Difficult Succubi relationship & how I started in Satanism

[Specter]

If an hp could delete this thread in a few days I'd appreciate it thanks.

You should ping Cobra or another HP here so he'll see your request.

*ping*

You shouldn't really delete this thread it contains a lot of value for people myself included.

Yeah alright, but I really wish I could change the title.

 

[Hp. Hoodedcobra666]

You should ping Cobra or another HP here so he'll see your request.

You shouldn't really delete this thread it contains a lot of value for people myself included.

Yeah alright, but I really wish I could change the title.

This post has been helpful to SS who have incubi or succubi. I can definitely change the title. There is instructional value here. Let me know which title is more appropriate.

 

[Shael]

Isn't HPHC the one who is letting the posts through? So he have to read them anyway, I think.

I think there are a bunch of other moderators aside from him, also.

 

[Vaal]

Isn't HPHC the one who is letting the posts through? So he have to read them anyway, I think.

I think there are a bunch of other moderators aside from him, also.

Maybe. Who knows.

 

[Specter]

You shouldn't really delete this thread it contains a lot of value for people myself included.

Yeah alright, but I really wish I could change the title.

This post has been helpful to SS who have incubi or succubi. I can definitely change the title. There is instructional value here. Let me know which title is more appropriate.

Yeah that's true, I forgot for a second but I'm glad that this has.
I think a title of something like: Difficult Succubi relationship & how I started in Satanism
Or something like that would be better thanks very much.

 

[Specter]

Also one very helpful advice I could give is that Succubi/Incubi really like poems,songs and many forms of art about them that you put your heart into. It doesn't have to be perfect but they will appreciate this tremendously. My teacher made us write a poem about someone we cared about and I wrote one about the succubus although indirectly. I'm not really good at poetry but I really meant what I wrote and did the best I could and this lead to one of the most pleasant experiences that I've described in the story after I got home from school. Really wish I could go back to the good times but there is only forward.

 

[sahasrarabliss]

Also one very helpful advice I could give is that Succubi/Incubi really like poems,songs and many forms of art about them that you put your heart into. It doesn't have to be perfect but they will appreciate this tremendously. My teacher made us write a poem about someone we cared about and I wrote one about the succubus although indirectly. I'm not really good at poetry but I really meant what I wrote and did the best I could and this lead to one of the most pleasant experiences that I've described in the story after I got home from school. Really wish I could go back to the good times but there is only forward.

Thank you very much for sharing this.

 

[NameHere]

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Hi there!!

I just wanted to thank you so so much!!!!

Your posts really helped me in an answer that I was seeking!

Back in 2016 I did an official JoS ritual going through Father Satan and requesting an Incubus.
For a few years I thought that I had an Incubus, but other times I was doubtful.

Finally, I asked Father Satan to please lead me to an answer whether be it a dream state one or a sign or anything else in return for a F-RTR. I did 3 and then I felt like searching up for signs if you have a Daemon lover and then BAM, I felt like reading specifically what you wrote and it helped clear my head and Father Satan indeed helped me lead me to an answer!!

You have no idea how relieved I am to know this.
I am grateful that Father Satan didn't grant me my wish in having a Daemon lover as I was not ready and still am not and I would of only did stupid things instead of being a true lover to the Daemon Father Satan would have given me..

Anyways, in short - THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!
I hope Father Satan blesses you!!!!

Hail Satan!!!

 

[Specter]

Also one very helpful advice I could give is that Succubi/Incubi really like poems,songs and many forms of art about them that you put your heart into. It doesn't have to be perfect but they will appreciate this tremendously. My teacher made us write a poem about someone we cared about and I wrote one about the succubus although indirectly. I'm not really good at poetry but I really meant what I wrote and did the best I could and this lead to one of the most pleasant experiences that I've described in the story after I got home from school. Really wish I could go back to the good times but there is only forward.

Thank you very much for sharing this.

Not sure if I've said this somewhere before but you could also dedicate a place of recognition for your succubus, or incorporating one on your Satanic altar. Especially if you have a monogamous succubus as they become a major part of your life and helps maintain a good relationship as this also shows your devotion and willingness to welcome her into your life. The book "Sexual Alchemy by Donald Tyson" goes into detail about constructing altars/idols for the succubus and/or various ways to show your appreciation or communicate etc but there are some things you shouldn't take literal. There you can keep all of your memento's or related things dedicated to her.

The JoS site doesn't go into a lot of detail about this subject and lacks a lot of necessary information, considering some may have backgrounds or have experienced this phenomena to some degree, of what could help them figure this out better but it helped me understand a little bit. As I've matured over the years I've understood this phenomena better. Many authors who write do not acknowledge enemy entities or try to associate these beings with the enemy(angels) resulting in unpleasant experiences, if they have any genuine experience at all. Those who do provide admonition are quite rare, such as the succubuslove site but it does not explain the full extent on the situation and shies away from it entirely. To pursue a monogamous relationship would definitely be foolish not understanding the "waters" (guilty as charged) but I felt in some way I was destined for this, and the astro readings I got later confirmed it.

I'm quite glad that this has helped others and it's helped me get over my mistakes. I'm surprised I didn't get flamed too much because of the topic of the reason of the issue lol. There is no silver platter with all the answers and sometimes you have to figure things out and use your own judgement not only to get the right answer but for the betterment of your own character. I think that's what the gods wants. But I've appreciated the input of most here, especially Rook and Shael. Last I talked to rook was last month or so but unfortunately he won't be active due to reasons. For a while at least if he hopefully figures things out.

My follow up post on the story, this will be my last entry as I won't be writing about any more experiences or boast in my success or failure due to kikes and certain individual presence here (Damn the views). And I think I've got a good concept on what to do now. I hope many members find the info here useful though, if anyone can relate an experience or some sort feel free to ping me on a different thread.
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Firstly regarding one of the experience I talked about, I was remembering back then about the vision I had of her after I was fantasizing. I usually end all of these fantasies with a kiss on her lips, so when that vision of her appeared it pretty much caught me by surprise and I wasn't entirely aware she was actually projecting herself in my mind and only realized like 2 minutes later. Anyway when she projected herself in this vision it "overlapped" this fantasy but I wasn't aware, and in this state I could not quickly acknowledge this or realize the fact she was not happy and tried to kiss her in what now became a vision. Well, she quickly turned her head away looking at me in disgust with her eyes squinted and was looking at me like a stranger, even more unsettled, I was tremendously disheartened and sad by this. I had also realized that I could actually physically interact with her in some way in these visions.

But the reason I brought this up is that I couldn't recall then, but maybe for a brief moment I caught a glimpse of her eyes changing, to a dark blue, implying regret in her expression. All I could remember then was that she looked away from my eyes towards what I was doing with my thing with a concerned or blank look. I've been pondering on this for so long but I'm certain now this to be the case, so I feel that there is some hope, but her head was still turned away upset at the fact of what I did. There's a saying that a picture is worth a thousand words, but to the best I can describe I could say her look would be "This is all he ever does nowadays, is this all he cares about?" and maybe implications of my addictions becoming a problem, and realized this was true and that this relationship lost the essence of what it really was, I lost sight of my companion and friend. This wasn't going to get anywhere.

Maybe what I should've done after I had made the first biggest mistake was to just sit down and meditate upon her, and talk to her, rather than assuming her relationship preferential only to find out how severely wrong I was the hard way and in the process make her even more angry but it was at this point I truly realized that this whole phenomena wasn't an illusion and that my actions did have consequences. I was too hesitant to write about any of these experiences prior, uncertain if it was even real, I initially inquired to the site owner of succubuslove but to no response suggesting he may not have have considered it to be a real phenomena so I kept it to myself.

As for recent experiences I don't have anything relevant in regards to her but one night I was trying to forcefully induce an experience by laying in bed hoping to have a dream/vision of her to get answers, I was getting hit with a lot of negativity/depression vibes but out of frustration I kept trying, not realizing I was making a similar mistake as last time, and then I gave up and went to sleep still thinking about her. Well later on I woke up to a vision of a gray, it was kinda similar to the reptilian experience, I'm asleep having a blank dream and the only thing I remember is the vision, but as I woke up this time the image kept appearing in my head and I was literally struggling for my mind. The gray image just kept appearing in my head and it was really disturbing, I went to get water on my face but then it stopped along the way (probably as my brain left the sleeping state and more into waking, as described on another post) and this was officially the last time I ever tried to contact the succubus like this. My efforts seamed to have linked to an enemy E.T or maybe some kind of interception. I really don't know know what that thing wanted, the vision appeared to show a gray, but its face was turned toward something else and it was motionless but I felt that it did have its attention towards me and it felt negative. Whatever the case disregarding it was the best decision.

Something interesting though was that it had something on its head, like 3 purplish coords/fins attached and it was looking at something. The vision only showed its head until half its waist, I can't recall a clear picture of the area exactly but it looked cramped and probably suggests it was coming from some kind of capsule or space, wouldn't be surprised if it was in a ufo. Perhaps at some point previously, the presence of enemy E.Ts was not as much as it was right now attempting to interfere in the affairs of the gods towards individuals here, as well as the war on the mind. But I'm not so foolish to think that there could have been cases of impersonation and have received many warnings.

