Friday13thx
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Ok. So I’m not blood dedicated. However I did some sort of dedication where I wrote out that I dedicate my soul to Father Satan and rejected all the vile foul and odious Jewish filthy gods. I changed it for like 3 or 5 or 7 times I think then burnt it with my black candle. I can’t remember if I also had the red and blue candles too.
However on the 10th of this month. Around the early hours say 2:30 am I did some sort of sexual SATANAMA and wealth affirmation meditation. .
While masturbating all the way from building orgasms to finally orgasming I was breathing in deeply and chanting SATANAMA on the exhale while also doing the wealth affirmation. All these with my eyes closed and in my mind. I wasn’t chanting out.
I finally had an intense orgasm an still continued chanting for a while and affirming.
After a while I stood up from where I was and went to lay on the bed and closed my eyes to sleep.
That was when it happened.
I think I felt a profound presence in my room. The room was pitch black. The presence felt so real. It was however the presence of a strong and mighty entity. I felt it was Father Satan deep in my soul and mind and wanted to meditate on him while this was happening but I don’t know why but I got scared.
I started to think what if this is really Father. Then Jewish hell filthy thoughts came into my mind and I started asking “do you really want to do this?” “Do you really want to talk to him?”
I was so scared I opened my eyes and picked up my phone to do whatever on it just to sort of ignore the presence.
It left. I felt peace. However I can’t stop thinking that was father trying to contact me and assure me that he’s with me and he loves me deeply.
Lately I’ve been thinking about Father a lot. I mean a lot and it’s some sort of familial and sexual love. Kind of mixed. Like how one feels when you love someone so so so so much.
So please advanced people here. Was it Father? Was that dedication valid enough to get father to notice I even exist?
However on the 10th of this month. Around the early hours say 2:30 am I did some sort of sexual SATANAMA and wealth affirmation meditation. .
While masturbating all the way from building orgasms to finally orgasming I was breathing in deeply and chanting SATANAMA on the exhale while also doing the wealth affirmation. All these with my eyes closed and in my mind. I wasn’t chanting out.
I finally had an intense orgasm an still continued chanting for a while and affirming.
After a while I stood up from where I was and went to lay on the bed and closed my eyes to sleep.
That was when it happened.
I think I felt a profound presence in my room. The room was pitch black. The presence felt so real. It was however the presence of a strong and mighty entity. I felt it was Father Satan deep in my soul and mind and wanted to meditate on him while this was happening but I don’t know why but I got scared.
I started to think what if this is really Father. Then Jewish hell filthy thoughts came into my mind and I started asking “do you really want to do this?” “Do you really want to talk to him?”
I was so scared I opened my eyes and picked up my phone to do whatever on it just to sort of ignore the presence.
It left. I felt peace. However I can’t stop thinking that was father trying to contact me and assure me that he’s with me and he loves me deeply.
Lately I’ve been thinking about Father a lot. I mean a lot and it’s some sort of familial and sexual love. Kind of mixed. Like how one feels when you love someone so so so so much.
So please advanced people here. Was it Father? Was that dedication valid enough to get father to notice I even exist?