Blitzkreig [JG]
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Putting this here for others to see, as even if we have heard such messages repeatedly, they are very important. Many of us have taken alternative paths not just within this life, but through our past lives, as we fight for Satanism in a world that may not understand us. This has the unfortunate consequence of creating social and emotional conflict, in addition to what a normal person would face.
Although many of us rightfully put effort into the masculine aspects of the soul, we cannot ignore the feminine and other social elements. Even the strongest of warriors will lose themselves if they do not have emotional strength and advancement, and so this should not be taken lightly. This is currently seen within rampant PTSD and suicide rates of the military and other masculine careers, such as police and fireman.
The energy of Aries must work in conjunction with Libra, as both are lost without the other. We can see that Venus works hard to create something pleasurable and which attracts us. Although Mars likes to be independent, he cannot help, but fall in love with the grace of Venus. As a family and community spawns around this relationship, Mars now has a place to comfort him and give him something to fight for.
When warriors cite their reasons for fighting, they often cite their country and family and their obligations to that, which can be seen as the state of their lunar and venusian aspects of themselves. When this is taken from people, they become despondent and unhappy, no matter how athletic they are, or how much money they have. They can even become aggressive and antisocial, angry and frustrated.
Although such a man can dominate on the battlefield, he loses the war at home because he was unable to win within the realm of the mind and feminine. As such, his power becomes unguided and even self-destructive. Through a lack of understanding and knowledge, many do not even know why they feel the way they do, or what they can do to fix it. The modern world, in many ways, barely touches feminine health, viewing it as something for only crazy people to worry about.
For us to be truly advanced, we must have all of these aspects of us under control, healthy, and strong. We cannot call ourselves advanced if our soul has been emotionally worn down and liable to snap. Our spiritual power does not have a stable base to call home if this were the case.
Everyone must be very aware of this within themselves and their natal chart. Look to the state of your Moon, Venus, Neptune, even Mercury, and the houses in which they rule on your chart, as well as their naturally-ruled houses (like 12th for Neptune). Although this is not necessary to begin a generalized working for psychological health (see below), knowing where you are most likely to struggle is always important.
It is normal for the body to block out emotions in order to avoid pain, just as it tries to avoid physical pain. However, with emotional pain, the damage is more internal and harder to escape from, compared to a physical threat. If you think of our emotions like the water element, a damaged psychological state is like a polluted pool of water. Because of the pollution and trauma, it has trouble interacting with other sensitivities and emotions of life, either with other people or the person themself.
What you are going through is a real wound and should not be understated or downplayed. However, in this case, you are letting in negatively impact you way too much, as it had caused you to lose hope for the future, potentially threatening your ability to heal.
If someone had a large cut on their arm, they would not claim that it is who they are, or that it is not real, or that it will never heal, and so on. Instead of letting it bleed out or get infected, they would immediately bandage it and go to a hospital.
It is easier for us to not identify with this physical type of damage because we see it as external to us. This is harder to do with emotional pain, however it is just as necessary to do this, rather than let ourselves be consumed by depressing thoughts. It needs to be actively addressed, just like we would bandage our arm.
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As you are already familiar with meditation and so forth, that means your soul should be in a strong enough state to start working on this. This upcoming August 30th Pisces Esbat would be a terrific time to start a working with Wunjo to heal. You can use an affirmation as simple as x40 or x80 Wunjo and: "This energy of Wunjo has permanently improved my psychological health and happiness, in a fully positive way for me." x5 or x9
Visualize the pool of emotions and feelings within you brightening, purified, and your happiness growing. Fulfillment and happiness can take many forms and is different between people, so leave this broad. As the energy has been applied, you are a new person from that day on, even if not immediately obvious. This grows every day and continues as the energy repairs and upgrades you.
Do at least 40 days, but the more you do the, the better the result. Fully healing can take time, so you should do this perhaps even out to a year. I say this just to be realistic, not make you balk. From this working, you will feel much happier, but also have some backlash and have some upsetting periods. Do not worry about this, but make sure you take your cleaning and protection seriously in order to help this process.
