I know this is a controversial issue, but unfortunately rape occurs to a greater extent than is actually reported.
I was a victim of rape a few years ago by a man in my family (it started when I was 4). It turns out that even today there are consequences of this trauma.
Fortunately since I made my dedication, I have had no more nightmares from rape; but I still have glimpses of all the disgusting things the bastard did to me, and even though he died, that bastard still haunts me in my dreams and sometimes I feel the bastard's presence beside me.
For many years, my mind blocked everything that this bastard did to me (I read several studies that say that when the trauma is very big, the mind tends to "hide" all the memories as a defense) and after going through some very difficult situations ; all the memories (with details) came and how I had a mixture of disgust, shame, anger, humiliation; I ended up trying to commit suicide.
I had psychiatric treatment once and psychological treatment twice, but that didn't help me much.
Like most women who suffer rape, I first started to relate only to scoundrels and then I simply decided not to have a relationship with any man, because for a long time I felt dirty and unworthy of having a relationship with a decent guy.
It has been a few years since I just left home to go to work, the market, the pharmacy, the bakery ... Anyway, I have been isolated for a few years; I have no friends, boyfriends, nothing.
But after I got to know JoS, I made my dedication and started my daily routine that all Satanists have; I "discovered" that I am worthy of being loved, that I deserve to have a partner and a healthy relationship.
It turns out that I still have some blocks in this sexual issue and in the issue of trusting people (especially men - just to clarify, I am heterosexual) and I still have difficulties in touching myself, in stimulating myself sexually.
In addition to AoP, I program my aura with positive affirmations for protection, Runa Sowilo and Tyr for protection, Runa Ansuz for cleaning, RTR, Runa Wunjo for inner healing, Returning Curses 2, in addition to Meditations; what else could I do to heal this trauma that I suffered; and so that I can return to a healthy sex life without trauma and / or blockages?
And also in relation to the bastard who did this to me, in addition to the Banishing Ritual; what else can i do for him to leave me alone and especially for him to pay for everything he did to me?
I was a victim of rape a few years ago by a man in my family (it started when I was 4). It turns out that even today there are consequences of this trauma.
Fortunately since I made my dedication, I have had no more nightmares from rape; but I still have glimpses of all the disgusting things the bastard did to me, and even though he died, that bastard still haunts me in my dreams and sometimes I feel the bastard's presence beside me.
For many years, my mind blocked everything that this bastard did to me (I read several studies that say that when the trauma is very big, the mind tends to "hide" all the memories as a defense) and after going through some very difficult situations ; all the memories (with details) came and how I had a mixture of disgust, shame, anger, humiliation; I ended up trying to commit suicide.
I had psychiatric treatment once and psychological treatment twice, but that didn't help me much.
Like most women who suffer rape, I first started to relate only to scoundrels and then I simply decided not to have a relationship with any man, because for a long time I felt dirty and unworthy of having a relationship with a decent guy.
It has been a few years since I just left home to go to work, the market, the pharmacy, the bakery ... Anyway, I have been isolated for a few years; I have no friends, boyfriends, nothing.
But after I got to know JoS, I made my dedication and started my daily routine that all Satanists have; I "discovered" that I am worthy of being loved, that I deserve to have a partner and a healthy relationship.
It turns out that I still have some blocks in this sexual issue and in the issue of trusting people (especially men - just to clarify, I am heterosexual) and I still have difficulties in touching myself, in stimulating myself sexually.
In addition to AoP, I program my aura with positive affirmations for protection, Runa Sowilo and Tyr for protection, Runa Ansuz for cleaning, RTR, Runa Wunjo for inner healing, Returning Curses 2, in addition to Meditations; what else could I do to heal this trauma that I suffered; and so that I can return to a healthy sex life without trauma and / or blockages?
And also in relation to the bastard who did this to me, in addition to the Banishing Ritual; what else can i do for him to leave me alone and especially for him to pay for everything he did to me?