A few months ago I was having a lot of problems, caused by the coronavirus situation, troubling me personally and emotionally and asked Satan for help. The situation eased up after a few weeks with me making it out more effervescent than ever. But I think sometime after or between I had another one of these vivid dreams, as usual sexual intercourse with someone, but I could not make out a face as my sight was slight in this state and I couldn't understand what was happening, I only saw a body that looked similar but I'm unsure if it was really her. Could barely move anything but all I remember was that I was on top of her and my body kept gliding off of her for some reason and she kept fixing me into place. Then I began to phase out, wondering where I was, all I could see was bright white, then I was worried I died or something, and not realizing that I disengaged with her she grabbed me and my skin started to feel like it was burning again and woke up. I'm certain this being was related in some way but I feel something isn't right here with the burning feeling.

Despite all of that I'm determined that I can figure this out. I'm not going to lie that I didn't make some mistakes but I'm currently trying to complete nofap and abstaining from porn until I get to a 90 day mark, hopefully which will fix my sex drive in the process and focus on what I really want. It isn't an easy task that for sure as I'm having trouble making it past day one and resetting streaks but I feel the resilience building up and am confident I'll make it through. I know this is what she would've wanted. As well as some Venus squares to balance out my chakras from all the Mars squares I've done. Hopefully I'll feel ready enough to ask Satan for my succubus.

As for what I did in my previous life times I do not know and is a mystery on its own honestly. Lydia encouraged me to use the Othal rune, but I remember one time I was using Eihwaz prior when I was new, and Eihwaz helps you find wisdom in previous lives as well. One day I attempted to lucid dream thinking about my past life, I may have been successful and a black and white apparition of a figure appeared which soon began to colorize and reveal a man with a white cloak, like a white sannyasa, walking on this grassy valley of some sort, he was traveling towards somewhere, he was walking at a normal pace but I felt something was on his mind. Short but this is the only feasible experience I've had with my past life.

This summer I was out looking at the sky at night with the moon showing, every once in a while I go out to look to reflect on how my life has been and the things I've improved, how everything led to this, thinking about the gods, thinking about the Succubus and the fact that she could physically be out there somewhere. Well all I'm going to say is that was a very special night, for me and other passing by commercial airplanes. It brought a tear to my eye, still does to this day when I think about. It wouldn't make a difference with whatever I said as it would reaffirm what we already know and have thought, and it would also probably breed more troll parodying, but also there's a feeling of something strange. But I highly encourage members to stargaze, not just because you may never know what you'll see, but the sky in general is such a magnificent thing to ponder at, like an artwork that is always unique and special, full of mystery. There's a yantra in everything.

 

[Rook]

Also one very helpful advice I could give is that Succubi/Incubi really like poems,songs and many forms of art about them that you put your heart into. It doesn't have to be perfect but they will appreciate this tremendously. My teacher made us write a poem about someone we cared about and I wrote one about the succubus although indirectly. I'm not really good at poetry but I really meant what I wrote and did the best I could and this lead to one of the most pleasant experiences that I've described in the story after I got home from school. Really wish I could go back to the good times but there is only forward.

Thank you very much for sharing this.

Not sure if I've said this somewhere before but you could also dedicate a place of recognition for your succubus, or incorporating one on your Satanic altar. Especially if you have a monogamous succubus as they become a major part of your life and helps maintain a good relationship as this also shows your devotion and willingness to welcome her into your life. The book "Sexual Alchemy by Donald Tyson" goes into detail about constructing altars/idols for the succubus and/or various ways to show your appreciation or communicate etc but there are some things you shouldn't take literal. There you can keep all of your memento's or related things dedicated to her.

The JoS site doesn't go into a lot of detail about this subject and lacks a lot of necessary information, considering some may have backgrounds or have experienced this phenomena to some degree, of what could help them figure this out better but it helped me understand a little bit. As I've matured over the years I've understood this phenomena better. Many authors who write do not acknowledge enemy entities or try to associate these beings with the enemy(angels) resulting in unpleasant experiences, if they have any genuine experience at all. Those who do provide admonition are quite rare, such as the succubuslove site but it does not explain the full extent on the situation and shies away from it entirely. To pursue a monogamous relationship would definitely be foolish not understanding the "waters" (guilty as charged) but I felt in some way I was destined for this, and the astro readings I got later confirmed it.

I'm quite glad that this has helped others and it's helped me get over my mistakes. I'm surprised I didn't get flamed too much because of the topic of the reason of the issue lol. There is no silver platter with all the answers and sometimes you have to figure things out and use your own judgement not only to get the right answer but for the betterment of your own character. I think that's what the gods wants. But I've appreciated the input of most here, especially Rook and Shael. Last I talked to rook was last month or so but unfortunately he won't be active due to reasons. For a while at least if he hopefully figures things out.

My follow up post on the story, this will be my last entry as I won't be writing about any more experiences or boast in my success or failure due to kikes and certain individual presence here (Damn the views). And I think I've got a good concept on what to do now. I hope many members find the info here useful though, if anyone can relate an experience or some sort feel free to ping me on a different thread.
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Firstly regarding one of the experience I talked about, I was remembering back then about the vision I had of her after I was fantasizing. I usually end all of these fantasies with a kiss on her lips, so when that vision of her appeared it pretty much caught me by surprise and I wasn't entirely aware she was actually projecting herself in my mind and only realized like 2 minutes later. Anyway when she projected herself in this vision it "overlapped" this fantasy but I wasn't aware, and in this state I could not quickly acknowledge this or realize the fact she was not happy and tried to kiss her in what now became a vision. Well, she quickly turned her head away looking at me in disgust with her eyes squinted and was looking at me like a stranger, even more unsettled, I was tremendously disheartened and sad by this. I had also realized that I could actually physically interact with her in some way in these visions.

But the reason I brought this up is that I couldn't recall then, but maybe for a brief moment I caught a glimpse of her eyes changing, to a dark blue, implying regret in her expression. All I could remember then was that she looked away from my eyes towards what I was doing with my thing with a concerned or blank look. I've been pondering on this for so long but I'm certain now this to be the case, so I feel that there is some hope, but her head was still turned away upset at the fact of what I did. There's a saying that a picture is worth a thousand words, but to the best I can describe I could say her look would be "This is all he ever does nowadays, is this all he cares about?" and maybe implications of my addictions becoming a problem, and realized this was true and that this relationship lost the essence of what it really was, I lost sight of my companion and friend. This wasn't going to get anywhere.

Maybe what I should've done after I had made the first biggest mistake was to just sit down and meditate upon her, and talk to her, rather than assuming her relationship preferential only to find out how severely wrong I was the hard way and in the process make her even more angry but it was at this point I truly realized that this whole phenomena wasn't an illusion and that my actions did have consequences. I was too hesitant to write about any of these experiences prior, uncertain if it was even real, I initially inquired to the site owner of succubuslove but to no response suggesting he may not have have considered it to be a real phenomena so I kept it to myself.

As for recent experiences I don't have anything relevant in regards to her but one night I was trying to forcefully induce an experience by laying in bed hoping to have a dream/vision of her to get answers, I was getting hit with a lot of negativity/depression vibes but out of frustration I kept trying, not realizing I was making a similar mistake as last time, and then I gave up and went to sleep still thinking about her. Well later on I woke up to a vision of a gray, it was kinda similar to the reptilian experience, I'm asleep having a blank dream and the only thing I remember is the vision, but as I woke up this time the image kept appearing in my head and I was literally struggling for my mind. The gray image just kept appearing in my head and it was really disturbing, I went to get water on my face but then it stopped along the way (probably as my brain left the sleeping state and more into waking, as described on another post) and this was officially the last time I ever tried to contact the succubus like this. My efforts seamed to have linked to an enemy E.T or maybe some kind of interception. I really don't know know what that thing wanted, the vision appeared to show a gray, but its face was turned toward something else and it was motionless but I felt that it did have its attention towards me and it felt negative. Whatever the case disregarding it was the best decision.

Something interesting though was that it had something on its head, like 3 purplish coords/fins attached and it was looking at something. The vision only showed its head until half its waist, I can't recall a clear picture of the area exactly but it looked cramped and probably suggests it was coming from some kind of capsule or space, wouldn't be surprised if it was in a ufo. Perhaps at some point previously, the presence of enemy E.Ts was not as much as it was right now attempting to interfere in the affairs of the gods towards individuals here, as well as the war on the mind. But I'm not so foolish to think that there could have been cases of impersonation and have received many warnings.

A few months ago I was having a lot of problems, caused by the coronavirus situation, troubling me personally and emotionally and asked Satan for help. The situation eased up after a few weeks with me making it out more effervescent than ever. But I think sometime after or between I had another one of these vivid dreams, as usual sexual intercourse with someone, but I could not make out a face as my sight was slight in this state and I couldn't understand what was happening, I only saw a body that looked similar but I'm unsure if it was really her. Could barely move anything but all I remember was that I was on top of her and my body kept gliding off of her for some reason and she kept fixing me into place. Then I began to phase out, wondering where I was, all I could see was bright white, then I was worried I died or something, and not realizing that I disengaged with her she grabbed me and my skin started to feel like it was burning again and woke up. I'm certain this being was related in some way but I feel something isn't right here with the burning feeling.

Despite all of that I'm determined that I can figure this out. I'm not going to lie that I didn't make some mistakes but I'm currently trying to complete nofap and abstaining from porn until I get to a 90 day mark, hopefully which will fix my sex drive in the process and focus on what I really want. It isn't an easy task that for sure as I'm having trouble making it past day one and resetting streaks but I feel the resilience building up and am confident I'll make it through. I know this is what she would've wanted. As well as some Venus squares to balance out my chakras from all the Mars squares I've done. Hopefully I'll feel ready enough to ask Satan for my succubus.

