Solider of suns
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I cant seem to fully program from Christianity. The fears of hell and satan is in my subconscious and they some times come up as a feeling, not a belief. To clarify I’m a schizophrenic who does see and hear things that aren’t real. However I see and hear things I believe to be real. Dark blue lights, bune. My aura ect. The problem I’m having is a quote from the book of Satan where he says “who dares deny” I know Satan is god. I know he is perfect. But I feel a little afraid with dealing with the feelings of reservation toward him. It makes me feel stupid foolish and quite guilty. Because my common sense tells me, “ oh Satan how dare I deny you, how dare I be so foolish to be hesitant” especially after all his done for me. It’s just difficult becuase my schizophrenic symptoms match what Christian’s would say is demonic possession. Scary I know. I see these gross deity’s and hear things that are very dark and evil. It’s been years of this but I can handle it because I haven’t given up on worshipping Satan. It’s just hard.
Any advice would be appreciated! Thank you!
Hail satan
Any advice would be appreciated! Thank you!
Hail satan