Frustrated and almost giving up

[officialkenshin]

Hi all, good day to you satanic Brothers, I have a serious problem. I started out Satanism fee months back. I have been working using 40 day program. Was excited at first after a while close to the ending of the 40 day program I started to lose interest, becoming gradually lazy and la of motivation. I was a Christian for years since childhood before I finally got to this truth, I never saw any spiritual things in Christianity, I never saw god or any damn angels or even got a sign no matter how hard I prayed.

I broke away because it wasn't making sense. I love Satan so much , I have always had the passion for this way of life because things of the occult has always intrigued me but I have never succeeded in any even when I tried joining some occult brotherhood on net which I know are of the enemy now,

My problem now is, I have asked father Satan to show me signs, even come to my dream, I have offered short prayers even to my GD, explaining my pain that all I want is just one sign or manifestation in my dream for any of satan demon to come to me to make me believe that yes I'm on the right track and not a blind faith like xtianity but all to no avail!

I fee really lonely. I feel rejected like father Satan doesn't give a fuck about me. I'm dedicated satanist. All I wanted was just a sign to fully motivate me. I meditate but I feel like I'm not doing anything real. I have worked on my third eyes, crown chakra all I got was only serious migraines, I feel stuck and left out, I don't even know where I stand I have never had any spiritual encounter before *tears* I even find it hard to visualize some times as I have grown lazy and not motivated to continue. The only thing holding me from stopping is that when I think of wanting tp fully control my life unlike slave xtian I just want to continue, but there is no motivation, I read that Satanism everything feels really but honestly since my dedication I have never felt different even with regular mediation I feel like the same old guy as I was before dedication the only thing now different Is I now meditate.....*saD* help me guys, I do not know if father Satan doesn't want me, I just feel so sad right now especially when I read about other satanists awesome experience like the guy who posted about his friend made me share my own problem if not I'm sure I would have wallowed in sadness and not speak out...

 

[Jay Eff]

Maybe you're expecting something really extravagant right away and its clouding your ability to see simple signs. If you are truly dedicated and are empowering yourself with meditations and yoga and are doing RTRs you are valued by Satan and the Gods. Keep up with your meditations. Don't miss a day this can throw off your bio electricity and hinder all your progress.
Don't de-value yourself. The fruits of meditation aren't always crazy and earth shattering right away. This takes time and dedication.


Make sure you are cleaning your aura thoroughly and are building a sufficient Aura of Protection. Those two meditations are VERY important for spiritual maintenance and protection. You might not be spiritually open enough to even sense them
If they do manifest astrally. They might have and you just couldn't sense them. They may have visited you in a dream, but sometimes we have dreams that we can't or just don't remember.


Keep your head up, you shouldn't be down on yourself. You have done what very few people on this planet have. You told the jews and their sheep: "NO!!! I won't be a slave!! I want truth!!" And you found that truth and are taking action by empowering yourself. You are ELITE, whether you think so or not (so you might as well start thinking so ?) Keep it up and look for signs anything that seems "coincidental". For example I did a ritual Sunday night asking Satan to guide me to some good material for learning about Astrology and on Wednesday a brother had posted most if not all of JoS information on Astrology in PDF format. Prayer answered! Things like that.


Know that we are here for you as well. We are all a big AWESOME Satanic family and we look after our own. I know it's hard when you first start out I had my own struggles when I first started out. Stay vigilant you are a WARRIOR! Stay relaxed and stop forcing progress just let it happen. There is nothing wrong with you. It just seems to me you're being a bit too hard on yourself and are expecting something really huge in terms of progress after just a short amount of time, that you aren't allowing yourself to notice smaller advancements in your spiritual progress.


As long as you are not a jew; Satan loves and cares for you very much. He may even be trying to show you in some way, but you're not noticing. He will get through. Mark my word on that he will find a way to let you know he loves and values you. Just make sure that you also love and value yourself. Don't put yourself down. You're a badass meditating, witchcraft practicing, jew destroying, child of Satan with the ability to become a GOD! If that's not ABSOLUTELY AWESOME, then I don't know what is. Stay strong comrade.


