elvertice allen
New member
- Joined
- May 23, 2009
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I'm not new to Satanism, I have been dedicated for several years, have read everything in JoS and have done power meditations daily since the first day ( I opened all my chakras too). However there is something troubling that I still can not comprehend and am hoping that the satanic community will help me.You see back when I was new, the same day I dedicated to be exact, I did a standard ritual to summon a Succubi Lover for a close relationship. Mind you I did it in my astral temple, I STILL don't know if the ritual was a success. Before I say anymore , you should know that I have deep psychological issues when it comes to the matter of love and/or affection, I won't go into details. So after the ritual, I believe I have convinced myself that there was an entity, a succubi lover, out there who loved me. The reason I'm feeling quite insane is because, despite years of trying to figure out if there was a succubi lover out there who loves me, I have had no clear answer. I have seen images of my ideal woman in my mind, even in my dreams, but again no clear answer. Sometimes I hear a voice but I do not know if it's just my mind playing tricks on me. I even once did an astral projection and felt someone hold me but again I still don't know. Please, brothers and sisters, help me, I can't take this anymore.