As for what I did in my previous life times I do not know and is a mystery on its own honestly. Lydia encouraged me to use the Othal rune, but I remember one time I was using Eihwaz prior when I was new, and Eihwaz helps you find wisdom in previous lives as well. One day I attempted to lucid dream thinking about my past life, I may have been successful and a black and white apparition of a figure appeared which soon began to colorize and reveal a man with a white cloak, like a white sannyasa, walking on this grassy valley of some sort, he was traveling towards somewhere, he was walking at a normal pace but I felt something was on his mind. Short but this is the only feasible experience I've had with my past life.

This summer I was out looking at the sky at night with the moon showing, every once in a while I go out to look to reflect on how my life has been and the things I've improved, how everything led to this, thinking about the gods, thinking about the Succubus and the fact that she could physically be out there somewhere. Well all I'm going to say is that was a very special night, for me and other passing by commercial airplanes. It brought a tear to my eye, still does to this day when I think about. It wouldn't make a difference with whatever I said as it would reaffirm what we already know and have thought, and it would also probably breed more troll parodying, but also there's a feeling of something strange. But I highly encourage members to stargaze, not just because you may never know what you'll see, but the sky in general is such a magnificent thing to ponder at, like an artwork that is always unique and special, full of mystery. There's a yantra in everything.

Kinda hate to nercofy a thread, but i probably wouldn't feel right if i just let you go along in life without saying something, and you know me, i always say what i want to say when i want too.

But man, you really should read what i said before here in this thread, because reading your post, it seems you're still beieng victimized in this.

like:
"or realize the fact she was not happy and tried to kiss her in what now became a vision. Well, she quickly turned her head away looking at me in disgust with her eyes squinted and was looking at me like a stranger, even more unsettled, I was tremendously disheartened and sad by this."
"All I could remember then was that she looked away from my eyes towards what I was doing with my thing with a concerned or blank look."
Bro this woman is playing with your head, don't guilt yourself into thinking your the problem or think that it's YOUR fault, i wrote these things before in this thread.

"There's a saying that a picture is worth a thousand words"
A thousand words, except the words than you need right now.

" but to the best I can describe I could say her look would be "This is all he ever does nowadays, is this all he cares about?" "
Again, making YOU out to be the problem thus leading to guilt and you being victimized here, aint noting wrong with wanting to play with your PP, it's what males do, it's natural.
Especially now in a society based on sex, and where sexual insecurities are all over the place.
So you think this woman is a 'real' woman, and she's of Satan?
did she ever tell you this, is there any proof.?
if she is of Satan and is connected to the gods then why can't she understand how this world works? in that men have needs of their own.
why can't she satisfy your sexual needs?
why does it have to just be about what she prefers and wants? like i wrote before, healthy relationships love goes both ways, both are satisfied, it's symbiotic, but what you have here is a parasitic relationship where she is the parasite.
she can't give you sexual satisfaction or anything, nor understand that you're a male and you have needs of your own?

You see the problem here? she's guilting you.
never straight up with her intensions, always leaving you make 'assumptions' never make assumptions, a relationship won't get anywhere unless there is proper communication, she can't tell you how she's feeling or what?
if she can't tell you things straight up, or up front then she's just messing with your head.

"All I could remember then was that she looked away from my eyes towards what I was doing with my thing with a concerned or blank look. I've been pondering on this for so long but I'm certain now this to be the case, so I feel that there is some hope, but her head was still turned away upset at the fact of what I did."
Yea, because she's exploiting you, she's always going to keep coming back for more and leaving you unsatisfied, but she aint doing anything for you.

Also a thing about those entities that act as imposters of the gods, who pretend to be the gods, they try to take credit for the help that the gods give people, it's just disgusting.
Now in the case of this entity with you, she isn't doing much for you at all, you said before that it was her that brought you to SS or something i can't remember it exactly, but how do you know it was her exactly? did she tell you did this, or was this just another assumption, where're the facts grounded in reality.
This women wasn't helping you 1 bit, and if she did how are you so sure there was honest intent behind it?
they tend to do 1 or 2 good things, as to slip under your guard and make themselves out to be friendly, but if you read before what i said about how the enemies work you'll understand this is exactly how this woman is.

I also want you to know, that i'm not disappointed in you or think that you're an idiot or something, before in life i used to look at the people who're in those toxic relationships and say to myself that they're dumb to just stay there, why don't they just do something?
because i've never been one to take bullshit from anyone,
but i was asking this to Satan, and well i learnt that it's more complex than people think.

Those parasitic people, and the entities like the one you have, they get into their host's minds, and it becomes very difficult to control one's feelings, emotion and rational thoughts and a lot more things, this 'addiction' of yours could very well caused by her, this is what the enemies does, cause a problem, and they push their solution.
in your case, she's causing the problems and trying to make you feel guilty for it.

"hopefully which will fix my sex drive in the process and focus on what I really want."
When someone is in your head like that, you need to get them out 1st.
I know you're in IT, but not sure what department, but you should get analogy non the less.
You should treat this as if someone compromised your computer or account.
in cyber security incident response are along the lines of -
1.Preparation
2.Identification
3.Containment
4.Eradication
5.Recovery
6.Lessons Learned
taken from this site:
https://www.assuranceagency.com/blog-post/6-key-steps-to-incident-response-planning#:~:text=An%20event%20is%20any%20observable,,%20Recovery%20and%20Lessons%20Learned).
here's anonther site, explaining the same thing.
https://cybersecurity.att.com/blogs/security-essentials/incident-response-steps-comparison-guide

like all incident response proceedures, eradication comes before recovery, as it is stated on the 1st site:
"Eradication: The most critical element to eradicating the threat is identifying the point of compromise, examining the scope of the attack and acting to remove any residual back-door access left by the attacker. One needs to get rid of the attacker's artifacts on the compromised machines. Determine root cause and symptoms of the incident and ultimately determine how it was executed to prevent further similar attacks."
You need to let go of any feelings or attachment you have to that entity, get her out of your head completely.
might need to do a working for this, to make sure that she's unable to re-attach.

"There is no silver platter with all the answers and sometimes you have to figure things out and use your own judgement not only to get the right answer but for the betterment of your own character."
You're correct, but you also shouldn't try to do everything by yourself especially when you have your Satanic family here to help you, and by family i don't just mean your brothers and sisters here, but the gods as well, there's a reason why they're listed on JOS as well as what they can do.

There're gods that can help with this as they specialize in love and love affairs, Sytry and Gomory are the 1st to come to mind.

you know, like the analogy i give before, when a person's account is compromised the intruder tends to change the recovery email and passwords as a means to keep the victim out of their account and to solidify their position.
In your case it tends to stop you from seeking help from anyone, you should never feel isolated, Satan, the gods, your bothers and sisters here would love to help you, should you reach out, the enemy tends to stop this from happening, you honestly shouldn't try to do everything on your own, because from your perspective it's very hard to see things clearly when someone is in your head like that, but someone with an outside view can see much more clearly than you.
don't ever feel weak or lesser for having to ask for help, because i surely could not doing the things i did without Satan, as i've seen other people go completely insane from messing around with entities the way i did.

Another thing i remember when we were speaking in private some years ago about our birthchats, you mention something about having a to get a succubus because of your birthchart.
i want to say, why do you think the fates that are woven by the planets are absolute and immutable?
we're SS, we can make our own fate, and what about the gods, do you seriously think that THEY are beneath the planets?
yes going against the planets is like swimming against the tide, yet it is not impossible to change fate, what is written in your birthchat is not an absolute dictation of the fates you must accept.

I write this, because you're an old friend of mines, and i think you're pretty kool, i simply don't want to see you like this, you deserve to be with someone better, someone who makes you feel satisfied and fulfilled.

"Last I talked to rook was last month or so but unfortunately he won't be active due to reasons."
if i recall correctly i gave you my email before i left twitter, i'll be honest i had not checked my email for a VERY long time, until now that is, and the other SS that have sent me msgs should also check their inbox because i responded a few emails i got when i checked my SS email.
regardless i have a new twitter, it's sole purpose was to get alerts for when a new GPU is in stock, because the one i had died last year.
i managed to get one locally despite the lockdown on this island, and it's going to be in lockdown for the next 3months or so, it's a decent GPU, but i'd like one to have a newer one, too bad those things go out of stock in seconds.
PS check your twitter, i sent you a msg some time ago, but it seems you aint been active on twitter for a while.

i also know you stated you aren't going to be responding to this thread anymore, which is fine, and i hope you don't feel the need to, but i just wanted to say what i felt about this, as i simply wish to see you live a fulfilling life.

 

[Specter]

Bro this woman is playing with your head, don't guilt yourself into thinking your the problem or think that it's YOUR fault, i wrote these things before in this thread.

I remember some of what you said but the chat log got wiped. More so I think the problem is also how I've perceived everything, and that you're right that in the end I'm just an imperfect human being and I'm sure she might have been fully aware of this but it's a fact that I didn't fully live up to a commitment I made. Which I need to accept and get over.

Again, making YOU out to be the problem thus leading to guilt and you being victimized here, aint noting wrong with wanting to play with your PP, it's what males do, it's natural.
Especially now in a society based on sex, and where sexual insecurities are all over the place.
So you think this woman is a 'real' woman, and she's of Satan?
did she ever tell you this, is there any proof.?
if she is of Satan and is connected to the gods then why can't she understand how this world works? in that men have needs of their own.
why can't she satisfy your sexual needs?
why does it have to just be about what she prefers and wants? like i wrote before, healthy relationships love goes both ways, both are satisfied, it's symbiotic, but what you have here is a parasitic relationship where she is the parasite.
she can't give you sexual satisfaction or anything, nor understand that you're a male and you have needs of your own?