Hail Satan!!!
Hail the Gods and Goddesses of Hell!!!
The jews WILL be trampled under Satanic feet!!!

 

[satanicninja]

You should read the information linked to here:

(Everyone Must Do) Aura Cleaning and Aura of Protection
https://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/Joy ... ics/170961


From a sermon a while back I remember reading that working for the powers of Hell helps establishing relationships with Satan and the Gods/Demons. It was about doing the RTR's at the time. But fighting for Satan's cause and promoting it (legally and safely/anonymously) is also ways of working for the powers of Hell.

Reverse Torah Rituals Schedule Amended 10/25/16
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic16880.html

RTR ZIP File
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic16988.html

Hell's Army 666
http://joyofsatan.comxa.com/hailtosatan ... y_666.html

What Today Needs! by High Priest Mageson666
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic10009.html

Online Warfare and Reverse Torah Rituals
https://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/Joy ... ics/169640  
You can read about ways here:

How to Work for Satan
https://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/Joy ... ics/170973


In regards to your meditations. Here is an excerpt from HPS Maxine's comment that's informative:

"... Those who are actively working for Satan will receive help from the Powers of Hell and this also has to do with the motivation to do meditation.

The more you do for Satan, the more he does for you."

https://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/Tee ... pics/90607


Meditation on Satan
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... Satan.html

The Truth About Satan
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... Satan.html


You can try to study the Gods/Demons and also read testimonials from other members.

Satan
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Satan.html

Demons, the Gods of Hell
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... emons.html

"*Please note, this webpage is very, very old. In the e-groups, we have had thousands of positive testimonials regarding Satan. ..."

Testimonials to Satan
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ONIAL.html


Testimonials, Prayers, Eulogies and Poems to Satan
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ssays.html

Astral Arts Of The Gods
http://astralartsofthegods.weebly.com/




---In [email protected], <officialkenshin@... wrote :

Hi all, good day to you satanic Brothers, I have a serious problem. I started out Satanism fee months back. I have been working using 40 day program. Was excited at first after a while close to the ending of the 40 day program I started to lose interest, becoming gradually lazy and la of motivation. I was a Christian for years since childhood before I finally got to this truth, I never saw any spiritual things in Christianity, I never saw god or any damn angels or even got a sign no matter how hard I prayed.

I broke away because it wasn't making sense. I love Satan so much , I have always had the passion for this way of life because things of the occult has always intrigued me but I have never succeeded in any even when I tried joining some occult brotherhood on net which I know are of the enemy now,

My problem now is, I have asked father Satan to show me signs, even come to my dream, I have offered short prayers even to my GD, explaining my pain that all I want is just one sign or manifestation in my dream for any of satan demon to come to me to make me believe that yes I'm on the right track and not a blind faith like xtianity but all to no avail!

I fee really lonely. I feel rejected like father Satan doesn't give a fuck about me. I'm dedicated satanist. All I wanted was just a sign to fully motivate me. I meditate but I feel like I'm not doing anything real. I have worked on my third eyes, crown chakra all I got was only serious migraines, I feel stuck and left out, I don't even know where I stand I have never had any spiritual encounter before *tears* I even find it hard to visualize some times as I have grown lazy and not motivated to continue. The only thing holding me from stopping is that when I think of wanting tp fully control my life unlike slave xtian I just want to continue, but there is no motivation, I read that Satanism everything feels really but honestly since my dedication I have never felt different even with regular mediation I feel like the same old guy as I was before dedication the only thing now different Is I now meditate.....*saD* help me guys, I do not know if father Satan doesn't want me, I just feel so sad right now especially when I read about other satanists awesome experience like the guy who posted about his friend made me share my own problem if not I'm sure I would have wallowed in sadness and not speak out... 

 

[satanicninja]

This is in addition to the other comment I wrote:

"... The more you do for Satan, the more Satan will do for you.
[...]
... No human being is of more importance to Satan than a warrior is. Satan will reward you profusely as he has with me. ..."

