I've been reading as much information as possible on theistic satanism, and I want to dedicate myself, but being brainwashed from birth into believing the falsehoods of Xianity my whole life, I can't help but be uncertain of this. Is there any advice that anyone can give me? Does anyone who has gone through this have any wisdom they can offer in regards to my uncertainty. I know theistic satanism is very based on independence, but any help is appreciated.