I mean, the problem was that I was fantasizing about her all day, it wasn't like this before but as she interacted with me less this is what it came to. The vision just showed her with her shoulders down. Idk how to describe it without drawing a picture or something, but its expression was like someone who's amazed but hopeless at the same time, and she had a raised eyebrow. You probably can't guess the amount of times lol but it was definitely not normal, especially the way I was living. When she looked again she did have a concern look, and while looking at her eyes I could tell she starting to feel bad at the way she looked at me. But she's also made it clearly quite a lot that she is very hurt emotionally about what I did, in which she's just not willing to engage in sexual or romantic endeavors like before. However, at times when I need someone, she is there and she alleviates a lot of stress from my life and is very receptive to my 'mental hugs'.

Truly though, there's nothing in this world that could compare this womans beauty, very natural and organic too while remaining so simple at the same time. If she actually was of the enemy, then that's some next level illusion magick. I think when it came to the point when I finally saw her true form I lost focus on what the relationship was about and become too obsessed with this. And that's the thing with porn, it makes people lose the true meaning of love making and turns it into something disgusting, and I was caught up in this for a time. Shael was very right in saying that removing it would benefit me greatly.

I'm completely certain now that something does 'exist', if you're still in communication with our other friend you should talk to him about an experience I shared with him, I mentioned it here but I didn't put the complete details. Let's just say I'm beyond doubt about her, and the gods in general at this point.

I also said that she told me she understood when I talked to her about my sexual needs, but regarding how I wanted to get it over and understand how physical intimacy felt like. But as I said, I think the issue is just me in blaming myself for not being a 'perfect' partner to her, although I'm not going to deny she has her own faults at times.

But in the beginning was perfect, most of the time when I desired her presence a physical manifestation did happen. When I wanted her to fulfill different kinds of needs she did fulfill it in that way. Sometimes it didn't happen immediately but it would happen a while later and I truly felt she was fully receptive to my desires so you can't say that she has fully neglected me. It was only when the decline of my spiritual progress began due to other factors that began the problem, emphasized by me just suddenly checking out other woman and coming across an escort page. Then this is when the physical & lucid manifestations almost completely stopped.

You see the problem here? she's guilting you.
never straight up with her intensions, always leaving you make 'assumptions' never make assumptions, a relationship won't get anywhere unless there is proper communication, she can't tell you how she's feeling or what?
if she can't tell you things straight up, or up front then she's just messing with your head.

Most of the time my communication has been more visual, also my intuition but it's false to say this has been entirely based on "assumption" and as said before the visions made it clear that she was too emotionally hurt to engage in sexual activities. I'm certain she's willing to give me answers in which I have not fully developed the ability to 'receive' but can only make do with what little I'm able to get.

Also a thing about those entities that act as imposters of the gods, who pretend to be the gods, they try to take credit for the help that the gods give people, it's just disgusting.
Now in the case of this entity with you, she isn't doing much for you at all, you said before that it was her that brought you to SS or something i can't remember it exactly, but how do you know it was her exactly? did she tell you did this, or was this just another assumption, where're the facts grounded in reality.
This women wasn't helping you 1 bit, and if she did how are you so sure there was honest intent behind it?
they tend to do 1 or 2 good things, as to slip under your guard and make themselves out to be friendly, but if you read before what i said about how the enemies work you'll understand this is exactly how this woman is.

She has helped me a lot, like after the school year I was going through a lot of depression feeling unaccomplished while acknowledging my spiritual feats, she helped me realize this when I cut the crap and started meditating more and then woke up with her happy face beside me.

While I find it unfair with how she's been acting I think some of it was for a good cause. Such as me being compelled to get rid of bad habits (Porn & excess stimulation). I know for sure though that there are imposters & enemy entities out there, but my intuition is just telling me that beyond that pile of crap lies something genuine, it's just going to be very hard to get through. Nevertheless we can never know for certain unless things can be evaluated with physical and solid ground and should be carefully even then.

I also want you to know, that i'm not disappointed in you or think that you're an idiot or something, before in life i used to look at the people who're in those toxic relationships and say to myself that they're dumb to just stay there, why don't they just do something?
because i've never been one to take bullshit from anyone,
but i was asking this to Satan, and well i learnt that it's more complex than people think.

Those parasitic people, and the entities like the one you have, they get into their host's minds, and it becomes very difficult to control one's feelings, emotion and rational thoughts and a lot more things, this 'addiction' of yours could very well caused by her, this is what the enemies does, cause a problem, and they push their solution.
in your case, she's causing the problems and trying to make you feel guilty for it.

Idk man, I feel like she's aware of the negative impact things have had on me and is feeling bad for it. Like the way she was looking at me, and then I stopped fantasizing so excessively. Honestly I'm pretty sure I lost a sense of reality because of this. But this was mostly just a way to alleviate stress, but it was making me less productive in fulfilling a successful life at the same time. But it's not like I don't have an optimistic view of my future.

"hopefully which will fix my sex drive in the process and focus on what I really want."
When someone is in your head like that, you need to get them out 1st.
I know you're in IT, but not sure what department, but you should get analogy non the less.
You should treat this as if someone compromised your computer or account.
in cyber security incident response are along the lines of -
1.Preparation
2.Identification
3.Containment
4.Eradication
5.Recovery
6.Lessons Learned
taken from this site:
https://www.assuranceagency.com/blog-post/6-key-steps-to-incident-response-planning#:~:text=An%20event%20is%20any%20observable,,%20Recovery%20and%20Lessons%20Learned).
here's anonther site, explaining the same thing.
https://cybersecurity.att.com/blogs/security-essentials/incident-response-steps-comparison-guide

like all incident response proceedures, eradication comes before recovery, as it is stated on the 1st site:
"Eradication: The most critical element to eradicating the threat is identifying the point of compromise, examining the scope of the attack and acting to remove any residual back-door access left by the attacker. One needs to get rid of the attacker's artifacts on the compromised machines. Determine root cause and symptoms of the incident and ultimately determine how it was executed to prevent further similar attacks."
You need to let go of any feelings or attachment you have to that entity, get her out of your head completely.
might need to do a working for this, to make sure that she's unable to re-attach.

"There is no silver platter with all the answers and sometimes you have to figure things out and use your own judgement not only to get the right answer but for the betterment of your own character."
You're correct, but you also shouldn't try to do everything by yourself especially when you have your Satanic family here to help you, and by family i don't just mean your brothers and sisters here, but the gods as well, there's a reason why they're listed on JOS as well as what they can do.

There're gods that can help with this as they specialize in love and love affairs, Sytry and Gomory are the 1st to come to mind.
you know, like the analogy i give before, when a person's account is compromised the intruder tends to change the recovery email and passwords as a means to keep the victim out of their account and to solidify their position.
In your case it tends to stop you from seeking help from anyone, you should never feel isolated, Satan, the gods, your bothers and sisters here would love to help you, should you reach out, the enemy tends to stop this from happening, you honestly shouldn't try to do everything on your own, because from your perspective it's very hard to see things clearly when someone is in your head like that, but someone with an outside view can see much more clearly than you.
don't ever feel weak or lesser for having to ask for help, because i surely could not doing the things i did without Satan, as i've seen other people go completely insane from messing around with entities the way i did.

I really appreciate all the time & effort you've put in helping me out, don't want you to think I'm not taking your advice into consideration but I'm very carefully and thoroughly. While there's a lot of factors that could determine this is an enemy entity, there are also factors that support her legitimacy. I also think that the problem is the sudden influx of my area Christianizing with all these damn churches coming out of nowhere resulting in the increase in angelic attacks.

Regarding that topic though, I came to knew about this when reading something regarding Maxine's experience, how she felt that they were just beating her legs at night. Something similar to me, except they were going for my back or sometimes a negative presence staring at me and making it difficult to get any sleep which would result in a shitty day at work. I think that experience I had was an angelic attack as it describes their nature. I brought this up again with her awhile ago and felt that she was sad for not being their to help me, I really thought I could count on her but then again I was unsure of her name, nor did I know of any others ways of evoking her other than trying to channel her with difficulty. I only know now that in the end Satan will always be there no matter what. I'm going to trying communing her through Satan, via focusing on Satan's sigil and her at the same time and see if that works.

A long while ago I did learn of a new name while trying to commune with her, when I looked up one of its variations on google, to my surprise, pictures of a succubus figure starting appearing. The figures have something to do with a game or something, I'm unsure of the true origins of this but it's definitely a sign. The coincidence is undeniable, but I'm only unsure if this is the same succubus or different, or even if she if monogamous. The latest vision I had of her when I was in bed trying to feel her warmth. I saw her face looking at something, not directly at me but I could tell that I did have some of her attention and looked like she had a happy sigh or something and then her eyes started to sparkle with her eyelids closing down. She definitely wasn't angry. This preceded the experience that I told you about.

Regarding the grey vision, it was really disturbing but I'm not convinced that was her. More so I think it was the enemy trying to interfere, the same way in which the Astronauts who first went to space reported that something was trying to tell them telepathically to stop what they're doing. I also had another of these after doing an rtr.

