8Emily8 said:
If I had a dime for how much this happened to me only to be proven wrong time and time again and not only that but forgiven and understood by Satan and the gods in that even today after so many fuck-ups they still care and have given me very real help in things both spiritually and physically, I'd be damn rich.
I will tell you from direct and multiple experience that this is all in your head and it is fears and worries. Satan and the gods do not
use you in any form of abuse, they do not hate you, and I can almost laugh because there is no way they would ever tell you to not bother them or to leave them alone or any of that jazz at all. In my experience the 'worst' thing they've ever told me in that context is to have faith in my own strength to help myself because they know I actually can and want me to thrive on that, which is a positive thing, not a 'leave us alone and stop being so damn fucking dependent' or anything like that, they're very kind and understanding in their words and would never cause you emotional turmoil or strife like that. When I can't handle something or I'm lost or confused they still guide and help me to this day.
I'll tell you what's happening because, yes, I've experienced it. You opened your clairaudience centres you said and this is where it all started. I'm gonna tell you right now how hard it is to filter outside of your own mind to hear what is actually being said to you from someone other than yourself,
very hard. Unless your a damn skilled adept in controlling your own mind. Key phrase:
your own mind.
Yes you can hear things on the astral but do you know what you also hear?
Your own thoughts. Your own fears, your own worries and emotional turmoil's however subtle, subconscious or unintentional it may be. Even when you're not purposefully or actively doing it and no you're not usually aware you're doing it unless you know like how I do in how it works. It manifests from the subtlest of intent that activates from your 6th chakra, which is why any subconscious activity such as emotional fears or worries will cause them to manifest and yes it does sound exactly like someone else is saying it to you, but it's
you saying it from these own subconscious intents of yours.
Telepathic communication follows the path of intent, it is our thoughts in what we want to say and in meaning it that directs the more specified manifestation of it, they are actually two separate things. But when our thoughts do not match up with the intent in that we aren't
trying to telepathically communicate and thus we are not directing what any telepathy should say, then your intents can still relay a manifestation of your own inner emotions/fears/worries or 'background thoughts' in place of your conscious and
active thoughts, and this can relay straight back to your own self for you to hear as a form of telepathy.
I had been through the same song and dance as you are in right now when I started working with my clairaudience and having psychic hearing to a degree, I can feel and see when an intent or subconscious thought of mine unintentionally rebounds back to my own hearing as I simultaneously focus on my own being and self even slightly causing for me to receive my own thoughts telepathically. It's a whole other level of 'talking to yourself' and it can only ever be an annoyance.
I was signed, shown and told time and time again that it was me doing all of that, not them. The REASON they're seemingly not giving you any signs and such to refute these thoughts and reveal how wrong and incorrect your fears and worries are is the same reason I was suggested as to why they didn't do it for
me when all of that same stuff was happening on my end. Even with other matters like when I thought I was being attacked constantly by the enemy or something and was so very convinced because it mimicked so much of past attacks I had and even new attacks upon myself with even elemental weaponry and I kept asking for their help in stopping such attacks because I couldn't handle them but they
wouldn't.
"Because you have to realize it's you that's doing it first".
By believing so strongly I was being attacked, I was manifesting it upon myself with my own powers and thoughts, it was my own doing. They
couldn't help me, because the source was my own self, and even if they did give a temporary assist they would've had to keep on repeatedly doing it over and over again and I never would've figured out that I could do such things to myself and that I
was and then realize to stop it. And yes, when I realized
without a doubt that it was me and ceased the worries, beliefs and fears, the 'attacks' completely stopped instantly and never happened again.
When it comes to clairaudience furthermore then, it was uncovered to me that this is because if they give you those signs and then all of that garbage is
still being 'spoken to you' from
your own self and you're not aware that
it is you doing it, then you're going to repeatedly do it and believe that it's Satan and the gods and it's going to repeatedly refute and make obsolete their efforts in signing you any physical or spiritual proof that it isn't them which would turn the whole mess into an unnecessary repeating cycle that ultimately goes no where.
After I realized it was all me and made the efforts to recover and assert this fact and remind myself, I was able to see the signs and proof they were giving me in better clarity that they care. The most recent positive aid in this context from Satan is when I had to throw out some shirts of mine leaving me with very little to wear for even one week and then but a few days later someone came to my door wanting to donate five free brand new shirts perfectly my size to me. Look for positive conveniences like that, they are very assuredly rewards for your efforts and a show of their love and care for you.
Satan and the gods care about you, and they are
immensely understanding to degrees I literally cannot fathom from my own experience and the stupid shit I've done in mistakes. They see and know deep in your true soul who you truly are and your real intentions, and they know for a fact that you are
not your fears or worries, they understand what you go through and they do love you and want what's best for you like any parent/teacher/guardian would for any child.
