Hello friends call me Miare. Within the last hour of All hallows Eve of 2012 I will be doing my dedication ritual to my new found lord and friend Lucifer. I wanted and needed a little advice I'm limited to friends with my current interest but have been wickedly blessed with a man of my own that takes Lucifer and this beautiful religion within his heart and his soul. But I wanted to know if it is normal for the following to happen to a new commer such as me. Within the last two weeks the dreams I have are changed, they are vivid and feel extremely real it all started when I first tried to feel and meditate my chakras. I can feel them but they open at random and control is not mine. Its difficult and I struggle with it. But the first time I tried to open my third eye is however another story now its been two weeks and I just cant shut it... at all. My dreams not only trip me out they trip out my man as well. I've had dreams where I described his ex to a tee, who I have never seen before. I've dreamt about my past about things I've never dealt with because I never seen a point to it. I've dreamt about destroying my past with lucifer at my side, he gave me choices and weapons to completely annialate my fears that I couldnt admit on my own. I've had others where Lucifer would tell me my desires and things I'd never admit in real life, about love,fear, longing and just so much more.... I had one where I really tripped out my man. Within the dream I was standing with him and lucifer walked around and around him talking to him but my man cant hear his words, lucifer looks at me and tells me he is a fine an noble choice for me however to be careful my mans heart has suffered greatly... its filled with walls to block out everyone.In the dream My man says he loves me for first time and tries to kiss me but he fades away with lucifer into darkness right before lucifer leaves he shows me my mans phone with a parchment paper resting on it there written in magic gold script was my mans passcode to his phone, as the rest of both of them disappear lucifers voice says do what you will with it my young one...prove to him that you can be trusted...prove to him that love is still possible as much as he denies he needs it... When I woke up I was a bit shaken and I almost started a fight with him about something completely stupid and pointless because I hadnt told him my dream yet, I was wrapped up in anger,fear and uncertainty. when I calmed down he had left the room and his phone on the table... I just stared at it. So many scenerios played within my mind the natural female jealousy to check it search for something anything... but then I thought about a talk we had about trusting each other and how from past experiences he cant do that with me. I continued to stare at the phone and I cried silently and cursed the made up crap I had in my head I was ashamed of it. when he came back i went into the bathroom After I gathered myself and went back to him. I told him my dream when he asked for the passcode lucifer gave me his face went completely blank as it was correct. he carries his phone everywhere and never leaves it out for more than a min... I just hope my man wasnt angry with me for telling him but it'd go against everything I believe in within a relationship, if i had kept it to myself. All this... my dreams, my chakras, the voices I hear ,my uncontrol.... i'm hoping with the dedication ritual if lucifer will be able to help me with my controll issues. I've only been seriously interested in this religion for the last month when all this has happened but have been aware of lucifer all my life. I know im very different from others but is it normal for me to be this deep within everything? thank you for your time reading this and sorry if it was boreing and just a passing glance. HAIL SATAN!