Feeling frustrated

[Solider of suns]

Hi, I was wondering if anyone could give me some advice regarding a problem I’ve been having?

Whenever I think anything about father Satan whether it be how he is god or the good guy or amazing (which he is) I get attacked my aura goes grey and I see spooks. It’s getting rather difficult to meditate when you see and feel negative energy attaching itself to your aura! What’s even more annoying is the enemy is putting their filth of Christianity in my mind non stop they desperately want me to accept Jewsus! Even if I don’t believe in him I still get paranoid that certain thoughts could tie me into the wrong energies! Whenever I’m feeling happy they say it’s jewsus or whenever I see my aura getting brighter it has to be Jesus’s even though I know the light is from Satan! One of my greatest fears is going back to that filthy christ! I don’t want to deny Satan but how do I accept Satan as my god and reject the filth when it’s constantly being shoved down my thought I get pains and stresses when coming to Satan sometimes and it’s obviously the enemy! Could some of you help reassure me that there is no going back and how to handle the negative energies and delusion
S im suffering from? How do I know I’m cleaning my aura and doing the foundation meditation when all I see is greyness and stiffness in my body! A it still working! I’ve stated before how sometimes I see deep blue energy around me and it’s great I just don’t know how to break the delusions that I’m denying Satan and going to Jewsus whenever I see light or whatever! I hope this makes sense and how shall I approach meditations what could help me relax and just know I’m never leaving Satan and never going back to that filthy Nazarene no matter what I see in my aura! I love Satan but I guess my subconscious still believes in this Nazarene crap! Even though I know it isn’t real!

 

[Draconi666]

Hi, I was wondering if anyone could give me some advice regarding a problem I’ve been having?

Whenever I think anything about father Satan whether it be how he is god or the good guy or amazing (which he is) I get attacked my aura goes grey and I see spooks. It’s getting rather difficult to meditate when you see and feel negative energy attaching itself to your aura! What’s even more annoying is the enemy is putting their filth of Christianity in my mind non stop they desperately want me to accept Jewsus! Even if I don’t believe in him I still get paranoid that certain thoughts could tie me into the wrong energies! Whenever I’m feeling happy they say it’s jewsus or whenever I see my aura getting brighter it has to be Jesus’s even though I know the light is from Satan! One of my greatest fears is going back to that filthy christ! I don’t want to deny Satan but how do I accept Satan as my god and reject the filth when it’s constantly being shoved down my thought I get pains and stresses when coming to Satan sometimes and it’s obviously the enemy! Could some of you help reassure me that there is no going back and how to handle the negative energies and delusion
S im suffering from? How do I know I’m cleaning my aura and doing the foundation meditation when all I see is greyness and stiffness in my body! A it still working! I’ve stated before how sometimes I see deep blue energy around me and it’s great I just don’t know how to break the delusions that I’m denying Satan and going to Jewsus whenever I see light or whatever! I hope this makes sense and how shall I approach meditations what could help me relax and just know I’m never leaving Satan and never going back to that filthy Nazarene no matter what I see in my aura! I love Satan but I guess my subconscious still believes in this Nazarene crap! Even though I know it isn’t real!

Banishing Ritual

 

[Draconi666]

Banishing Ritual

Are you doing AoP? What cleaning you are doing? How much you do void meditation?

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

Have you done the Dedication ritual yet? This will help to seperate you from those kinds of habits or influences. The rest will be removed automatically as you work to advance. The gods know and understand your real intentions.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I honestly think the point is: you are fighting against yourself and possibly your family/close xian people because at the unconscious level, xianity is still pushing to survive in your mind.
Apart aura cleaning, protection, etc. that is BASIC, keep in mind that when you feel drained and you see few light in your aura, it may be because you are using your power to free your mind from xianity, and this requires the use of your energies. This is why it's important to keep energies strong, so you can overcome this. Meditate!

My main advice is : read, read, read (or listen mp3) of Sermons, Exposing Xianity. etc., daily if you can, on a regular basis. This helped me immensely at first and I still re-read sometimes, as the minds can fade memories with time.

