sounds like you have a real hang up. Again if its homophobia then you need to keep MEDITATING and empower your soul to get rid of that enemy programming. This comes in time.

Be patient.



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On Sat, Mar 8, 2014 2:23 PM PST skinny91mp@... wrote:

Ok I did some research but how do I regain my ability to look other men in the eye? THAT is the biggest problem. I don't need that

 

[Aurora Borealis1]

You just think about it, and you do it, and then you quit thinking about it and do it, and suddenly you've done it, and can't not do it anymore =]
   I believe, and I could be wrong, Hp maxine said at some point, or some other Spiritual Satanist, or maybe it was Father Satan, that if you meditate before you start your day or do anything else, you'll have a much better day.
 Just change the outlook, change the power, change the feel. If it was one thing at one time, and now it's something else, something unwanted, you... can still go back too the likeness of or too the prior state of things.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL ALL THE MIGHTY GODS AND GODESSES OF HEL!
 SIEG HEIL!




To: [email protected]
From: soutlaw92@...
Date: Sun, 9 Mar 2014 06:47:29 -0700
Subject: Re: [Advanced_Meditation] RE: Gay

 
Why do you have a problem looking at men in the eyes?

Sounds like you have a real hang up. Again if its homophobia then you need to keep MEDITATING and empower your soul to get rid of that enemy programming. This comes in time.

Be patient.

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On Sat, Mar 8, 2014 2:23 PM PST skinny91mp@... wrote:

Ok I did some research but how do I regain my ability to look other men in the eye? THAT is the biggest problem. I don't need that

 

[skinny91mp]

Just to give an update I have had these urges for sometime and have done some meditating and a lot of reading and searching. I felt jealous of people who have healthy sex lives and resented sex all together. All in all I was and still some what of a sex "hater" and realizing where my fears have come from has done a lot. I've always felt like a loser because females never wanted I touch me and because of the world we are in I felt like if I can't attract the opposite sex I am unworthy which is not totally true but in MY universe is somewhat. While I am not totally against homo sex I am still self conscious because of performance anxiety and self esteem issues. I know 2-3 days is fast but it happened. Thanks all

 

[Shannon Outlaw]

Yoga and meditation will get rid of all those sexual/mental issues. Trust me. Stay strong.



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On Thu, Mar 13, 2014 1:12 PM PDT skinny91mp@... wrote:

Just to give an update I have had these urges for sometime and have done some meditating and a lot of reading and searching. I felt jealous of people who have healthy sex lives and resented sex all together. All in all I was and still some what of a sex "hater" and realizing where my fears have come from has done a lot. I've always felt like a loser because females never wanted I touch me and because of the world we are in I felt like if I can't attract the opposite sex I am unworthy which is not totally true but in MY universe is somewhat. While I am not totally against homo sex I am still self conscious because of performance anxiety and self esteem issues. I know 2-3 days is fast but it happened. Thanks all

 

[mad max]

Skinny, write down things that you want to fix and form affirmations. It's easy as that.
For example, in your case: 
* I am heterosexual* I don't like other men* My eyes are completely normal * I don't have any homosexual thoughts etc.
Then commit to repeating those affirmations daily and then you are in those situations (3 times a day perhaps). That will program your energy and change your beliefs and behaviors in subconscious level. Best if you get yourself into a trance state before affirmations. Otherwise it takes more time.
M.

On Friday, March 14, 2014 1:53 AM, Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@... wrote:
 
Yoga and meditation will get rid of all those sexual/mental issues. Trust me. Stay strong.

