feeling kind of hopeless?

[Babalel666]

I recently dedicated myself to Satan.

But I'm starting to have doubts that Satan and the Gods even want me. I have lived a very rough & unspiritual lifestyle up until last year. I didn't even truly believe in anything spiritual until I went to jail last year.

I've lived a lifestyle that mostly consisted of using drugs, criminal behavior, and treating the people around me very poorly.

I'm honestly really scared that the gods don't even want a person like me. My way of living up until recently has left me with deep physical, mental, and spiritual scars.

I..I honestly just don't know.

 

[Sonne]

The past is history and the present, as the name implies, is a gift.

Your focus should be on who you are now and who you will be in the future, not who you were before.

You can become a better person and progress. The important thing is to be aware of these mistakes and try to make up for them.

Satan's and Gods' love is invaluable and unique. The Gods loves and cherishes us because we are their children, even if we make mistakes. And we should strive to be people worthy of that love.

 

[Hs666]

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Don't worry, change your lifestyle and “embrace” your new awareness, the gods will support you for it if you want them to.

 

[Alexandros Iowno [JG]]

The Gods know about humans and human nature, and they also see and understand more than any being existent in all of the worlds. This should make it understood that, as you had the internal desire to become a Spiritual Satanist, and also proved this by the first step, the dedication, as much Spiritual Satanism desired you here, as these things are codependent.

Your internal belonging is the proof of the Gods accepting you on the path of rectification and advancement. These things are aspects of ourselves that resonate and happen as an exchange between the inner and outer world.

Your behavior, mistakes and things like that can be rectified by adhering to the path, focusing on the present and future, and rectifying the past (if you can) to what concerns your consciousness. This process will come in many forms, and you have to be open to the kindness, knowledge, and process of the Gods that want to invest in you.

If you have a heavy consciousness due to past mistakes, write a letter to Satan, and read it to Him, before embarking into cleaning and general advancement, knowing that you are doing all the right things. Do not let guilt, fear, and confusion take a place in front of the Gods, as this is all just self imprisonment from the true rectification and solutions that must come into your life by proper clarity and actions.

 

[Babalel666]

The past is history and the present, as the name implies, is a gift.

Your focus should be on who you are now and who you will be in the future, not who you were before.

You can become a better person and progress. The important thing is to be aware of these mistakes and try to make up for them.

Satan's and Gods' love is invaluable and unique. The Gods loves and cherishes us because we are their children, even if we make mistakes. And we should strive to be people worthy of that love.

thank you, this was very encouraging to read. i will make more of an effort from now on to focus on progressing and focusing on the present and future instead of getting hung up on the past.

 

[Babalel666]

The Gods know about humans and human nature, and they also see and understand more than any being existent in all of the worlds. This should make it understood that, as you had the internal desire to become a Spiritual Satanist, and also proved this by the first step, the dedication, as much Spiritual Satanism desired you here, as these things are codependent.

Your internal belonging is the proof of the Gods accepting you on the path of rectification and advancement. These things are aspects of ourselves that resonate and happen as an exchange between the inner and outer world.

Your behavior, mistakes and things like that can be rectified by adhering to the path, focusing on the present and future, and rectifying the past (if you can) to what concerns your consciousness. This process will come in many forms, and you have to be open to the kindness, knowledge, and process of the Gods that want to invest in you.

If you have a heavy consciousness due to past mistakes, write a letter to Satan, and read it to Him, before embarking into cleaning and general advancement, knowing that you are doing all the right things. Do not let guilt, fear, and confusion take a place in front of the Gods, as this is all just self imprisonment from the true rectification and solutions that must come into your life by proper clarity and actions.

Thank you very much for the words and the advice. Hail Satan. and i will definitely be writing a letter to Satan and reading it to him as you have suggested.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I recently dedicated myself to Satan.

But I'm starting to have doubts that Satan and the Gods even want me. I have lived a very rough & unspiritual lifestyle up until last year. I didn't even truly believe in anything spiritual until I went to jail last year.

I've lived a lifestyle that mostly consisted of using drugs, criminal behavior, and treating the people around me very poorly.

I'm honestly really scared that the gods don't even want a person like me. My way of living up until recently has left me with deep physical, mental, and spiritual scars.

I..I honestly just don't know.

This is a path of transformation for everyone, plus we use our new abilities to spread prosperity to other people, which helps pay back past mistakes.

However, the real power of coming from such a background is that you will be able to serve as an example to others who were also in your position before. Don't underestimate this potential and real value, as you could literally be speaking to troubled people in the future, when Satanism is mainstream, sharing your story. For this aim, keep the pictures of your past, too, instead of perhaps destroying them or forgetting about them.

 

[Emerald]

Even a man like me who only aimed for perfection since birth has made mistakes in ignorance and moments of weakness. I also had these type of thoughts you had, but there is always a door to the light, no matter the darkness you find yourself into. Never give up. Never despair. Victory is in your destiny, push the Will to Power and fly.

 

[StoicAcorn666]

Comrade don’t forget that you are new and have yet to develop your senses for this. It’s also a good idea to clean your energies as well as the beginner power meditations at least once a day so you can better tune in to these messages. The gods can communicate to you in various ways and are likely doing so but you are not aware of it as of now. Try taking time daily to reflect on your day and keep your focus on becoming aware of how they are communicating with you. So long as you stay strong in the path even in difficult times they will not abandon you and are known to have been with many of us through life times.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

But I'm starting to have doubts that Satan and the Gods even want me. I have lived a very rough & unspiritual lifestyle up until last year. I didn't even truly believe in anything spiritual until I went to jail last year.

Welcome!
Try to see facts this way: you have CHOSEN Satanic path, and you know this means letting go past life and past mistakes. So you have CHOSEN to become a better person and you asked the help of the Gods. If you had past wrong behaviour, but know you CHOOSE to be better, this means you did not like what you did. You choice shows your true nature.

A true criminal is like the jews, he does like criminality, enjoys that, and wants to live accordingly. So you are not a criminal as far as I can see, but rather you may have behaved like a dog who suffered beating and poor treatment, and became aggressive barking around - simply because he was not educated to a better life. Satan and the Gods can really educate you to a better life, and this is an immense and valuable gift, as you will carry the fruits in next lives too. You started investing on yourself, thanks to your choice.

Most people felt doubts at the beginning: this is both the enemy trying to stop you, and a poor self-esteem and self-worth levels.
All of this is not your fault as, if a person like you is strong enough to pray to God (Satan IS God), this means you refuse a negative lifestyle. So I think you are good and worthy in the bottom of your heart, as you seek enlightenment, rather than decadence.

I often sense people on here who has been mistreated, abused or bullied in childhood and you sound like one.
When a person has been wronged and mistreated as a kid, most often develops a bottom self-esteem and does not trust anyone. He may be convinced the world is bad and that he does not deserve a valuable life. Therefore this person falls, attracted by negativity, because he really thinks he deserves to be a negative person, as when he was a kid, they let him think he was "bad". Same as the barking dog, it attacks, because of wrong feelings.
This may be hard to fix and recover, but is really possible, and will bring to unexpected and deserved betterment in life.

You made a choice that is clearly showing, your true intent.

Good luck on your path