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Hello all,
I unfortunately grew up as a christian, a jehovah's witness matter of fact. It was horrible, it was oppression, it was a lot of negative things & so much of it didn't add up. Christianity truly did nothing of any good for myself nor my family.. (not to mention the entirety of humanity) . Luckily I mentally escaped that & as a angry 16 year old with no real answers, I wanted nothing to do with christianity. So I gravitated to what I thought was the complete opposite, Satanism or what I thought it was at that time. For a little bit I clung onto to the negative stereotypes of satanism. I didn't do any sort of studying of what it really was. Like I said I was a angry ignorant 16 year old. Around 17, I researched Anton LaVey's ideals of Satanism & I really liked it for the most part. Then I realized (and in my respectful opinion) LaVey's sect was just selfish atheism with a cloak of satanism.
I lost interest in studying his material, but still had strong desire to learn about occult, astrology, divination.
A year after that, by some effort I landed on the Joy of Satan's website. I damn near read everything. Recognized Satan, his demons were actual beings. Which very much so interested me. Like I said, I read almost all articles on JOS. Looking back I see I was overwhelmed by so much knowledge. The information on JOS felt like putting a mental puzzle together. It made a lot of sense to me.
Like many of the kids who are taking a interest in Satan here; I wanted to talk and converse with demons & do this & do that...Getting wayyyyyy ahead of myself. I still had much to learn, much to realize & much to comprehend. But make no mistake my intentions were always of honest intention. I wanted to jump straight to the deep end of the occult, instead of taking the necessary steps first to become advanced. I ended up dedicating my soul to Satan & following the steps on JOS June of 2011. I was happy to do so.
I eventually fell off, probably because I wasn't progressing as fast as I desired. I realize I may have had enemy ties in the past which is probably the other reason I fell away from Satan.
Now I am much more mature as I am 22 now. I'm studying, I comprehend a lot more than I did years ago, it makes more and more sense as I read. I dig into human culture and civilizations, and I see that the Nordics have influenced it all.
FINALLY, I am ready to join the army of hell. I want to assist in the war that we are all in the middle of. I want to establish a relationship with my guardian, to help me through & be of service. We owe it to our species and to our gods.
***Since being absent from Satan for many years now, Do I need to do any particular ritual now that I have returned or Should I repeat the dedication ritual I did 5 years ago********
Thanks for reading. I know its a life story novel. What can ya do..
I unfortunately grew up as a christian, a jehovah's witness matter of fact. It was horrible, it was oppression, it was a lot of negative things & so much of it didn't add up. Christianity truly did nothing of any good for myself nor my family.. (not to mention the entirety of humanity) . Luckily I mentally escaped that & as a angry 16 year old with no real answers, I wanted nothing to do with christianity. So I gravitated to what I thought was the complete opposite, Satanism or what I thought it was at that time. For a little bit I clung onto to the negative stereotypes of satanism. I didn't do any sort of studying of what it really was. Like I said I was a angry ignorant 16 year old. Around 17, I researched Anton LaVey's ideals of Satanism & I really liked it for the most part. Then I realized (and in my respectful opinion) LaVey's sect was just selfish atheism with a cloak of satanism.
I lost interest in studying his material, but still had strong desire to learn about occult, astrology, divination.
A year after that, by some effort I landed on the Joy of Satan's website. I damn near read everything. Recognized Satan, his demons were actual beings. Which very much so interested me. Like I said, I read almost all articles on JOS. Looking back I see I was overwhelmed by so much knowledge. The information on JOS felt like putting a mental puzzle together. It made a lot of sense to me.
Like many of the kids who are taking a interest in Satan here; I wanted to talk and converse with demons & do this & do that...Getting wayyyyyy ahead of myself. I still had much to learn, much to realize & much to comprehend. But make no mistake my intentions were always of honest intention. I wanted to jump straight to the deep end of the occult, instead of taking the necessary steps first to become advanced. I ended up dedicating my soul to Satan & following the steps on JOS June of 2011. I was happy to do so.
I eventually fell off, probably because I wasn't progressing as fast as I desired. I realize I may have had enemy ties in the past which is probably the other reason I fell away from Satan.
Now I am much more mature as I am 22 now. I'm studying, I comprehend a lot more than I did years ago, it makes more and more sense as I read. I dig into human culture and civilizations, and I see that the Nordics have influenced it all.
FINALLY, I am ready to join the army of hell. I want to assist in the war that we are all in the middle of. I want to establish a relationship with my guardian, to help me through & be of service. We owe it to our species and to our gods.
***Since being absent from Satan for many years now, Do I need to do any particular ritual now that I have returned or Should I repeat the dedication ritual I did 5 years ago********
Thanks for reading. I know its a life story novel. What can ya do..