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On Thu, Mar 13, 2014 1:12 PM PDT skinny91mp@... wrote:

Just to give an update I have had these urges for sometime and have done some meditating and a lot of reading and searching. I felt jealous of people who have healthy sex lives and resented sex all together. All in all I was and still some what of a sex "hater" and realizing where my fears have come from has done a lot. I've always felt like a loser because females never wanted I touch me and because of the world we are in I felt like if I can't attract the opposite sex I am unworthy which is not totally true but in MY universe is somewhat. While I am not totally against homo sex I am still self conscious because of performance anxiety and self esteem issues. I know 2-3 days is fast but it happened. Thanks all

 

[Kael Meier]

Mad Max, and Skinny, sexuality can not be changed,  I believe High Priest Jake Carlson stated this once, sexuality goes down to the very core of your soul.  If you're gay, you're gay. if you're bi your bi, if you're straight, you're straight. I've tried changing sexuality before, not of my self, but of some one else close to me (Selfish I know.), it had no results. Sexuality is as much a part of you as your own personality is. Dare I say even the fires of the sun couldn't change it.
Try and be happy with who you are, if there is a flaw with your self, if it can't be changed, try to find a way to be happy with your self. Or come to terms with it in any way you can. But I believe, worrying over being gay is just plain and downright stupid, you should only really about a flaw when it directly harms others, or is causing you harm. (Things like drug addictions, etc.) If it's not hurting anyone, don't get so stressed out over it.
HAIL SATAN!HAIL ANUBIS!


On Tuesday, March 18, 2014 3:16:27 AM, mad max <maddox111@... wrote:
  Skinny, write down things that you want to fix and form affirmations. It's easy as that.
For example, in your case: 
* I am heterosexual* I don't like other men* My eyes are completely normal * I don't have any homosexual thoughts etc.
Then commit to repeating those affirmations daily and then you are in those situations (3 times a day perhaps). That will program your energy and change your beliefs and behaviors in subconscious level. Best if you get yourself into a trance state before affirmations. Otherwise it takes more time.
M.

On Friday, March 14, 2014 1:53 AM, Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@... wrote:
 
Yoga and meditation will get rid of all those sexual/mental issues. Trust me. Stay strong.

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On Thu, Mar 13, 2014 1:12 PM PDT skinny91mp@... wrote:

Just to give an update I have had these urges for sometime and have done some meditating and a lot of reading and searching. I felt jealous of people who have healthy sex lives and resented sex all together. All in all I was and still some what of a sex "hater" and realizing where my fears have come from has done a lot. I've always felt like a loser because females never wanted I touch me and because of the world we are in I felt like if I can't attract the opposite sex I am unworthy which is not totally true but in MY universe is somewhat. While I am not totally against homo sex I am still self conscious because of performance anxiety and self esteem issues. I know 2-3 days is fast but it happened. Thanks all

 

[mad max]

You talk from your own experience and don't force it on others. Reality is not a fixed thing, unless you choose to believe it is. There's lot more you can do than to just change your sexual preference. And I don't care who said what. M.

On Wednesday, March 19, 2014 12:04 AM, Kael Meier <meierkael@... wrote:
  Mad Max, and Skinny, sexuality can not be changed,  I believe High Priest Jake Carlson stated this once, sexuality goes down to the very core of your soul.  If you're gay, you're gay. if you're bi your bi, if you're straight, you're straight. I've tried changing sexuality before, not of my self, but of some one else close to me (Selfish I know.), it had no results. Sexuality is as much a part of you as your own personality is. Dare I say even the fires of the sun couldn't change it.
Try and be happy with who you are, if there is a flaw with your self, if it can't be changed, try to find a way to be happy with your self. Or come to terms with it in any way you can. But I believe, worrying over being gay is just plain and downright stupid, you should only really about a flaw when it directly harms others, or is causing you harm. (Things like drug addictions, etc.) If it's not hurting anyone, don't get so stressed out over it.
HAIL SATAN!HAIL ANUBIS!


On Tuesday, March 18, 2014 3:16:27 AM, mad max <maddox111@... wrote:
  Skinny, write down things that you want to fix and form affirmations. It's easy as that.
For example, in your case: 
* I am heterosexual* I don't like other men* My eyes are completely normal * I don't have any homosexual thoughts etc.
Then commit to repeating those affirmations daily and then you are in those situations (3 times a day perhaps). That will program your energy and change your beliefs and behaviors in subconscious level. Best if you get yourself into a trance state before affirmations. Otherwise it takes more time.
M.