 

[Solider of suns]

I’ve done the dedication ritual twice and banishing rituals many times I just can’t seem to tolerate the attacks anymore the meditations feel impossible if followed by thoughts of love towards the gods! The attacks can be of the nature of seeing baphomet but the Christian baphomet, and hearing it to! I know it’s not Satan but damn my life is just hard I hear voices telling me really triggering things that are really perverse! All when I give my love to the gods You don’t need to worry I’m solid in Satan but damn i just want the delusions to shatter so I can establish a better understanding and realationship with Satan. I feel it’s honestly the church and some madman with spiritual knowledge cursing me to go back even though there is no leaving Satan thank god! They attacks consist of them telling me about how they kill kids! Something out there REALLY wants me to give up on Satan maybe even the devil himself! How do I build a tolerance and resilience to these disgusting greys Jews Christian’s ect!

 

[Solider of suns]

I try my hardest to meditate and it’s been 5 years of this and I only see the light every now and then

 

[Hellenic SS]

I suggest you do all of the following on a daily basis:

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Cleaning your Aura:

Your Aura is a bioelectrical field around your body which can subconsciously affect you and others around you. Our world has many sources of spritiual decay and filth, so cleaning your Aura consistently is vital. Link: https://satanisgod.org/Aura_Cleaning.html

Building your Aura of Protection:

Your Aura must become stronger to endure more on both the physical and the spiritual realm. Curses, negative energy, and astral attacks will bounce off you and onto the people/entities who direct them at you. Link: https://satanisgod.org/Protection.html

Kundalini Meditation:

The Kundalini is located inside the spine and can be stimulated by activating and fueling your chakras with energy. Each chakra has unique aspects and enriches the soul in various manners. Activating the Kundalini makes you feel passionate, motivated, strong, caring, communicative, and much more. Working on your chakras daily will be reflected in your social life as well, making people subtly attracted to you and entrusting you with sex, leadership, secrets, etc. Links: https://satanisgod.org/The_Chakras.html , https://satanisgod.org/Kundalini.html

Void Meditation:

Void Meditation helps with focus, self-control, seriousness, clarity, and discipline. Link: https://satanisgod.org/Satanic_Void_Meditation.html

Reverse Torah Rituals:

RTR's are rituals in which excerpts from the Old Testament (written in hebrew) are read in reverse. Thus, the curses included in the Old Testament are torn apart and are prevented from manifesting in the material world. RTR's are a vital weapon for spiritual warfare. They often include affirmations/mantras and runes for more power and effectiveness. Links: https://josrituals.org/ , https://satanisgod.org/Odin.html

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

Do the Returning Curses parts 1 and 2. You can do these every day. And working on cleaning the chakras. These will help you.

 

[Havoc]

I would suggest doing research into the other depictions and stories of Satan and the Gods (like Poseidon and Shiva) look at images and build up a sense of who Satan is outside of the Satan vs the jews framework so that when mental images of the Gods come up you have a much deeper revisor to draw from, you want your relationship with the Gods to be deeper then your hatred for the jews

 

[WoadWarrior]

I have encountered similar problems I found relief by doing a lot of extra foundation meditation WITHOUT an affirmation, many would disagree about how useful that is but I find just "charging up" to be of tremendous benefit, perhaps like me you need to just breathe in more energy, I experience what you mention when I push myself too far e.g do too many rituals or too much cleaning and empowerment but foundation meditation always sets me right again, give it a go, worst case scenario you waste 30 minutes, best case your problem is fixed.

I have also found it far harder to communicate with the Gods or even feeling their energy when looking at their sigils when I don't charge up, so I think over expending energy can lower your astral level and thus move you further from Satan's light and closer to the domain of the enemy which exacerbates the problem.

Also the best way IMO to better strengthen your connection with Satan is to perform his ritual then meditate on his sigil, it always does me a good to be feel the energy of the Allfather, although right now you should do King Baal's ritual and his energy is very similar to Satan's at least to my senses it is.

 

[Solider of suns]

Thank you everyone much appreciated