Concerning Spiritual Warfare
http://joyofsatan.comxa.com/hailtosatan ... rfare.html

 

[officialkenshin]

Thank  you very much in Jay Eff and satanic ninja for this.  It's motivating and I'm happy I have you all and father Satan.  Will not let my reasoning be clouded.  I'm lonely  person so maybe  that's what  making me feel like this.  I will begin  the RTRs and all other necessary things for Satan and will study hard on Joe,   May the Gods of hell and father Satan bless you guys! 
Hail father Satan and Gods of hell! 
-satanic empire. . 

 

[ont3ljqdwwo2kp4cdje6nlaaoaonsmqfjtclku36]

Pain equals growth trust me it will get better just stay true, Satan will come assist you in due time he does not contradict himself. 6 months ago I opened my crown chakra and truly existed on a higher plane, then I started getting a lot of enemy psychic attacks at that time I didn't know why it was happening. Needless to say these past 6 months have been terrible I've been doing power meditations constantly fighting off vicious enemy attacks from 9 foot mongloids lol seriously. This past month has been the worst and I pray to Satan constantly it seems like he dosent listen but then I realized I put myself in this situation I failed to learn the tactics of the enemy and I was doing drugs which causes holes in your aura that makes it easier for the enemy to inflitrate. But when I fight it myself I gain immense power HAIL SATAN THE POWER IS IN YOU

 

[satanicninja]

This is in addition to the other comment I wrote:

"... The more you do for Satan, the more Satan will do for you.
[...]
... No human being is of more importance to Satan than a warrior is. Satan will reward you profusely as he has with me. ..."

Concerning Spiritual Warfare
http://joyofsatan.comxa.com/hailtosatan ... rfare.html


---In [email protected], <mancunianninja@... wrote :

You should read the information linked to here:

(Everyone Must Do) Aura Cleaning and Aura of Protection
https://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/Joy ... ics/170961


From a sermon a while back I remember reading that working for the powers of Hell helps establishing relationships with Satan and the Gods/Demons. It was about doing the RTR's at the time. But fighting for Satan's cause and promoting it (legally and safely/anonymously) is also ways of working for the powers of Hell.

Reverse Torah Rituals Schedule Amended 10/25/16
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic16880.html

RTR ZIP File
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic16988.html

Hell's Army 666
http://joyofsatan.comxa.com/hailtosatan ... y_666.html

What Today Needs! by High Priest Mageson666
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic10009.html

Online Warfare and Reverse Torah Rituals
https://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/Joy ... ics/169640  
You can read about ways here:

How to Work for Satan
https://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/Joy ... ics/170973


In regards to your meditations. Here is an excerpt from HPS Maxine's comment that's informative:

"... Those who are actively working for Satan will receive help from the Powers of Hell and this also has to do with the motivation to do meditation.

The more you do for Satan, the more he does for you."

https://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/Tee ... pics/90607


Meditation on Satan
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... Satan.html

The Truth About Satan
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... Satan.html


You can try to study the Gods/Demons and also read testimonials from other members.

Satan
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Satan.html

Demons, the Gods of Hell
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... emons.html

"*Please note, this webpage is very, very old. In the e-groups, we have had thousands of positive testimonials regarding Satan. ..."

Testimonials to Satan
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ONIAL.html


Testimonials, Prayers, Eulogies and Poems to Satan
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ssays.html

Astral Arts Of The Gods
http://astralartsofthegods.weebly.com/




---In [email protected], <officialkenshin@... wrote :

Hi all, good day to you satanic Brothers, I have a serious problem. I started out Satanism fee months back. I have been working using 40 day program. Was excited at first after a while close to the ending of the 40 day program I started to lose interest, becoming gradually lazy and la of motivation. I was a Christian for years since childhood before I finally got to this truth, I never saw any spiritual things in Christianity, I never saw god or any damn angels or even got a sign no matter how hard I prayed.

