First of all, welcome!
Make an effort to do as much as you can from the ritual on the website. However, without compromising your own safety. Satan understands this. Making the prayer with intent should be the most important part. You can burn it somewhere else safe. Try to adapt the ritual to your own situation. As long as you are honest to Satan and to yourself, it will be valid. We are all individuals. Me personally if I was in a situation I could not do absolutely anything stated in the JoS site, I would sit in a quiet place, relax, focus on Satan's sigil, tune in and then read the prayer in my mind. As stated on the website, you can do the ritual properly when you are older, if you want to.
Hopefully some more people will share some knowledge on this, and what they would do in such a situation, and then you can adapt to your own, figure out what works for you.
bstybr said:
I have aphantasy (a problem I can't visualize at all, there's a black void in my mind)
I want to know how to fix this.
Interesting, I had this too, thought was normal, but I looked it up and it's a known phenomenon to science... I thought most people who never meditated in their lives would experience this... But anyway to fix it, takes time and practice. Your intent means more than the actual visualization, so don't let it discourage you of doing anything. Until you can visualize properly, use the feeling of the energy and affirmations to direct the energy. That's what worked for me. Also - The exercises on the Spiritual Warfare Training Program, help tremendously. I remember many years ago someone posted here or on the yahoo groups, can't remember for sure, some more variations of those exercises. Just follow the instructions on the program, you'll find it under the Hells Army section in the Joy of Satan website. In time if you are consistent with meditation it should "fix" it - start with the 40-day program from High Priest Hooded Cobra and build from there. For aura cleaning, it helps to do under the sun. Or under some lamp with a white golden light (careful not to damage your eyes just take a quick look and close your eyes again)
40 day program:
https://satanism-nazism.webs.com/hp_hooded_cobra_40_day_meditation_program.pdf
Exercises for visualization development:
(Spiritual warfare training program)
http://www.gentilenation.com/uploads/3/1/0/2/31022531/-spiritualwarfaretrainingprogramforsa.pdf