Cry For Help or Something (tw: suicide)

[Inquisitor]

Hello everyone,

Ive attemped reaching out / venting on here before. And its been often met with skepticism towards my spiritual and physical abilities, sometimes even hostility. Im not perfect but im not oblivious to the usual courses of action.

Regardless,

Im at the end of what i can tolerate in this life. Ive attempted suicide a couple times before, and during those times things were bad sure. But holy fuck has it ever just gotten worse. Ive done so many rituals to manifest things i need, worked on my soul, behavioural therapy, hospitalization, meds, continuing to try and care about things, distractions, hobbys, following the gods advice, etc.

Ive tried so hard to steer life back into a direction that brings me peace. And i just, cant now. I really cant anymore i dont know what to do. For the last,, i dont even know how many years, things just keep getting worse.

If i was a lesser man id be mad at the gods. I know thats stupid. But i cant help but look at their sigils on my wall and ask why is this happening to me? I just dont understand. I wish they would see how hard im trying amidst the suffering and nudge an opportunity
My way for me to work on that would lead to some positivity in my life. I mean maybe they have and i fucked it up? I really dont know. I dont know, im clearly not doing well on my own despite wesring myself out with trying. I really need some fucking help from help from them cause i feel like ive tried everything on my own.

If I wasnt so fucking alone maybe this wouldn't be so bad. Lonliness is the issue that sends me over the edge. Its what makes the mountain of issues i have unmanagable.

Im starting to progress into insanity, im seeing and hearing things slowly more and more. I cant stop crying all day. The slightest things send me into a panic. This is all just too much for me to handle, i cant take it anymore. I just really cant.

I just want my pain to end, i want to experience peace again,, feel what hope is like. I cant stop thinking about killing myself anymore. I dont know else i can possibly do that I havnt already been doing my whole life to find peace.

 

[Disciple of the Serpent]

I say a thing that my sound controversial to you right now, but it's true.

Life will never bring things that are out of your controll in your life.

You have power, and the strong will and bravery to reborn.

What did you experienced in the past was just circostancial, and doesn't matter now and in the future.

My advices are to start healing, the Rituals of Lord Valefor and Goddess Astarte are amazing for this, that of Astarte mainly emotional.

You can find true purpose, strenght and happiness by knowing yourself, Lord Azazel can help you with this.
This is a long proccess that also will involve liberation/deprogrammation and purification.

Be happy, because from now days will be brighter for you, as you walk in the right path.

Just allow the proccess and the changes to happen.

I hope my words will bring you comfort and motivation.

Good Luck and Hail Satanas!!!

 

[Henu the Great]

So what is your daily routine like?

 

[ramses13th]

Take a few steps back and focus on your mental health, look at the situation from outside your being, like someone who just observes what is going on. What do you see? What's the main obstacle? What's holding you? What's attached to you?

Do you clean your soul daily? Do you practice yoga daily? Do you consistently try and connect with the Gods?

 

[SaqqaraNox]

You must try to understand that your pain will not last forever. It is temporary. If you take a moment and sit in the sun or go outside and take a quiet walk and slow your breathing, calming your mind, you will understand and see that what you are doing and enduring is a lot and you must be proud of yourself for carrying on this battle.

It is not easy to see clear when you are hurting emotionally and psychologically, I know very well that what you see is just the abyss. But that is not why you exist. You exist to be happy and tend toward ataraxia.

Try to start over with the basics: aura cleansing, create an aura of protection for yourself, meditate on the colors you see, focus on your breath and let your tensions and blocks flow downward, relaxing your muscles.

Dedicate some of your time each day to do things you enjoy and immerse yourself in them. If you do this, over time your mind will also get used to thinking that there are also pleasant events in the course of the day and you will start to feel better. But it has to be a constant. With a more peaceful mind, even problems will seem less insurmountable and you will be able to face them more and more strongly.