I broke away because it wasn't making sense. I love Satan so much , I have always had the passion for this way of life because things of the occult has always intrigued me but I have never succeeded in any even when I tried joining some occult brotherhood on net which I know are of the enemy now,

My problem now is, I have asked father Satan to show me signs, even come to my dream, I have offered short prayers even to my GD, explaining my pain that all I want is just one sign or manifestation in my dream for any of satan demon to come to me to make me believe that yes I'm on the right track and not a blind faith like xtianity but all to no avail!

I fee really lonely. I feel rejected like father Satan doesn't give a fuck about me. I'm dedicated satanist. All I wanted was just a sign to fully motivate me. I meditate but I feel like I'm not doing anything real. I have worked on my third eyes, crown chakra all I got was only serious migraines, I feel stuck and left out, I don't even know where I stand I have never had any spiritual encounter before *tears* I even find it hard to visualize some times as I have grown lazy and not motivated to continue. The only thing holding me from stopping is that when I think of wanting tp fully control my life unlike slave xtian I just want to continue, but there is no motivation, I read that Satanism everything feels really but honestly since my dedication I have never felt different even with regular mediation I feel like the same old guy as I was before dedication the only thing now different Is I now meditate.....*saD* help me guys, I do not know if father Satan doesn't want me, I just feel so sad right now especially when I read about other satanists awesome experience like the guy who posted about his friend made me share my own problem if not I'm sure I would have wallowed in sadness and not speak out... 

 

[zolaluckystar1]

PS: heres a song for you. Satan sent it to me and now I send it to YOU.

Diana Krall - Don't dream it's over  

 

[zolaluckystar1]

One more thing: Don't dream its over....You know that they won't win. Satan is here, He is real and you aren't forgotten, if you do the RTR's and keep on keeping on.
Hail Father Satan Forever!

 

[zolaluckystar1]

Awwww....offialkenshin, I feel your pain. I can tell you first, that I was tormented by the enemy regarding: what if you are a jew? To the point I felt I was losing my freaking mind with worry over it. So I got a DNA test done and I found out that yes, I AM ARYAN. So that question can NEVER come up again. The second....doing meditations. I found that the negative voice of self speak would start up as I worked on Meditations. The thing is if you are getting pressure in your head, this is indicative of the meditations working. The crown is still blocked. The worst enemy to your advancement besides the enemy is yourself. 
As you work on the meditations that negative self voice will speak up and say this isn't going anywhere: I don't feel any different: etc. I felt really lonely, I get it. But the thing is that the Gods actually are there, despite your feelings of loneliness. You feel lonely since you aren't able to feel their presence yet. And the inclination is to blame oneself: Oh I suck, I am abandoned, I am left out. This is the negative ego voice and possibly the enemy as well. They are scared to death of us advancing spiritually. 
I totally understand your pain and feelings of being abandoned. But they are feelings and not the truth. The truth is the Gods are here, REAL, and we are kind of like brain damaged. The way our people have been cut off spiritually, it is like we were in a wicked car accident and are brain damaged. So a person brain damaged has to do rehabilitation. This is what we are doing with the meditations, kind of exercising those spiritual muscles, trying to make them strong again. And it takes time and patience. 
Just keep trying, keep working on yourself, keep talking to the Gods....one day one of them will be able to break through to you. It isn't THEM cutting you out, it is just we have so much to do to reach the point to where we can hear THEM. I so understand your frustration, your pain, the feelings of being abandoned. But the reality is that the feelings you are suffering from are not truth. The Gods are here, they are REAL, And they are with you. Keep on. Don't feel sad. Satan is REAL, and you would not be here if He didn't want you. You are loved. Don't be sad, be joyful! Joy of Satan!!! Remember:
<[/IMG]"There is no place in the universe that knows not my presence." - Satan[/I]

This includes the place where YOU are! And so long as you are with Him, your road will never end!
Hail Satan Forever, in Glory and Power Exalted! Hail Andras, the Indomitable One! Hail Sorath, the One who Burns! 14-88!!!!