On Friday, March 14, 2014 1:53 AM, Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@... wrote:
 
Yoga and meditation will get rid of all those sexual/mental issues. Trust me. Stay strong.

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On Thu, Mar 13, 2014 1:12 PM PDT skinny91mp@... wrote:

Just to give an update I have had these urges for sometime and have done some meditating and a lot of reading and searching. I felt jealous of people who have healthy sex lives and resented sex all together. All in all I was and still some what of a sex "hater" and realizing where my fears have come from has done a lot. I've always felt like a loser because females never wanted I touch me and because of the world we are in I felt like if I can't attract the opposite sex I am unworthy which is not totally true but in MY universe is somewhat. While I am not totally against homo sex I am still self conscious because of performance anxiety and self esteem issues. I know 2-3 days is fast but it happened. Thanks all

 

[Kael Meier]

Live in your own ignorance, but do not force it upon others. Repressing sexuality is a terrible thing. You have already stated that you don't care what is said, so I won't waste anymore of my time upon you, since it is clear you not only love ignorance, you simply adore it.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL ANUBIS!


On Tuesday, March 18, 2014 7:31:17 PM, mad max <maddox111@... wrote:
  You talk from your own experience and don't force it on others. Reality is not a fixed thing, unless you choose to believe it is. There's lot more you can do than to just change your sexual preference. And I don't care who said what. M.

On Wednesday, March 19, 2014 12:04 AM, Kael Meier <meierkael@... wrote:
  Mad Max, and Skinny, sexuality can not be changed,  I believe High Priest Jake Carlson stated this once, sexuality goes down to the very core of your soul.  If you're gay, you're gay. if you're bi your bi, if you're straight, you're straight. I've tried changing sexuality before, not of my self, but of some one else close to me (Selfish I know.), it had no results. Sexuality is as much a part of you as your own personality is. Dare I say even the fires of the sun couldn't change it.
Try and be happy with who you are, if there is a flaw with your self, if it can't be changed, try to find a way to be happy with your self. Or come to terms with it in any way you can. But I believe, worrying over being gay is just plain and downright stupid, you should only really about a flaw when it directly harms others, or is causing you harm. (Things like drug addictions, etc.) If it's not hurting anyone, don't get so stressed out over it.
HAIL SATAN!HAIL ANUBIS!


On Tuesday, March 18, 2014 3:16:27 AM, mad max <maddox111@... wrote:
  Skinny, write down things that you want to fix and form affirmations. It's easy as that.
For example, in your case: 
* I am heterosexual* I don't like other men* My eyes are completely normal * I don't have any homosexual thoughts etc.
Then commit to repeating those affirmations daily and then you are in those situations (3 times a day perhaps). That will program your energy and change your beliefs and behaviors in subconscious level. Best if you get yourself into a trance state before affirmations. Otherwise it takes more time.
M.

On Friday, March 14, 2014 1:53 AM, Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@... wrote:
 
Yoga and meditation will get rid of all those sexual/mental issues. Trust me. Stay strong.

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On Thu, Mar 13, 2014 1:12 PM PDT skinny91mp@... wrote:

Just to give an update I have had these urges for sometime and have done some meditating and a lot of reading and searching. I felt jealous of people who have healthy sex lives and resented sex all together. All in all I was and still some what of a sex "hater" and realizing where my fears have come from has done a lot. I've always felt like a loser because females never wanted I touch me and because of the world we are in I felt like if I can't attract the opposite sex I am unworthy which is not totally true but in MY universe is somewhat. While I am not totally against homo sex I am still self conscious because of performance anxiety and self esteem issues. I know 2-3 days is fast but it happened. Thanks all

 

[burningthunder666]

Ok even I've gotten annoyed by this. Considering I only step in here rarely. Come on you have several spiritual satanists here giving you no bull answers and you choose to accept the one which says what you want… really? This is the pursuit of truth, knowledge, power. There is NONE of that in idiocy and ignorance. So the sooner you stop acting like an xian the sooner you'll be able to control your own urges, make it part of you to not care what others say about this and NOT post this kind of stuff on the advanced meditation group. All the information that you've received you can find on JoS in a matter of minutes. Ave Satanas Hail Hecate and the old ones.