Suicide is not the solution, because the root that generates the problems now will remain intact and will recur in your next life aggravated.

Here in the Joy of Satanas then you can find many beautiful people, don't forget that. And the Gods never leave us.

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

Before you do anything unwise, I want to make sure you read this:

Ive attempted suicide a couple times before

I know that's not really the answer to your question right now, but it was the first thing I wanted you to look at and let me say that I'm really sincerely very happy that your previous suicide attempts didn't end well. You are very precious in Satanism, in fact you are here and you are not here by chance:

Your soul is here, why? Because the Gods created you, and they made you to be in a group. Nobody here was ever made to be a solo individual. The Gods work together as a group, they are a functional unit, and this is how they made us.

This is why many of us are linked together. I was told by the Gods that many of you are here directly because of High Priest Hooded Cobra. I’ve known this for a while. And then the Gods told me that many of you are here directly because of me. From our past lives: either we knew each other, or my works directly correlated to your lives somehow, or you are the descendants of me from my past lives, or you in your past life were related to me in my past life, and now we are all here in the JoS. And more members will come.

And the same is true with HPS Maxine. Side note, for those of you who don’t know, HPS Maxine wanted me to be the next HPS. I won’t go more into detail because sacred things are not to be explained in full to the public. But many of us were brought here because our souls were linked from our past lives.

We are not randomly here, we are not random strangers on the internet as I know we all think form time to time when we are at our lowest. We are a soul group, or a collection of soul groups linked together, and now it is our time to advance and save the world.

I would have been deeply sorry to hear of such a sad fact about a Satanist. For much in life there is a remedy, but for suicide there is no remedy, you can only reincarnate and your problems could even increase or come back stronger. The last thing that should happen in this world is for one of us to commit suicide.

When I was very young (primary school approximately) I attempted suicide due to my parents' constant abuse and mistreatment of me. I was crying a lot, for some reason, I couldn't do it (not even in several attempts and for obvious reasons I won't say what method it was). I was really frustrated with the failure. After many years, here I am today, grateful for having failed all the attempts. I am extremely grateful for this. But at the time it was what I thought was the only solution/the only thing I wanted/the only option. It was NOT like that, today I know it, but before I could only have a very limited vision of the situation.

Im at the end of what i can tolerate in this life. Ive attempted suicide a couple times before, and during those times things were bad sure. But holy fuck has it ever just gotten worse. Ive done so many rituals to manifest things i need, worked on my soul, behavioural therapy, hospitalization, meds, continuing to try and care about things, distractions, hobbys, following the gods advice, etc.

The fact that you take care of yourself by following the Gods, through healthy attitudes and continuously trying to improve yourself is a good thing: it represents all the good that you have managed to bring out of this sad situation. This will lead to personal progress in the long term to the detriment of the situation you are experiencing, it is actual progress and habits that you are creating.

Ive tried so hard to steer life back into a direction that brings me peace. And i just, cant now. I really cant anymore i dont know what to do. For the last,, i dont even know how many years, things just keep getting worse.

Situations can last more or less time, even regarding fixing something with magic, it can even take a cycle of 360 days continuously or more. Especially if you have bad karma and need to fight it. It's worth it. It's really worth it.

If i was a lesser man id be mad at the gods. I know thats stupid. But i cant help but look at their sigils on my wall and ask why is this happening to me? I just dont understand. I wish they would see how hard im trying amidst the suffering and nudge an opportunity

You're being a little "unfair" to yourself. It seems like you have only failed all this time, instead you have supported a program to take care of yourself. Just because your problems haven't gone away doesn't mean you shouldn't give credit to yourself, including just trying hard and shaping your mind to support a life where you take care of yourself and try to escape problems, without passively accepting them into your life out of laziness.

This is not only a great starting point to work from, but also a great personal success. Many complain about the constant problems in their lives without dedicating even ten minutes to meditation because: "yes, there are problems, but you know? The sofa is very comfortable and this Netflix TV series promises well". No: you were much better than this and you deserve credit, appreciate yourself and your strength.

