Drugs

[xlnt]

I have a confession to make: I have been drugging myself a bit lately.
Not going to say what drugs exactly, but it may have some connection with the death of my cat recently and other things, like being unemployed and having a room mate not paying rent, smoking weed and not helping out much. He's out now though finally.

Out are also the drugs. It tricks the mind into believing it's necessary to use, when the opposite is true - It's necessary to not use drugs, if happiness is a goal in life.
The typical drug addict will fool himself into thinking "it's spicing up life", when it's in fact shitting on it. This is an important fact, and should be mentioned more often.
Being against drug use is not being against Joy, but FOR it.

So why did I take drugs exactly? Not feeling that well probably, and being stupid enough to solve it with drugs. Trying to put out a fire with gasoline basically is what it is.
I've kept my routine with yoga, running and gym, but been lacking in meditation and RTR's - which should have been done instead of drugs.
There is a common thing that drug users share with people who commit suicide - the notion of it (drugs/suicide) being the ONLY option, and so also the notion of it being somehow totally necessary.

I think writing this post can help me keep myself clean of drugs. I'm sure I'm not alone in having slipped a bit into some drugs at hard times, not even here. I'm advanced enough to admit it though.
Yes, I took some drugs lately, and yes it was fucking stupid. Spiritual Satanists don't do drugs. They advance and breathe in oxygen - not smoke from burned materials.

It's important for me to contemplate on why this mistake of mine happened.
And why do people take drugs? They somehow must think it's necessary to do so. So Why necessary? That's something all drug users should think about.
Is it because one cannot enjoy life, have fun or feel happy without the drugs? If that is the reason for it being so necessary, then it's all totally false one. The opposite is true.

Being sober and clean of drugs is the best place to be in, but that can be hard to understand when your cat dies. I have to face myself and not flee. Only then can True happiness be reached.

 

[xlnt]

One more reason for doing drugs is the difficulty one can have of doing certain things in a sober state. This is important to contemplate on also.

Exactly everything can be done in the sober state - like talking to new people, being yourself truly etc.
Not only can it be done, but done even better.

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

Very good. It looks like you have already done all the addiction detoxification steps also suggested in HP HoodedCobra666's sermons. Great, congratulations on reaching a new maturity.

 

[WiseDragon]

I'm very sorry for your cat brother. I know it can be difficult.

I do agree with everything you wrote. When we are in pain, disappointed and stressed our dopamine levels drop significantly, and our brains start tempting us with all sorts of things to have a quick dopamine fix, 'to feel better'. The truth though, as you point out, is that it only makes everything worse. It solves absolutely nothing, now one has the problems he had before giving in, and he feels even worse because of the fact that he gave in. Just one more problem.

My advice to you is to talk yourself out loud and do a reset. Stating to yourself that you won't do this ever again and that you're back on track. When you feel stressed and also tempted, Meditation can truly help you greatly in feeling better. It will raise dopamine levels in a very harmonious, beautiful and healthy way. You can also check this post: https://ancient-forums.com/threads/an-important-tip-about-handling-temptation.292280/