 

[Shannon Outlaw]

Stop being so ignorant and stupid. Every good satanist here is telling you gppd advice and you still choose to be blind just like a xian. This thread should end now. If you choose to keep repressing your sexuality then be my guess. You are the one who will have to deal with the hang ups.



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On Tue, Mar 18, 2014 5:38 PM PDT mad max wrote:

You talk from your own experience and don't force it on others. Reality is not a fixed thing, unless you choose to believe it is. There's lot more you can do than to just change your sexual preference. And I don't care who said what. M.



On Wednesday, March 19, 2014 12:04 AM, Kael Meier <meierkael@... wrote:

 
Mad Max, and Skinny, sexuality can not be changed,  I believe High Priest Jake Carlson stated this once, sexuality goes down to the very core of your soul.  If you're gay, you're gay. if you're bi your bi, if you're straight, you're straight. I've tried changing sexuality before, not of my self, but of some one else close to me (Selfish I know.), it had no results. Sexuality is as much a part of you as your own personality is. Dare I say even the fires of the sun couldn't change it.

Try and be happy with who you are, if there is a flaw with your self, if it can't be changed, try to find a way to be happy with your self. Or come to terms with it in any way you can. But I believe, worrying over being gay is just plain and downright stupid, you should only really about a flaw when it directly harms others, or is causing you harm. (Things like drug addictions, etc.) If it's not hurting anyone, don't get so stressed out over it.

HAIL SATAN!
HAIL ANUBIS!




On Tuesday, March 18, 2014 3:16:27 AM, mad max <maddox111@... wrote:

 
Skinny, write down things that you want to fix and form affirmations. It's easy as that.

For example, in your case: 

* I am heterosexual
* I don't like other men
* My eyes are completely normal 
* I don't have any homosexual thoughts etc.

Then commit to repeating those affirmations daily and then you are in those situations (3 times a day perhaps). That will program your energy and change your beliefs and behaviors in subconscious level. Best if you get yourself into a trance state before affirmations. Otherwise it takes more time.

M.



On Friday, March 14, 2014 1:53 AM, Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@... wrote:

 

Yoga and meditation will get rid of all those sexual/mental issues. Trust me. Stay strong.

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On Thu, Mar 13, 2014 1:12 PM PDT skinny91mp@... wrote:

Just to give an update I have had these urges for sometime and have done some meditating and a lot of reading and searching. I felt jealous of people who have healthy sex lives and resented sex all together. All in all I was and still some what of a sex "hater" and realizing where my fears have come from has done a lot. I've always felt like a loser because females never wanted I touch me and because of the world we are in I felt like if I can't attract the opposite sex I am unworthy which is not totally true but in MY universe is somewhat. While I am not totally against homo sex I am still self conscious because of performance anxiety and self esteem issues. I know 2-3 days is fast but it happened. Thanks all

 

[reimerwesley]

Shannon and the others are right. Listen to your inner self. As I was reading this, I also asked myself if there was a possibility of myself being bisexual. I am not ashamed, but however, I don't think I am. I have had instances where I have thought of men on a sexual level before, I have even experimented in homosexual masturbation but I found that it wasn't too appealing to me. It wasn't horrible in my eyes, but it's not as pleasing to me as heterosexuality. So I'm starting to wonder if I'm just straight. But later on down the road I won't rule out that these feelings could change. I think the ratio of straight to gay with me might be like 99:1. But however you seriously can't choose your sexuality, it's just who you are. However If I'm slightly gay I'm perfectly happy with that. I like boobies, HAIL SATAN