My way for me to work on that would lead to some positivity in my life. I mean maybe they have and i fucked it up? I really dont know. I dont know, im clearly not doing well on my own despite wesring myself out with trying. I really need some fucking help from help from them cause i feel like ive tried everything on my own.

Try to explain to us better the initial situation, what you are missing that makes you suffer, what you would like to achieve, etc. precisely if it is not too personal. However, if you need a lot of privacy to be able to do this, try using the AskSatan service which guarantees total anonymity, in this way we will better understand what ails you and be able to give you more effective solutions.

Ask Satan - Ask Questions Anonymously

Ask about astrology, health, spiritual topics, or simply anything you don't feel comfortable asking with your personal account.

ask-satan.net

The questions on AskSatan are completely anonymous and NOBODY here will pay attention to an extra personal question: with everything that people normally write in this service (which is why it is anonymous) an extra question in which you tell your personal story and you ask for help will not be noticed at all among all the others, in the sense that it will NOT be associated with you, but it will be read and we will help you as best we can even if we don't know the author of the question. Don't hesitate if you feel the need!

If I wasnt so fucking alone maybe this wouldn't be so bad. Lonliness is the issue that sends me over the edge. Its what makes the mountain of issues i have unmanagable.

See if anything on this page to run even for several continuous cycles and below can help you in your search for people who are close to you: https://joyofsatan.org/AURA.html

And also read here: https://joyofsatan.org/Azazel_virtue_5.html

And here: https://ancient-forums.com/threads/...eople-that-try-to-stop-your-evolution.293491/

And here too: https://ancient-forums.com/threads/people-in-our-life-cases-to-avoid.93253/

Im starting to progress into insanity, im seeing and hearing things slowly more and more. I cant stop crying all day. The slightest things send me into a panic. This is all just too much for me to handle, i cant take it anymore. I just really cant.

This will help you a lot in terms of personal emotional well-being, which will also lead to better management of your situation indirectly:

Healing the Emotional Body (for men too, don’t disregard this)

You have your physical body, soul, astral body, mental body, and more. The Emotional Body is the part of the soul that can be damaged when you experience emotional trauma, grief, bereavement, abandonment, and so on. Many people have emotional outbursts, immature reactions, trigger episodes...

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I just want my pain to end, i want to experience peace again,, feel what hope is like. I cant stop thinking about killing myself anymore. I dont know else i can possibly do that I havnt already been doing my whole life to find peace.

Hope is something you can actually have right now. Having demonstrated to yourself your concrete ability to continue in a certain direction in the right way will lead you to actually realize that it will be possible for you to succeed in the end. I therefore await news regarding further specifics for your problem.
And don't be discouraged if things get worse, read here: https://ancient-forums.com/threads/karma-working-manifestation.294201/

And please keep us updated. We all want you to be well and we will always be available to help you in our own way. Don't underestimate the family you are part of here, you can always trust JoS!

HAIL SATAN!

PS: it took me hours to write it, there shouldn't be too many errors, but I hope that in any case you understand the meaning. In two hours I might actually have made some mistakes, even in translation: I'm Italian. So sorry!

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

Before you do anything unwise, I want to make sure you read this:

I know that's not really the answer to your question right now, but it was the first thing I wanted you to look at and let me say that I'm really sincerely very happy that your previous suicide attempts didn't end well. You are very precious in Satanism, in fact you are here and you are not here by chance:



I would have been deeply sorry to hear of such a sad fact about a Satanist. For much in life there is a remedy, but for suicide there is no remedy, you can only reincarnate and your problems could even increase or come back stronger. The last thing that should happen in this world is for one of us to commit suicide.

