Deep Depression.

[serpentwalker666]

Hello, I will make this brief as I am short of time.

Basically for some years now I've experienced an almost unceasing depression and lack of emotions. For whatever reasons this has persisted despite consistent advancement.

It's enough to where people get concerned about me. It's like I don't feel emotions and I can't feel happiness, love, and all sorts of things.

It used to be less and vary in intensity some years ago so it wasn't as bad. But now it's severe enough to where I've recently had my therapist concerned, as I feel almost essentially nothing.

All I seem to be able to feel is anger, or sadness. when dealing with intense situations or circumstances. 90% of the time. A flat line nothing.

Only thing that gets me excited in programming, science. Or the Joy of Satanas.

I don't feel the regular family attachments you are supposed to feel with loved ones. They love me, and I do love them, but I don't feel anything at all. This goes for like everything.

It's made it very hard to relate with my wife and children lately, and I feel like a bad person or something, as I don't know what's wrong with me.

I've done some workings on my mental health over the years.

But to be truthful at this point I'm at a complete loss and I don't know what I should do.

 

[Umun]

Ave,

what you describe sounds familiar but it is always different with the specific circumstances of each person.

I used to be severely depressed, suicidal and felt nothing for my close ones.

That changed gradually as my mental, physical and psychological situation improved thus giving me a chance to focus on those emotional connections that were lacking. So, basically the better the overall shape that you're in the more you can work on those areas.

You're surely not a bad person but rather a damaged one which can be mended with time and much effort.

You will heal just keep working on yourself. I'm sorry that I can't offer you concrete advice on how to deal with this only encouragement.

Brother https://ancient-forums.com/members/blitzkreig-jg.21286/ or someone else who is knowledgeable in healing will be the best source of information. Also maybe you can try bringing this issue before Lord Valefor or Asclepius.

SWP