 

[elephant255_rises]

You are merely whining, i had the same problems in the beginning, just keep meditating and don't expect anything. The migraines are a "good" sign that it was working.
Consistency and commitment are the key, literally just do it without any expectations and worries, you are slow bloomer? And so what? Meditate every day, if the 40 days program didn't work for you (it didn't work for me) start experimenting and choose your meditations.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ation.html

http://www.kundaliniyoga.org/contents.html


DO IT.

 

[Light Algur]

You must have found out you had no traces of jewish DNA, of the white race and a dedicated Spiritual Satanist which is in turn an Aryan.   Gentile + White + SS = Aryan   The crown chakra is one of the hardest to unblock.   From: zolaluckystar@... [JoyofSatan666]
Sent: Sunday, November 6, 2016 6:00 AM
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Frustrated and almost giving up     Awwww....offialkenshin, I feel your pain. I can tell you first, that I was tormented by the enemy regarding: what if you are a jew? To the point I felt I was losing my freaking mind with worry over it. So I got a DNA test done and I found out that yes, I AM ARYAN. So that question can NEVER come up again. The second....doing meditations. I found that the negative voice of self speak would start up as I worked on Meditations. The thing is if you are getting pressure in your head, this is indicative of the meditations working. The crown is still blocked. The worst enemy to your advancement besides the enemy is yourself. 
As you work on the meditations that negative self voice will speak up and say this isn't going anywhere: I don't feel any different: etc. I felt really lonely, I get it. But the thing is that the Gods actually are there, despite your feelings of loneliness. You feel lonely since you aren't able to feel their presence yet. And the inclination is to blame oneself: Oh I suck, I am abandoned, I am left out. This is the negative ego voice and possibly the enemy as well. They are scared to death of us advancing spiritually. 
I totally understand your pain and feelings of being abandoned. But they are feelings and not the truth. The truth is the Gods are here, REAL, and we are kind of like brain damaged. The way our people have been cut off spiritually, it is like we were in a wicked car accident and are brain damaged. So a person brain damaged has to do rehabilitation. This is what we are doing with the meditations, kind of exercising those spiritual muscles, trying to make them strong again. And it takes time and patience. 
Just keep trying, keep working on yourself, keep talking to the Gods....one day one of them will be able to break through to you. It isn't THEM cutting you out, it is just we have so much to do to reach the point to where we can hear THEM. I so understand your frustration, your pain, the feelings of being abandoned. But the reality is that the feelings you are suffering from are not truth. The Gods are here, they are REAL, And they are with you. Keep on. Don't feel sad. Satan is REAL, and you would not be here if He didn't want you. You are loved. Don't be sad, be joyful! Joy of Satan!!! Remember:
<[/IMG]"There is no place in the universe that knows not my presence." - Satan[/I]

This includes the place where YOU are! And so long as you are with Him, your road will never end!
Hail Satan Forever, in Glory and Power Exalted! Hail Andras, the Indomitable One! Hail Sorath, the One who Burns! 14-88!!!!

 

[officialkenshin]

Wow zolaluckystar it feels like father just spoke through you cause that's exactly how I fucking feel, it's what's happening to me, I get this voices when meditating like are all this things even working,??! Are they real? Those kinds of negative things which adds to my frustration like I don't even know where I stand in this whole damn world ) ; I feel like I'm in the middle of the world a small kid out in the open of nowhere tryna Make it back home) : tryna find where I truly fit in when there is no room for one Father Satan has directed you to me to comfort my heart and I swear I feel warm inside of me and energized right now after reading what you wrote like I know now, yes! this is it, this assurance now deep inside of me saying "yes keep going and never give up or despise little beginning" and the song is really nice, I can't than you enough for this zola, I love you my sister! and I love you all ! thanks for your words and encouragement. Just helped a soul they mean a lot to me. May father Satan greatly reward you all for your efforts.

Hail the true God, our father Satan!
Hail the Gods of hell!

And

Thank you all once again!

 

[blutkrieger666]

Wow! Really good post!

HAIL SATAN!!