When I was very young (primary school approximately) I attempted suicide due to my parents' constant abuse and mistreatment of me. I was crying a lot, for some reason, I couldn't do it (not even in several attempts and for obvious reasons I won't say what method it was). I was really frustrated with the failure. After many years, here I am today, grateful for having failed all the attempts. I am extremely grateful for this. But at the time it was what I thought was the only solution/the only thing I wanted/the only option. It was NOT like that, today I know it, but before I could only have a very limited vision of the situation.



The fact that you take care of yourself by following the Gods, through healthy attitudes and continuously trying to improve yourself is a good thing: it represents all the good that you have managed to bring out of this sad situation. This will lead to personal progress in the long term to the detriment of the situation you are experiencing, it is actual progress and habits that you are creating.



Situations can last more or less time, even regarding fixing something with magic, it can even take a cycle of 360 days continuously or more. Especially if you have bad karma and need to fight it. It's worth it. It's really worth it.



You're being a little "unfair" to yourself. It seems like you have only failed all this time, instead you have supported a program to take care of yourself. Just because your problems haven't gone away doesn't mean you shouldn't give credit to yourself, including just trying hard and shaping your mind to support a life where you take care of yourself and try to escape problems, without passively accepting them into your life out of laziness.

This is not only a great starting point to work from, but also a great personal success. Many complain about the constant problems in their lives without dedicating even ten minutes to meditation because: "yes, there are problems, but you know? The sofa is very comfortable and this Netflix TV series promises well". No: you were much better than this and you deserve credit, appreciate yourself and your strength.



Try to explain to us better the initial situation, what you are missing that makes you suffer, what you would like to achieve, etc. precisely if it is not too personal. However, if you need a lot of privacy to be able to do this, try using the AskSatan service which guarantees total anonymity, in this way we will better understand what ails you and be able to give you more effective solutions.

Ask Satan - Ask Questions Anonymously

Ask about astrology, health, spiritual topics, or simply anything you don't feel comfortable asking with your personal account.

ask-satan.net

The questions on AskSatan are completely anonymous and NOBODY here will pay attention to an extra personal question: with everything that people normally write in this service (which is why it is anonymous) an extra question in which you tell your personal story and you ask for help will not be noticed at all among all the others, in the sense that it will NOT be associated with you, but it will be read and we will help you as best we can even if we don't know the author of the question. Don't hesitate if you feel the need!



See if anything on this page to run even for several continuous cycles and below can help you in your search for people who are close to you: https://joyofsatan.org/AURA.html

And also read here: https://joyofsatan.org/Azazel_virtue_5.html

And here: https://ancient-forums.com/threads/...eople-that-try-to-stop-your-evolution.293491/

And here too: https://ancient-forums.com/threads/people-in-our-life-cases-to-avoid.93253/



This will help you a lot in terms of personal emotional well-being, which will also lead to better management of your situation indirectly:

Healing the Emotional Body (for men too, don’t disregard this)

You have your physical body, soul, astral body, mental body, and more. The Emotional Body is the part of the soul that can be damaged when you experience emotional trauma, grief, bereavement, abandonment, and so on. Many people have emotional outbursts, immature reactions, trigger episodes...

ancient-forums.com

Hope is something you can actually have right now. Having demonstrated to yourself your concrete ability to continue in a certain direction in the right way will lead you to actually realize that it will be possible for you to succeed in the end. I therefore await news regarding further specifics for your problem.
And don't be discouraged if things get worse, read here: https://ancient-forums.com/threads/karma-working-manifestation.294201/

And please keep us updated. We all want you to be well and we will always be available to help you in our own way. Don't underestimate the family you are part of here, you can always trust JoS!

HAIL SATAN!

PS: it took me hours to write it, there shouldn't be too many errors, but I hope that in any case you understand the meaning. In two hours I might actually have made some mistakes, even in translation: I'm Italian. So sorry!