Satan
never abandons you first. You would have to be the one to abandon him first and you have to actually mean it deep in your soul 100% too before he would ever leave you, which when you're a true child of his, both now and from past lives and hold your love and devotion for him strongly, is an impossible feat. Even if you're ever
afraid of abandoning him, or fearing you will somehow betray or hurt him in some way, clearly being afraid of that should be sign enough that you won't and would never mean it and he also knows himself that such are only fears you are needlessly burdening yourself with and that you need to free yourself of.
I was deathly afraid too once that I said some stupid or rude things out of emotional suffering, fears, worries and despair towards him and freaked out feeling awful and horrible after clarity of what I did. I was afraid every time that he left me because of it or because of some stupid mistake I made time and again, only to be proven wrong in that he's right back there at my side like he always has been and always is, helping me recover from the struggle and emotional burdens I had unwittingly placed upon myself, still guiding me, still comforting me when I need it, still showing me how to get out of those pits and still encouraging me to have faith in my own strength and powers telling me I'm stronger than I think.
He knows and understands full well that you only say such things and act out in such a way because you're suffering and that you're under emotional strife and are just caught up in your own fears and worries, he's proven to me undeniably that he understands you don't mean it, and when you realize yourself and come out of the struggles you put yourself in he's still right there by your side guiding you and helping you along as a true caring father would and teaching you how to assert yourself out of such fears.
You need to believe this yourself. They will NEVER say such things to you,
especially when it hurts you so much. If the gods ever needed to tell us a harsh truth even, they bide their time and wait for when we are having a day when we're feeling very confident in ourselves or when planetary energies are in line enough for us to be able to handle such like a breeze and they'd always informed me of such truths of myself on those kinds of days in a kind and gentle manner. They're never rude, they're never harsh, they've never insulted me and they've never done anything malicious to me, ever. Any negative ideas, thoughts, experiences or feelings that they ever had or did were
always, without fail, later revealed to me to have been either myself or an enemy attack.
It has been said and clarified that Satan would never burden you with anything you cannot handle, he will never force stressors upon you beyond your capability of coping and he will never abuse you for any kind of selfish gain
ever. If you feel you are being overburdened or stressed, these are only your own emotions and likely not the reality. However if you actually are quite legitimately burdened and even in casual confidence and positive strength of yourself you struggle to handle it, then you must realize it is not Satan forcing or 'making' you do these things, it is you.
Anything you do for him regardless is rewarded in some way with various things, and you may not even notice them at all, you have to have an open mind and look out for such things. From more protection, to even further extra steps of guidance and help with something you're struggling in, to gifts and positive conveniences that help you, as well as the feeling of the love he gives during a hard time or when you're in real need of it when you open up to him and trust him, usually in such cases he will also urge you with encouragement of your own strength, to be happy with your own confidence as well as he has done so for me and always in a positive way, he cares and wants what's best for you.
But in order to feel that love from your heart chakra from him, you have to trust him. Distrust towards something spiritually closes off the heart chakra and blocks it from receiving anything of such which is where Satan's energy of love is felt when he sends it to you in your soul to feel from him, it is very comforting energy. In the case of someone bad with this is blocking from distrust, it is good, in the case of someone like Satan... it only hurts you.
You must realize all of that garbage you are hearing, all of those insults and negative things, it is not from him or any of the gods. You are unwittingly telepathically saying them to yourself as a manifestation of your own fears and worries of believing that it's going to be said to you or believing that it's them, remember manifestations are directed by our own beliefs. And I can almost guarantee in my suspicions that you actually had such fears and worries
before you even opened your clairaudience centres, and when you did open them, you simply started to
hear those fears and worries and that's all.
It's you that's saying it to yourself, not them. You need to realize this and you need to assert it. "It's just me talking to myself, it's no more different than asking myself how my day is or wondering what the weather's going to be like". Let go of the fears, stop these worries, calm yourself and realize it's just you. And when you, with full intent and belief, know and realize the thoughts are your own and that your fears and worries are completely incorrect and not true, this self-manifestation of these insults and such will stop, and you will further realize it was you all along, just like it did with me.
A correction to be made though is that you've created an association from your own fears and these thoughts in tying with going to bed, so you've unwittingly programmed the astral with your thought process to be in that the moment you're afraid you're going to hear those insults and all that garbage you're saying to yourself when going to bed, then when you
do go to bed you trigger that astral programming and it activates, causing your own mind to do that exact thing and veer into those fears and energies, which is why it happens every night pretty much without fail, because you
believe it's going to happen and then let the fears control you and manifest it thus
you are
making it happen. Don't you think that's a little on the nose?
You've associated on the astral in psychic programming both your bed and this thought process, so then when you try to go to bed you will hear those insults and feel and hear those fears and awful things, and then when you do go to bed you activate that programming causing it to actually happen and directing you mind to veer to such false beliefs. You need to deprogram this by realizing in full truth and comfort for yourself that it's just you that's been doing it the whole time and relax.
Knowing the truth of anything in what's
actually going on helps to handle it and counter it if it's something that's been a problem for you. Fortunately there are people such as myself that have been through these exact things who can reveal such truths and explanations to you and help you see what's actually going on and correct the issue.
. But now it is important to work on strengthening yourself, and your mind. 
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