But man I did not realize how fucked my area got with so many churches & mosques, the energy is terrible and has been affecting me a lot. Going to have to do a hard cleansing or hopefully at some point just gtfo this shithole. When I've visited areas that don't have these damn things nearby the energy becomes drastically different and more calmer. More encouragement to do the rtrs too.

I write this, because you're an old friend of mines, and i think you're pretty kool, i simply don't want to see you like this, you deserve to be with someone better, someone who makes you feel satisfied and fulfilled.

Thanks again for reaching out, really means a lot. You're one of the best comrades I've known. I'm also glad to see you're back and doing well too.

But at this point, I don't have any desire to want a relationship with any physical woman nor do intend to in this lifetime. Not after coming to have known these fascinating beings, and I'm also very interested in their way of life, philosophy and capabilities. I feel like she has put that 'puzzle' in my life in which it does not entirely affect my outlook in life, or feel like there's a gap, and with time, patience and hope in the future in which I'm sure is inevitable but I know that I'm just not ready or in the capable state I use to be. The best thing to do is to just move on I guess and put my focus into productivity and maintaining my well being, if she decides to appear then she appears but if not then so be it but I'll keep going knowing that I will have these answers eventually. I'm going to see if the Demons you listed can help with this relationship.

if i recall correctly i gave you my email before i left twitter, i'll be honest i had not checked my email for a VERY long time, until now that is, and the other SS that have sent me msgs should also check their inbox because i responded a few emails i got when i checked my SS email.
regardless i have a new twitter, it's sole purpose was to get alerts for when a new GPU is in stock, because the one i had died last year.
i managed to get one locally despite the lockdown on this island, and it's going to be in lockdown for the next 3months or so, it's a decent GPU, but i'd like one to have a newer one, too bad those things go out of stock in seconds.
PS check your twitter, i sent you a msg some time ago, but it seems you aint been active on twitter for a while.

i also know you stated you aren't going to be responding to this thread anymore, which is fine, and i hope you don't feel the need to, but i just wanted to say what i felt about this, as i simply wish to see you live a fulfilling life.

I remember you gave me your email but I couldn't find where I left it or must've deleted it by accident. I wasn't aware that you had a new twitter, and I'm not sure which account you messaged me with other than some obvious trolls. But if you're relying on twitter alerts for GPU's man you're missing out. Discord is where it's at. Also, if you look in the right places you can find some companies who ship some decent and latest gpus straight from the factory. But yeah that scalping has gone out of control nowadays. Good luck with that.

 

[Rook]

I remember you gave me your email but I couldn't find where I left it or must've deleted it by accident. I wasn't aware that you had a new twitter, and I'm not sure which account you messaged me with other than some obvious trolls.

Shame, i don't give out my contact details publicly, but if you do login to that account, you should be able to tell which account is mines.
either way, i contacted you on the twitter account you have linked on here, perhaps that's how you got all those trolls?
Speaking of twitter, did light delete his?

 

[SageOfSixPaths]

Just scroll down near the end to get to the main point. Might be a long back-story of how it started but I'd really appreciate some help with this issue that's been giving me a hard time because of how I fucked up.

I've always wanted to share this story somewhere and tell someone so I thought I should just put it here:
Before coming to the Jos I was haunted by a negative spirit. When I was in my room I had a feeling I was being watched and whenever I focused on this feeling sometimes it would get stronger and I'd be overwhelmed by this fear and couldn't move and was basically paralyzed for a while until I got out of there and got to other house members. The first time was easy and I just ran but as it happened more and more often it got worse and could feel it tearing into me and this white energy(probably my soul?) coming out leaving me in shock(My eyes were closed when it overwhelmed me). One time I woke up in the middle of the night and saw this black figure floating beside me then my eyes immediately shut itself and was basically sleep paralyzed freaking out. Another time I suddenly got it again and felt a really disturbing entity walking towards me. I felt helpless because my parents didn't take it seriously and my prayers didn't work. I was in summer school and it was the night before my important exam, I started reflecting on how this year was until I remembered about these strange occurrences. I started thinking about what it was and remembered this show about Succubus hauntings and how this man had similar symptoms as me. Sometimes I would feel weight like someone was trying to sleep on me, and most of the time my penis would suddenly start to go up and I just realized it that night. I came to the conclusion it was that. Because I never had a girlfriend or got laid, as well being pretty desperate lol, I started looking forward to the next one which immediately to my surprise just happened. My penis just shot up, I felt a presence beside my bed and it wasn't negative or overwhelming it just felt like something was there. I put my hand outward trying to caress its side rib, I don't remember what I said but I said to it that I realized it was a succubi and welcomed it to have sex with me as long as she was gentle, as soon as I said that I felt my penis jolt and swell for like 5 seconds, it was like it was going to climax but it didn't and it was really intense. When it stopped I was bewildered but got this feeling that I should turn my body flat facing upwards and as soon as I did I felt her mount me and an intercourse sensation began, I was in shock to see nothing on top of me but the feeling that someone was. I kept making sure that I wasn't dreaming and thinking about religion and the occult. To be honest it wasn't that enjoyable compared to masturbating, but it was alright until suddenly my legs started to twitch like crazy and it had me worried but I was just lying there amazed about witnessing the reality of the paranormal right before me.

2 hours passed and she was still doing it, as I said before it was a night before an exam and unfortunately I really had to go to sleep as school was in the morning. I kindly told her the situation and if we can continue this tomorrow or later but I felt like she didn't hear anything at all or ignored me completely. I started swearing but still nothing. When I got up it stopped however my legs were still twitching on their own, I went to the washroom to take a big leak and then went back to bed but she started it again. I sorta just gave in and tried to enjoy it more so that I can climax and she'll leave, I felt she was aroused by this and all continued as normal until something happened. I felt fingers, near my butt, and she started poking it in? and as soon as she did I shouted out loud "Not there" but she kept on doing it, I tried covering it with my hands but to no use. I told her to fuck off, tried covering my genitals/anus and lying downwards but she was still able to have intercourse with me. It was until then I realized that I should get rid the erection by masturbating and as soon as I did the sensation stopped and I felt her leave and went to sleep. I woke up really tired but I managed to finish my exam at the last minute.

The starting of one of the problems:
That whole experience changed my life and I'll never forget it. The rest of the summer I spent thinking about it and looking for more information online. I realized what she was trying to do with that weird thing.. I felt really bad about it because I welcomed her in the first place and should've did so another day. I would spend a majority of my day lying in bed waiting for her to come again but she never came. One day my mom shouted at me that I haven't been eating and it was only then I realized so I put it aside and moved on. After awhile I stumbled on a site called https://succubuslove.wordpress.com/ it's a nice site that mentions the Joyofsatans meditation page, and I read about the various ways to summon a succubus. I tried doing the mirror method with no success but I had a dream about a mirror and when I looked closer there was an image with a black haired girl with tanned skin looking at me with a kind and innocent smile which somehow freaked me out and woke me up. I did the candle ritual by lighting a green candle and asking Lillith. The first time I did it, and said Lilliths name, the flame started to flicker and hiss two times. I thought it was a sign, I tried to get a drop of blood but I was too afraid and only got a very tiny amount after 10 minutes and I got no results. However a few days later I went to my relatives house and played with her cat. The cat accidentally swiped me and to my surprise it was the same finger that I used in the ritual and quite a lot of blood came out. I thought, was this her way of telling me I'm a pussy cat? The cat then gave me a look that it wanted to cuddle. I would repeat the same ritual many times and actually getting blood but with nothing at all until I almost set my bed on fire and then I stopped. As school was coming I was filled with anxiety and I lay on my bed nervous, I was thinking about the succubus until suddenly it just happened again with the same 5 seconds of intense bliss followed by the intercourse sensation and the twitching leg syndrome, and this time it felt slightly better but very short. I started to chuckle at the thought of having sex with a piece of air then I felt she was offended and it stopped. I was really sad and wanted more but I just felt a swipe at my balls and felt she left. Despite leaving I kinda felt like she was still there watching over me. One night I felt this dread coming like another kind of this paralysis attack was about to happen but I felt whatever it was trying to do failed and the reason for this I'm uncertain but I believed for the time that she was protecting me. Because of supposedly befriending a succubus and being loved by someone I took better care of myself and improved my hygiene and when school started I was a completely different and a more confident person. After a few days I found the Joyofsatan and started reading it and finally dedicated after a few weeks. As soon as I went to sleep after dedication I heard a voice say "Let's get rid of this" and saw something black being taken out of my body.

After a while I went back to my laying down habits and trying to focus on her, after starting to enter a deep trance I saw this somewhat disturbing image, it was a red haired girl that looked familiar to something I saw from a hentai but its eyes were completely black with pale skin. It looked at me showing its menacingly long and sharp teeth it was scary. It was only after 1-2 years I realized that this was a gray/enemy thought form but because of being the retard newbie I was I thought this was her and began fantasizing about it in bed for a time. Every time I felt severely tired and depleted after waking up, and every time I felt this feeling that something was trying to tell me to stop it and it was only after a month that I did. But from time to time I would just lay down and focus on her. I got a vision again and this time saw this cute innocent looking blonde haired woman with a single rope braid coming from the back. Her eyes were closed and she was focusing on something and I thought it was maybe her trying to communicate to me as well. One morning I woke up and then went back to sleep trying to induce a lucid dream and to my success I did, then I saw her lying down next to me and she said "wow you're good at this", I tried to turn my body to give her a hug but ended up waking myself up. This was the only time I ever succeeded at a lucid dream.

