Solider of suns
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Any advice would be appreciated!
I find it hard to mediate, always have. I seem to see grey and brown energy when I try to visualise the light, the more I try to see the light the greyer it gets. There doesn’t seem to be anything I can do about it? I have seen the light before but how do see it more often?
Do I simply believe that I’m surrounded in light? Or maybe imagine the light without trying to see it? Or feel it? What should I do?
One thing to mention is it could be the enemy producing hallucinations, as I am schizophrenic. The government knows how to do that. So should I just focus more on relaxing and not worrying about it. What would you do? Is my soul safe enough?
Hail Satan and thank you! If I don’t see the light but simply imagine it as if it where there would that be enough?
I find it hard to mediate, always have. I seem to see grey and brown energy when I try to visualise the light, the more I try to see the light the greyer it gets. There doesn’t seem to be anything I can do about it? I have seen the light before but how do see it more often?
Do I simply believe that I’m surrounded in light? Or maybe imagine the light without trying to see it? Or feel it? What should I do?
One thing to mention is it could be the enemy producing hallucinations, as I am schizophrenic. The government knows how to do that. So should I just focus more on relaxing and not worrying about it. What would you do? Is my soul safe enough?
Hail Satan and thank you! If I don’t see the light but simply imagine it as if it where there would that be enough?