Sorry, the thing I wanted you to read about suicide was this:

Spiritual Satanism: On Suicide

It is not an infrequent phenomenon that many people come to Satan to be saved from disastrous circumstances related to the beliefs, empty faith in, and imposed mental problems by the enemy. This relationship with these bad entities and people wallowing in ignorance and lack of any spiritual...

ancient-forums.com

I'm very sorry! @Inquisitor

Ive attemped reaching out / venting on here before. And its been often met with skepticism towards my spiritual and physical abilities, sometimes even hostility. Im not perfect but im not oblivious to the usual courses of action.

Read also here:

Doubt & Disbelief: Spiritual Satanism

Doubt and disbelief are very normal human states of mind when we don't know about certain topics or we lack certain experiences. Due to lack of knowledge of a topic, or the fact that everyone is born inside a background without any spiritual knowledge, it is very logical that them in mind might...

ancient-forums.com

However the update to my reply to correct it referred to this:

Ive attempted suicide a couple times before, and during those times things were bad sure

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

Hello everyone,

Ive attemped reaching out / venting on here before. And its been often met with skepticism towards my spiritual and physical abilities, sometimes even hostility. Im not perfect but im not oblivious to the usual courses of action.

Regardless,

Im at the end of what i can tolerate in this life. Ive attempted suicide a couple times before, and during those times things were bad sure. But holy fuck has it ever just gotten worse. Ive done so many rituals to manifest things i need, worked on my soul, behavioural therapy, hospitalization, meds, continuing to try and care about things, distractions, hobbys, following the gods advice, etc.

Ive tried so hard to steer life back into a direction that brings me peace. And i just, cant now. I really cant anymore i dont know what to do. For the last,, i dont even know how many years, things just keep getting worse.

If i was a lesser man id be mad at the gods. I know thats stupid. But i cant help but look at their sigils on my wall and ask why is this happening to me? I just dont understand. I wish they would see how hard im trying amidst the suffering and nudge an opportunity
My way for me to work on that would lead to some positivity in my life. I mean maybe they have and i fucked it up? I really dont know. I dont know, im clearly not doing well on my own despite wesring myself out with trying. I really need some fucking help from help from them cause i feel like ive tried everything on my own.

If I wasnt so fucking alone maybe this wouldn't be so bad. Lonliness is the issue that sends me over the edge. Its what makes the mountain of issues i have unmanagable.

Im starting to progress into insanity, im seeing and hearing things slowly more and more. I cant stop crying all day. The slightest things send me into a panic. This is all just too much for me to handle, i cant take it anymore. I just really cant.

I just want my pain to end, i want to experience peace again,, feel what hope is like. I cant stop thinking about killing myself anymore. I dont know else i can possibly do that I havnt already been doing my whole life to find peace.

Emotions are like a sea of water that can spiral out of control if you let them. You have to first try to calm yourself before you can implement more permanent solutions, including receiving advice from the Gods or others. If you are focused on first obtaining some external item, or you are worried about a different issue, this has the potential to create a cycle where you worry so much that it becomes hard to properly judge or analyze the right path.

Regarding loneliness, you can take steps to find friends, whether that is through work, school, or going to some hobby club or even a bar. Maybe you could make a point to meet with your family more frequently and go out to eat or something.

These solutions, as well as help from the Gods, is available, but you should really try to first calm yourself. Take deep breaths and tell yourself you are fine and you will be able to figure something out. Then, you can plan out something, do research, and/or do a Gods' Ritual and ask for advice. You should ask your GD too; this can and should be done in emergencies like this.

People often want to kill themselves because they don't see a way out, but it is very possible to erroneously convince yourself that is your reality, as a result of your panic or other behavioral characteristics and mindset.

Regarding spiritual solutions, you can and should make use of Wunjo or other calming energies. Berkano helps calm emotions. Wunjo brings joy and optimism, can be used to cure loneliness. You could combine it with other runes like Ehwaz or Sowilo to strengthen the working for finding friends.