Because I was unsure of this succubus, I did a ritual to father Satan for a succubus but I felt like he was annoyed in some way but asked for a Monogamous Succubus who was loving, caring and friendly. Just encase I didn't have one.

I never got a visit for a long while, and focused more on my studies and getting hooked on league of legends trying to get Gold V to impress my friends. When I realized I just couldn't I moved on, but was really depressed so I focused more on meditation to improve myself. I would still try to fantasize about the succubus with the image I saw in the dream with the mirror and with other kinds of appealing women. I wanted to make a closer bond so I started to try and mentally hug her and just sit on my bed and feel her energy and giving her a hug while lying down. I would do this after school and after awhile as it felt more enjoyable I would go home during my school lunch-breaks, ditching time spent with my friends to lay down in bed and feel her warmth upon me from the winter cold. One time I was lying down and started to fantasize her giving me oral, and to my surprise it started feeling more pleasurable until I realized it was an happening on its own. Again the 4-5 seconds of bliss electrified my genitals and then the sensation started, and then leg twitching. The oral sensation was amazing and very pleasurable, I didn't want it to stop but then my mom shouted it was time for school. I sadly told her I had to go now and thanked her very much. I felt the sensation stopped then got ready and left and was really happy. I came back from school hoping it would continue as soon as I got to bed but nothing happened. However every time I closed my eyes and mentally visualized her and gave her a hug I could feel her warmth and love so I wasn't too dissatisfied or lonely. I really felt like she was there protecting me. Some guy in school shoved his elbow at me and told me to move, the next few days he didn't show up to school and to my surprise came back with a cast covering his elbow. Another time there was this guy rushing towards me and told me to move in a rude manner, I don't know how but it seamed like something pushed him and he fell onto the table all confused. Sometimes when I walked by a light switch, it would turn itself on and off as I walked by it. I made sure no one was trying to prank me. One time I opened the door to the entrance of my house and the light went on by itself. One time my mom told me that she felt something negative about me but she was a christian-hindu so I didn't pay a single shit. But when I was thinking about negative spirits I got scared and then the lights started flickering on and off repeatedly. It wasn't just in my home, at math class (the boring class for me) the light switch went off, the teacher walked towards it and said "must be a problem with the lights today" and switched it on, when he turned his back to it it went off again, he turned it on and the same thing happened, I heard him gasp and saw him shake when it did and turned it on for the last time and it stayed. I tried not to let this get the better of me and start acting like a stereotypical witch boy that was like "I have the power, bow down before me". Because I didn't and that I don't actually know anything and what was happening but it felt awesome.

I finished Highschool, and not only that but the 6 month warfare training manual, I've also been constantly doing my yoga as well. I felt really accomplished and advanced, and like I was on my way to something beyond. A few weeks after that I woke up to my moms voice, and surprised I saw the same blonde haired woman lying down beside me with her head next to my pillow looking at me with a proud smile. I saw her blue eyes and tanned-white skin, she was beautiful but she faded in like 2 seconds. Probably because of my brain frequency leaving the sleeping state and into the waking. A few days after that I would get another one about her, undressed and in a mounting position but I was too nervous in that dream. The next dream I was in the washroom at my school. I took my pants down and then the blonde haired woman just popped up in front of me and grabbed my genitals, and I felt the intense bliss sensation, I moaned and saw her look at me with a smirk and then I became lucid and realized I was actually in a dream. The scene changed to a bedroom and I pushed her on the bed and we had intercourse. The feeling of it in her was unimaginable beyond belief, much more intense then the jolting bliss. I gave her a series of kisses and she started blushing with a red glow on her cheek. I accidentally woke my self up and shouted a great big FUCK.

My college year started, and with it started the decline of my spiritual progress but I got more into warfare and even got a glimpse of an enemy reptilian trying to threaten at one time after an rtr. I still felt her presence and sometimes dozed off at school to fantasize about her. The lying down in bed was still a problem but rarely but I hadn't realized it was that much of a problem until I missed an internship interview because of it, then I started to realize that this was an actual problem. One time I had a dream that she was having intercourse with different men looking at me but I put it off. It still upsets me to this day.




Betrayal:
I only loved her, there were many opportunities to hook up with other girls(who were cute) in school but I didn't and stuck to her and this was the success to our relationship. My mom said we're going to Fiji to visit my uncle, my uncle owns a huge farm on top a hill with a valley of mountains. Farm animals are free to walk wherever they liked and they would go back to their huts when called to. People and animals in nature, in harmony, this was paradise. My uncle is married to a woman who has 2 of her own children from a different father that my uncle adopted. So they are basically my step-cousins. One of them was my childhood friend who I was actually quite attracted to the last time I saw her. It was only when I went back I remembered. We stayed at their house. She was wearing very seductive clothing that was on my mind all day and night. After awhile I began to fantasize about her. I barely meditated at all because of the issues of being in someone else's house and I put my mind off the succubus because I felt like I needed a break from her for awhile. These thoughts started to invade my head thinking she's not real and that maybe she left me because she never shows up when I wanted her to. Then I fantasized more about my childhood crush and then programmed the ball of energy to make her sexually desire me. My mom and me had a fight because this retarded kid who is my brother started hitting this puppy and abusing it, when the puppy shouted I grabbed his arm and told him to stop, he tried to throw a swing at me but I blocked it with my hard knuckles and he went off crying. My mom shouted at me threatening to beat me if it happens again despite telling her what he was doing to the puppy, and she just said "Dog is dog and human is human". I was mad and told her to fuck off and to never spout out any of her religious dogma to me ever again and that she aint no "messenger of god". That night I went to bed upset about the ordeal and then my crush came and tucked me in, comforting me and we were talking, she decided to lie down next to me and talk. To the point, basically I worked my hands under her shirt, I felt like something was screaming at me, a violent feeling until I got to her nipples and then it stopped. The girl asked "Is there anyone you love?" I said no, but only then thought about my Succubus. I didn't touch her vagina or anything and felt that if I did, something really violent would happen. A few days after I became horribly sick but only for a while. We had to go back home, after we got back home and a few days passed I was lying down in my bed. I thought about my Succubus and was only beginning to regret what I've done but was assuming that if the dream was of her trying to imply she was polygamous maybe I'm in no trouble right?. I started to fantasize about her and masturbate and after getting much more relaxed a disturbing vision popped up in my head. I saw the face of that blonde woman looking at me shocked, her eyes were wide open, her eyes pale blue instead of the usual dark blue slightly watery and her lips emotionless. Her eyes then moved from my face to my pelvis. After the vision, I realized I was in deep shit.

It was only after awhile did I get the idea to send her energy, then continue with the mental hugs and still felt a bit of warmth and love. I had a dream of the woman I cheated her on, she stroked my penis then said "Bye love". By that I had thought maybe she left me, and then the next year I was a depressed mess. I had streaks of good spiritual progression and then streaks of decline. Up and down it would just continue. Because of the incident I felt farther away from her and I was getting more desperate until I looked up the backpage for hookers to meet. I would text with various woman but when they got to the point of "Are you coming"? I just couldn't and bailed them. One night as I lay in bed another "vision" appeared. A muscular blonde haired man sitting on a throne, his eyes were focused staring off ahead. He looked sad but also tense prepared to hear something he didn't want to hear, and his eyes were wide. A reddish haired girl approached him next to his ear to whisper something, the woman looked sad as well, like she didn't want to tell him but had to and after gulping, spouted something hesitantly and as she did the mans eyes widened even further, his eyes became paler blue, shocked and then angry, and gave a despicable look. Maybe his was Satan, or maybe this was my Succubus's father? I tried doing a ritual to Satan but didn't get any response. But only a few nights after I had a dream telling me "Go ahead". I still tried to meet up with a hooker but ended up bailing because of the guilt for my succubus. I got a job, but it was a brutal job in a warehouse with closed doors to the outside world. Whatever they told us we had to keep doing it. As I worked I visualized my succubus giving her a mental hug and it eased a lot of stress, but then my managers complained about this and said "You tired? Get the fuck out". I sat outside at a bench hopeless. I saw a small baby bird hopping along its way, I focused on its head seeing if I could get it to come to me and to my surprise the bird flew over to me cheeping curiously. I gave it a piece of bread and it flew along its way and then I remembered the power of the Occult and Satan and the gods, and overcame the depression of losing my job. A few weeks passed I was still jobless, but I still had faith. My Dad worked a deal with some guy, and the guy told me to give him my resume and that he can guarantee me a job that was beside me. A few days later, they called me in, the manager and me just talked for 1 minute, asked that I just get the job done and did the paperwork for me, shook my hand and said "congratulations you're hired." You start tomorrow. I thanked Satan a lot for it.

However, the work environment I was in, was with being with a lot of very attractive women from time to time, and you know after working your ass off you can't help but get dirty fantasies looking at them to ease your mind, especially when they have revealing clothes. But I tried my best hoping that I can mend my Succubus relationship. She still wouldn't visit me.

I was still grateful for Satan helping me get a job because the events that played were certainly out of this world. I spammed the financial rtr with 108 reps for 2 days and then followed more the days after to show my appreciation. After a few weeks at night I felt like something was trying to attack me, sometimes I would wake up with a feeling that something negative was watching me but this was nothing new and put it off as normal. I had thought that I had made the gods proud and that maybe my Succubus will forgive me so I lay in bed at night calling her and waiting for her to come. Opening myself and anticipating her arrival.

