On Wed May 18th, 2011 11:06 AM EDT Neptunus Eternia wrote:
1) Just start by taking deep breathes and relaxing, either laying down if you have to or sitting. Just get used to relaxing yourself before doing anything else.
2) Talk to Father Satan, tell him you need help and let him know you are longing for him.
I hope things will get better for you soon brother.
Stay strong!
Stay loyal!
And never give up on anything!
Hail Satan!
To:
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From:
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Date: Tue, 17 May 2011 17:39:10 +0000
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: death
look i have already read jos site alot of times...i know that nobody would want a person to die...they would cheer him up but believe me i haven't seen anything joyful(just normal things and worst things...every time the joyful part is ruined by someone and something))..my life is worthless...i can't even meditate(i know i sounds like looser)...i have tried every meditation from beginner to advance but i just can't do it...my body, my soul and my heart doesn't go together...my body always gives me pain...i have been suffering socially, physically and even mentally...life is just worthless...i had tried to have poison alot of time but it wouldn't work and its taste is like yuk like burning my throat...i know this site is not about suicidal risk but i know Satan has knowledge for everything so i guessed he must be having knowledge for death...i know i'm rude, stupid and selfish but when i look through my life i find nothing except loneliness and much
sufferings...i never got anything special in my life...i always thought of myself as something special...(no i didn't want to be famous or become Einstein or newton or do something great that everyone has already done before...but something that has never been achieved by anyone or barely by anyone...something that people don't eve know about) but soon i realized that i'm no special instead i'm the worst part...every moment kills me apart...every time i go to bed i just hope it to be my last night but shit always happen and i open up my eyes to a new day...i found Satanism a few months ago when i started researching about one of the High Priest and i found this very friendly and familiar i thought it might be something that i was looking for...i tried alot to do things...to do meditation and other things but nothing happened...i can't mediate and the feeling of being a looser became more dominant...i always pray to Lord if he is hearing me then free me
of this pain...i don't need anyone neither do i love anyone, not even my parents or anyone (i know by hearing this you must think that i'm a dick and must be send to a mental asylum...but i'm just like that)...i'm tired of everything because nothing goes like what i want it to be like...
and i know i'll be reincarnated but i don't want that...really i don't want to start a worthless life again...i wish i would be damned and i would walk around the whole world forever...all alone without any worries and pain...life is a gift i know but some people doesn't deserve a gift or else sometimes the gift is ruined...
if after reading this post you people will kick me off then i would say maybe i deserved that and i wouldn't say a word again...
Hail Satan
Hail Azazel
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "fkuc.censorship" <fkuc.censorship@... wrote:
You can't throw it all away like that. I know being on Earth can suck at times, but can also be very beautiful.
All must realize that there is both beauty, and ugly. There is both suffering and joy. This are the forces of universe, yin and yang and both are necessary for life.
I've combated suicidal depression in the past, as well have those close to me who have been suicidal. It is never pretty, or pleasent.
No matter how bad things have been, all must know there is beauty and joy in this world. Is in this world, and anyone here can attain great joy and pleasure in their life. There is no reason to throw you life away.
I have a Satanist close to me that I care great deal about who has been suicidal lately. Many of us rallied around him and try to help him out. Alas, his pain has been great. He has been very lonely in life and sees no purpose for being here. He is without a sense of self worth. Nothing could be a greater lie though, all Satanists have purpose and are needed.
My friend sought to die, he even asked for demons to carry his soul away. Demons do not condone suicide, they frown upon it. Obviously they refused my friend and have tried to comfort him as well.
The only ones who condone death and suicide are the angels. Many of them attacks our emotions and thoughts and use them against us. THey desire for nothing more than for you to give up and die. Father Satan and the Demons desire nothing more for than you to live and be empowered. The best way we can repay them for their wonderful gifts is to LIVE and FIGHT!
A dead soldier is only worth wormfood
HAIL SATAN
HAIL NINHARSAG
MAY HUMANITY BE DELIVERED AND REALIZE ITS POTENTIAL! ZONRENSG NOASMI!
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "a05_norulz" <a05_norulz@ wrote:
im tired of things here on this earth im going to join our other brothers and sisters and fight our enemies for eternity on the other side on this earth im nothing a nobody but there i fight i have a purpose here i have nothing nobody to be there for me when i need them or anything so im saying goodbye and well it sounds cheesy but im ending it all i love you all goodbye