Although many of us rightfully put effort into the masculine aspects of the soul, we cannot ignore the feminine and other social elements. Even the strongest of warriors will lose themselves if they do not have emotional strength and advancement, and so this should not be taken lightly. This is currently seen within rampant PTSD and suicide rates of the military and other masculine careers, such as police and fireman.
The energy of Aries must work in conjunction with Libra, as both are lost without the other. We can see that Venus works hard to create something pleasurable and which attracts us. Although Mars likes to be independent, he cannot help, but fall in love with the grace of Venus. As a family and community spawns around this relationship, Mars now has a place to comfort him and give him something to fight for.
When warriors cite their reasons for fighting, they often cite their country and family and their obligations to that, which can be seen as the state of their lunar and venusian aspects of themselves. When this is taken from people, they become despondent and unhappy, no matter how athletic they are, or how much money they have. They can even become aggressive and antisocial, angry and frustrated.
Although such a man can dominate on the battlefield, he loses the war at home because he was unable to win within the realm of the mind and feminine. As such, his power becomes unguided and even self-destructive. Through a lack of understanding and knowledge, many do not even know why they feel the way they do, or what they can do to fix it. The modern world, in many ways, barely touches feminine health, viewing it as something for only crazy people to worry about.
For us to be truly advanced, we must have all of these aspects of us under control, healthy, and strong. We cannot call ourselves advanced if our soul has been emotionally worn down and liable to snap. Our spiritual power does not have a stable base to call home if this were the case.
Everyone must be very aware of this within themselves and their natal chart. Look to the state of your Moon, Venus, Neptune, even Mercury, and the houses in which they rule on your chart, as well as their naturally-ruled houses (like 12th for Neptune). Although this is not necessary to begin a generalized working for psychological health (see below), knowing where you are most likely to struggle is always important.
Late Bloomer said:at least I'm not in that type of pain because I'm not able to feel it completely, it's somehow a victory, if I was still able to feel strong emotions I wouldn't last even a week before totally losing my mind and doing something terrible, out of control
When I talk about pain and suffering for my situation it's more a psychological condition than real pain, I don't feel anything to be honest, I don't know how understandable this can be
It is normal for the body to block out emotions in order to avoid pain, just as it tries to avoid physical pain. However, with emotional pain, the damage is more internal and harder to escape from, compared to a physical threat. If you think of our emotions like the water element, a damaged psychological state is like a polluted pool of water. Because of the pollution and trauma, it has trouble interacting with other sensitivities and emotions of life, either with other people or the person themself.
What you are going through is a real wound and should not be understated or downplayed. However, in this case, you are letting in negatively impact you way too much, as it had caused you to lose hope for the future, potentially threatening your ability to heal.
If someone had a large cut on their arm, they would not claim that it is who they are, or that it is not real, or that it will never heal, and so on. Instead of letting it bleed out or get infected, they would immediately bandage it and go to a hospital.
It is easier for us to not identify with this physical type of damage because we see it as external to us. This is harder to do with emotional pain, however it is just as necessary to do this, rather than let ourselves be consumed by depressing thoughts. It needs to be actively addressed, just like we would bandage our arm.
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As you are already familiar with meditation and so forth, that means your soul should be in a strong enough state to start working on this. This upcoming August 30th Pisces Esbat would be a terrific time to start a working with Wunjo to heal. You can use an affirmation as simple as x40 or x80 Wunjo and: "This energy of Wunjo has permanently improved my psychological health and happiness, in a fully positive way for me." x5 or x9
Visualize the pool of emotions and feelings within you brightening, purified, and your happiness growing. Fulfillment and happiness can take many forms and is different between people, so leave this broad. As the energy has been applied, you are a new person from that day on, even if not immediately obvious. This grows every day and continues as the energy repairs and upgrades you.
Do at least 40 days, but the more you do the, the better the result. Fully healing can take time, so you should do this perhaps even out to a year. I say this just to be realistic, not make you balk. From this working, you will feel much happier, but also have some backlash and have some upsetting periods. Do not worry about this, but make sure you take your cleaning and protection seriously in order to help this process.