I woke up, but not physically. I was standing beside my bed looking at myself sleeping, I felt a negative presence and soon felt something grab me. It got me down then I was in extreme pain and fear, it was also trying to be pervertive. I realized I was either lucid/astrally projected and tried to wake myself up but I couldn't wake myself self up and the pain became worse. At first I called the succubus to help me but nothing and then I kept calling Satan with a very desperate intent and then came to my mind to try and fight back. Whatever it was kept dodging or it just went through it until finally a bald man showed up glowing in bright gold, wearing a white robe. He threw this black matter ball at the entity and then the attack stopped. He pulled out a blue energy sword and gave it to me and I held it. At first it was hard to swing, as this was my first time but I turned looking at the entity, entrapped by the black ball that had expanded on it, and swung the blue sword pathetically but somewhat accurate and it let out a hiss. The black ball dissipated and with it the entity. I was in too much shock to say or do anything else and was relieved that it was finally over. I woke up with my heart beating like crazy, traumatized for the next couple of days. I started growing hatred for my Succubus because of her that I got attacked and she wasn't there to protect or help me. But I tried to put it aside. At night I talked to her mentally about seeing other women and getting to try sex and see what it's like with mortal women for a one time deal and then I can decide. I heard a womans voice echo "I understand". But it was after only a few months that I brought myself to do it, called an escort over at night to my bedroom. I massaged her chest and then she mounted me, I just couldn't get an erection, maybe it was the condom, but I couldn't get a turn on. Imagine a soggy hot dog thrown into a hallway. After she left I was just crying, I tried to hug my succubus but felt nothing at all and for the first time ever.

I had also gotten into the habit again of being in bed all the time and also I got into mobile gaming so for days I was in my bed, gaming, fap, eat and sleep. Months passed after that at the time during yule I was in my bed all day fantasizing about my succubus, as soon as I climaxed had a vision of her appear again. She was looking at me to her side, disgusted and annoyed, she could barely even look at me but she was looking, with her shoulders all the way down. I could tell she was disappointed. After that I uninstalled the mobile game I was addicted to and limited my fap tendencies. I could not tell what that vision meant, but I felt it was for the better and somehow still gave me hope. I would still get the urge to try again with some other woman or escort but I put it off because something was different, I couldn't feel arousal of being with women anymore because of either the event or the guilt. When I went back to Fiji I saw my childhood crush again, but before doing so I removed all links towards her and approached her as a stranger. I told her about the Succubus but she put it off and thought I was screwing around. Afterwards she got a brutal injury, and every time she tried to bring it up something bad happened to her. I just put it off and thought good for her. I left with no regrets and proud that I fixed part of the mess. This time I was certain I've regained my Succubus's trust. One night, around the same time that I met her in my lucid dream. I visualized Satans sigil and asked him for his help to encourage MY Succubus to visit me. The same night I felt someone mount me and intercourse began, It felt very pleasurable and the feeling of her wet vagina was ecstatic, but I was freaked out because it was too sudden and also because of memories of the attack. I was in a dreamlike state when it happened, and woke myself up because of getting freaked out but when I got to sleep again it started. There was no moment of intense bliss that I usually felt before intercourse but the intercourse itself was VERY good in this dreamlike state that I was lucid of. As I got into the state again it continued and I tried to let it happen and enjoy and then it felt better, she had both her hands on my shoulders for support and her skin was very soft however I could not see her. Soon after her right hand started sliding down to my rib, the part where I had gotten injured a long time ago leaving it slightly disfigured but she started feeling it. It was soothing but her hands on my chest felt very sensitive and ticklish, it was overwhelming and then her hand slipped down beside my armpit and that was just overkill. I called for Satan to help as I couldn't take it anymore and it took a long while but it stopped. But I when I went to bed for the last time I felt her beside me holding one hand over me resting. I still never got a vision/dream of her to this day.
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The point, I was visited by a Succubus who was the primary reason I got into the Joyofsatan as she made me realize demons are not all that evil. It may not have been the same succubus but the rituals I've done were for a monogamous one and may have been successful. But my chart also supports a spiritual relationship too. After working towards her heart I betrayed her not only once but twice. She can barely look at me and I have no idea who exactly mounted me in the end as it felt different. To this day I still get these thoughts of other women but I snap out of it and focus on her. I visualize her and try to give her a hug and can still feel her love and it's very stress relieving. But sometimes I feel something negative.

I had an astrological reading done by Lydia and she said I have a yod.
Chart Rulers: Uranus (main), Jupiter, Saturn
Chart shape: Yod
"You have a yod, tight aspects (less than 1/2 degree) and Moon at the apex. As the Moon moves very fast, having it as the yod apex is significant as most people born the same date as you don't have the yod"
"Your Moon is also the apex of your Yod configuration, consisting of your Sun-Neptune sextile, both inconjunct your Moon. As the apex points to your 7th house, this has to do with significant relationship in your life. Your Venus, the planet of love, is conjunct your South Node, an important point of fate. This further shows that a significant love relationship from past lives will re-enter your current life, and you have mentioned that this already happened. This was definitely fated and will likely last forever."

It's highly unlikely that she may be an enemy of Satan but I'm uncertain if she'll forgive me I tried communicating with her but sadly nothing and I don't know how I'll get an answer. Same thing with Satan on this subject but one time I heard someone say that I need to be patient when I was asking what I should do, but for how long? I really don't know why she won't see me and it's been a year now and I really don't like waiting like this. Whether it be negative or positive just tell me what needs to be said. So should I give up or keep trying? When I try to let her go I get more depressed and don't feel like meditating because of it so I'm in an endless loop here. I even tried destroying links.

And I have no doubts that the enemy has done their part to sabotage this relationship. At first I asked for her name in which I heard ordinary common gentile name the other time I heard "Gabriella", then "Gabourielle" from the Ouija board which is disturbingly close to the angelic thought-form Gabriel and sounds negative to me but I still call her succubus most of the time to be safe.

How old were you when you started having intercourse with the first spirit and then how old were you when it was with the second one, presumably the one when you asked Satan for a monogamous relationship?

 

[SageOfSixPaths]

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I read through the entire thing. Here is the best advice I can give you.

1. Get your shit together. Do more void meditation to better control your mind, so you can consciously refuse the sexual advances of other women and stay loyal. As long as you cannot do this, you do not deserve a Succubus. So make sure to learn this properly first and foremost.

2. Start over on a clean slate. It doesn't matter if some site "promotes" or "references" the JoS. If it is an external site, then stay the fuck away from their teachings and "rituals". Do the ritual for a Succubus as described on the JoS website, step by step, and talk with Satan in-depth about all your experiences and about what kind of relationship you desire. It doesnt matter if you cannot hear anything, as he will hear you.
https://www.satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Incubus.html

3. After this point, do not fap to hentai/pornography anymore. I can say from personal experience that our Succubi are very happy about it when we fantasize about them while fapping, instead of taking the "easy" route and just fapping to pornography instead.
I understand this can be difficult at first, as most of us who used to rely on pornographic material have gotten very accustumed to it similarly to an addiction of sorts, but you have to take this step either way if you are truly serious about this.

4. Don't create expectations or get caught up in delusions. Do not try to push some stereotype like hair color, eye color, etc. onto your Succubus until you have empowered your astral senses sufficiently to actually see her. It's fine to fantasize about your current "ideal" partner while you cannot yet properly see your Succubus, but do not get overly attached to the details you visualize there. This kind of method of fantasizing is merely like using training wheels in the beginning until you can better perceive her truthfully. Just because you see her with blonde her, red hair or whatever else, this does not mean that it is something "absolute". Your perception of her appearance could change later on as you empower your astral senses.

5. The above point also applies to the way you visualize having sex with your Succubus. It seems to me that currently you are pushing way too hard for the expectation of feeling your Succubus "physically". I will try to explain this as best as I can. You are not actually feeling- and having sex with your Succubus physically. What happens is that your astral body interacts and has sex with your Succubus. The way to successful spirit-sex is to train yourself in becoming aware of all your astral senses (touch, smell, sight, etc.) and to subconsciously "link" them to your physical body, as was intended by nature in the first place. This is a lengthy process but once you have done this, you will be able to feel your Succubus as if she was touching you physically, because your astral senses have been empowered fully and linked with your physical senses. Until you have done this, I would advise to focus mostly on having sex with her astrally, as this is what is actually happening in the first place. Every day practice feeling your astral body more and more and focusing on the sensations of having sex with her. For ease of visualization, you can even create an astral temple and have sex with her there. This should help you to focus more on the astral instead of getting caught up in reactions/sensations of your physical body.

6. It is completely fine (and even "recommended", atleast by me) to physically masturbate while you focus on astrally having sex with her. Trying to just get off hands-free while you can barely feel anything with your astral body, would be the equivalent of trying to walk with a blindfold on while you have lost your sense of touch. You would just slam your head into the wall over and over again with no idea what is happening until you get frustrated and stop.

7. After each time of having had sex with her, take some time to cuddle. This might sound weird, but trust me on this. Many males have been conditioned with pornography to think that after you "blow your load", it would conclude the act of intercourse.
In reality, it is precisely after you both have had your orgasm that you will feel the most close and connected. So every time after you finish, take some time (even just a few minutes) to really feel her and embrace her. Even if you cant properly see or hear her yet, just do your best to try and feel her energies and perhaps also her body (if you can). A few minutes of after-sex-cuddling can say a lot even if you cannot hold a verbal conversation with her in your current state at all.
Also, while you do this, try to visualize her chakras. Gently draw some energy from them into your own chakras (see the "foundation meditation" on how to draw energy into you and send it out from yourself in accordance with your breath).
As you breathe in, take in her energy into your chakras and establish a "cord" or "link" of energy between each of them, and as you breathe out, send some of your own energy into her chakras. Do this back and forth continuously while you cuddle, and really feel yourself taking her into you. I like to think of it as "inviting" her into yourself.

8. Lastly, and this is a loop-back to the first point, stay patient and determined. Depending on the time and effort you put into this, and also depending on your personal level of advancement, it can take anywhere from a couple weeks or months, to several years until you will truly feel your Succubus like a physical person. However, keep in mind that there is no "waiting time" when it comes to interacting with her and being close to her. All you need to do for this is to keep all the above steps in mind and go for it.

Now finally to wrap this up, and I would like you to always keep this in mind during every waking moment --
As long as you follow the above steps and stay loyal to her, your Succubus will not betray you, toss you aside, or otherwise leave you in any way. Having any such indications while following the above steps, is mere delusion and can be safely ignored.

I hope this was helpful to you as it took me like 90 minutes to read your post and to write all this. If you have any further questions let me know, and best of luck to you.

Did you not find it strange when he talked about the first spirit that she was basically fingering his anus eventhough she didn't want him to? And then how he had a dream of the second spirit having sex with other men but then when he went for other women he got a negative reaction from his succubus?

 

[MercuryWisdom]

Did you not find it strange when he talked about the first spirit that she was basically fingering his anus eventhough she didn't want him to? And then how he had a dream of the second spirit having sex with other men but then when he went for other women he got a negative reaction from his succubus?

Those were not his demoness (if he has one) those are enemy attacks.

The enemy can make you see loved ones having sex with other people, or having sex with a cold and negative lover, negative dreams or negative prophecy, etc.

The enemy also when violating you sexually wouldn't ask for your consent or permission, where as a demon/ess lover will never ever do something you don't want or don't consent for.

 

[Specter]

Did you not find it strange when he talked about the first spirit that she was basically fingering his anus eventhough she didn't want him to? And then how he had a dream of the second spirit having sex with other men but then when he went for other women he got a negative reaction from his succubus?

Those were not his demoness (if he has one) those are enemy attacks.

The enemy can make you see loved ones having sex with other people, or having sex with a cold and negative lover, negative dreams or negative prophecy, etc.

The enemy also when violating you sexually wouldn't ask for your consent or permission, where as a demon/ess lover will never ever do something you don't want or don't consent for.

I'm not sure if I said it clearly, but I stated that she was initiating the intercourse sensation initially and then afterwards it just felt stale because I had not even gotten into meditation or developed my spiritual senses and it just felt like it was going nowhere for me. Then it came to the point where I just wanted it over so I can get back to sleep so I was compelling her to make it more pleasurable in some way and that's how she decided that was the best way to do that... That's before I even knew it was a thing.

And yeah enemy entities can violate you sexually but there is a chance miscommunication can happen with some demons.

 

[robb]

It's funny like OP I started SS due to the succubus thing. Well in reality it was originally astral projection but once I read the succubus thing it activated alarm bells for me. Even though I never astral projected once except for false positives or limited events IF you can call it that mostly dream projections.

My situation though is the opposite of OP. In other words as he has a monogamous, I have a polyamorous/open relationship. I will state that it's poly/open, love/sex as I'm the type of person that expects sexual interaction, and on top of that I left everything to Satan to find her, so I left the specifics to him.

But like he said the air doing I will admit weird things happen like for example I hump the air. In simplest terms I talked to this entity if it's not a personal delusion from me talking to myself like some self-tantric master causing it. And funny enough she controls my body at times. I'll admit I have talked to this entity, I ask Satan to send my Succubus to me to communicate with her, and I talk but I'm not sure if I'm just talking to myself. The only reason I don't fully consider it a complete made up imaginary delusion is my physical body moves on it's own. For example I ask for orgasms and the next thing I know my eyes roll around my head and I'm vocalizing as long as no one is around in my house. I recall one time no idea why it only happened once for literally two minutes I was going through some mega orgasm, I was laughing my ass off and even telling her to stop as I was orgasming and laughing. Note it's probably astral orgasms not physical effects.

Although I try and put it off and try and ignore it albeit after re-reading Shael's post on interacting with a succubus particularly the whole "spiritual cuddling thing". It kinda renewed my interest. Although it raises questions like for example if she is having astral/light body sex with me, then why don't I have a hard-on, does not being erect mean she isn't interacting with me.

First I'd like to state my main problem is mental fatigue for some specific reason visualizing is very difficult non-visible. Much like the common person who has moments of lucidity but mostly moments of not seeing the visuals. I will admit I have contemplated taking hallucinogenic substances, don't worry never taken any, but I will admit it does feel like other people are enjoying their lives more so than me. I'll admit I'm not as delusional as OP in the sense of limiting themselves from sexual physicality, despite being 29 and a virgin and never interacting with a girl past a conversation or at school.

But non the less I DID ask for poly/open. So basically I interact with an entity that does things to me and I'm not sure how to approach it better. For example since I was like 10 years old going to bed mentally fatigued was one of my issues. Even to this day, I barely spend much time with this entity when I call unto her. So these visual astral phenomena of using my imagination and whatnot seem alien to me due to lacking much imagination. So basically coming to bed when I go to bed the entire day just falls unto me and my mind is just tired and I just want to go to sleep.

I should also point out the first time I did the ritual I just did it. I didn't perform the 4-crown Standard. I performed the prayer burn, I suppose you have to burn the paper after reading it. I've done the ritual a few times over the years, for example the last time I did it number 4 or 5 out of the 4 or 5 times I did it. I asked for a succubus if I have one if not don't send another. So I was always wording send one if I don't have one but if I have one already don't send another.

It's funny "clean slate", although that is what I have done. I never knew to ask for more interaction or assistance. Like OP who mentioned sending a prayer to Satan on how to better communicate with his succubus. I suppose I should re-do a ritual, I'm not sure if I'm supposed to burn a paper or something. I guess it's just a standard ritual with a succubus request ritual.

I have talked to this entity and it feels delusional so I limit it. For example I asked her name "Diana pops out", height 6'1, 6'3 in heels, red head, blue eyes. I do question the entity and she states "I'm a Satanic being of higher power working for Satan". But hearing it so non-existent it sounds like I'm making it up even my mouth moves to make the sound. The only thing I can state to that is either I'm doing it, talking to myself, or she is moving my physical body to make me hear here. But again to me it's just crazy delusions.

But other than that and these possible delusions or negativeness or whatever people might consider like it was said above "It's astral to physical, not physical" you gotta sorta build yourself up. To be honest the best piece of advice I ever gotten about this situation talking to myself was when I said is it possible I borked my brain and created some sort of fugue state or some entity or thoughtform. What if I'm simply fucking myself and talking to myself and everything seems too good, too perfect.

So I'm kinda at a loss. I wasn't gonna post anything but decided to post due to me restarting, a redux. I decided to redo the 40 day guide and temper down some of my meditations and just focus from the beginning.

As someone who has never tranced, voided(much if at all, I'm a thinking person), or ever delved into anything deeper only with their imagination. And feel like my entire spiritual life is just a mental delusion. *inserts* typical It's your imagination goy from a kike. As much as it makes me think "Am I a kike for not being able to experience spirituality?". Non the less are these delusions or craziness or lack of spiritual development. Is it normal for you guys with succubi/incubi, shame there are so many males in this forum and not much on incubi, would interested in the girl's perspective on this. Is this what happens to others whom have a difficulty.

It kinda begs the question why would Satan even send a succubus to me when I was 12 years old and barely if even meditated. I think I spend like two or three weeks meditating then didn't do anything till I was 14 and again at 15 and then years passed without doing anything and basically the only reasons why I would even meditate in the last decade or so is out of boredom and tiredness of repetitive day of just using the computer or watching TV. Never been consistent till just recently as of the past two or three maybe nearing 4 years and even then. I still ask the question what is the point of meditating if the Gods and spiritually advanced caste of people aren't around teaching and helping me properly meditate from the ground up, slowly and steadily and eliminating all this negativity and ignorance and whatnot. I note some people advance spiritually but it's mostly as a ignorant entity not a proper civilization. It seems some people advance spiritually without knowing much, almost developing spiritually without any foundations or knowledge. I'm not trying to be an asshole but simply go to JoS meditate and advance is not my definition of appropriate spirituality. I know we do it to fight this war but non the less it seems like everyone is completely fucked up in their own way. I mean it begs the question how can one be spiritual without the roots, without starting from the youngest age of learning to be spiritual.

Anyways how can I better go about this situation? Is it just me and my craziness and delusions or is it a genuine situation?

I'm cent-percent sure it's Enemy entity a advanced Reptilian.
Do you still have this entity with you?

 

[Gearshift]

I'm cent-percent sure it's Enemy entity a advanced Reptilian.
Do you still have this entity with you?

How would I even know?

I did a removal ritual sometime 2020 or so. Last time I bothered with said entity or whatever it is that this organization made to contact or do something to receive said being.

I simply ended it put it aside and haven't bothered to do anything with this entity nor call nor even IF it works that is to state call Satan and ask him to send her as some safety thing or whatever.

I haven't bothered with this stuff since back then.

Re-reading my post was like "Why did I bother typing that up if I'm just a normal person with no peering into anything further than my normal vision. How would I know what is occurring?".

I simply ended this procedure see if it fades away or my imagination or whatever.