@Betelgeuse

[FancyMancy]

I really wish I had more interaction and was more important to Satan and the Gods. I always feel left out and ignored most of the time. I've tried to ask for help from them in the past several times for healing myself and advancing myself, but I never seem to get any response or help. I don't understand what the issue is or whats wrong with me.

Its mostly because im lazy and don't get too 'into' my meditations and stuff. About 2 months ago I broke down and tried talking to Satan and asked him for some help in my life and that I would do more warfare for him. I haven't been doing much warfare at all since my teeth are too damaged to vibrate certain words. But after I talked to Satan I tried my best to do at least 1 FRTR everyday despite my teeth being in such a bad condition. About 2 weeks had past after that and I didn't have any good experiences or help from Satan or any of the gods so I just gave up again.

Its a pretty common and usual thing that happens to me these days. I always ask for some kind of help on something important to me, I try to give in return, but I never get any help from them ever. I don't know what's wrong with me or why I never seem to get anything from them, no happiness or any assurance that they are there for me, or anything like that. I don't believe i'm a jew or anything at this point. I've been a member for about 6 years now, and I don't see anything at all jewish about my family. I know that I love to help and heal people and I have a love for nature and I know that I'm a good person at heart.

I don't understand why I've been through such a torturous life and why its a struggle to stay here as a part of JoS and keeping up with my meditations and advancement. I feel like my faith in Satan has been permanently scarred because of this. I need some kind of miracle from Satan and the Gods. I've swept my concerns and doubts under the rug and kept them hidden for a long time because I don't want people here on the forums to downtalk me on this type of subject, and I don't want to be some center of attention here because of another rant about being faithless or suffering. That's become a common enemy tactic these days to just cause mayhem and bring attention to themselves to post topics like that, but for me its legit. And after 6 years as a JoS member now its pretty embarrassing that I still go through this type of stuff and I still struggle a lot.
Its a lot harder to just sit down and try to clean all this bad energy or negative emotions off of my soul than you would think. I have a lot of problems like concentration issues and I always seem to get some type of attack whenever I try to do so. My mind wanders a lot and I still don't know if Satan or the Gods are there for me or watching over me. I have a bad case of imposter syndrome and I always feel unwelcome or like im doing something wrong or that Satan hates me for some reason, I don't know. Its bothered me ever since I joined JoS.

I hope Satan can hear me when I talk to him. I feel like he doesn't sometimes and I feel like im talking into the air or just into the empty void in my mind and nobody hears me. I hope Satan and the Gods can help me out of this sometime soon.

Firstly, I'm going to add HPHC's reply to you and luis's reply to you here, so as to keep these things together.

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Since you last commented about the very same things it appears you did not try to rectify nothing really about these problems. So they will remain.

Your problems appear to be mostly psychological such as self inflicted and primarily of an out of control mind, more than anything else.

This can take twenty lifetimes and still be ongoing until you decide to sit down and address it, reforming thought patterns, positive affirmations, self acceptance, and controlling your mind.

You appear to have minimal control of your mind and you'll never be happy with a mind that is not at least to some extent taken control over. Because the mind will always generate the wrong stuff, fears, preconditions, to fuck you up.

It's not Satan that will change this because your habits are leading you there. You have the tools the rest is up to you. Even if you keep telling people here it's not going to change unless you change it yourself.

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From experience. Stop being lazy. The Gods can't do your meditations and spell for you. Asking for help when you dont do the work is not right, they are teachers and they may handle big things that you can't do but only if you do your part of the work. They have helped me when I truly needed them, one time there was this 'human' that was so drunk he started to hit me. The moment I called the Gods he stopped. This is just one of my experiences with them.

There probably will be other replies to you in that thread, but I won't add any after this. Now my reply to you -

I don't mean to be offensive or anything, but maybe it is that you just are not quite at an amount of ability where you can realise some things yet. Maybe you are putting expectations on things which is a bad thing to do, and also it seems like you definitely are relying on others instead of yourself. Again to use a weight-lifting analogy - you just have to do it yourself, slowly at first, then build up slowly and carefully.

You want to hear from Satan or a God or Goddess - in a sense say that this is you wanting to participate in weight-lifting events; it seems like you are not at such a level to be able to do that yet. You might not be able to lift and press 100 KG yet (say). Once you manage to do that, then you can move up to 101 or 105 KG. Maybe what it is for you is that you need to be able to lift and press 125 KG before you can hear and realise things from Satan and the Gods and Goddesses, but you're not at 100 KG yet. For you, getting from less-than 100 KG up to 125 KG might take days, weeks, months or years.

Maybe you want to be able to bike up a steep hill. You need to use a tricycle or a bike with stabilisers first, when you're young, then practice biking up a shallow hill first after you have managed to ride the bicycle with only 2 wheels. If you keep quitting after you keep falling-off, then you won't get very far...

6 years as a SS here, you say. I've been here for a number of years, as well, and I have hardly advanced anywhere. You're not on your own. Maybe it is embarrassing, but meh. Who cares? We're not watching you nor judging how far you have or have not advanced, and Satan and the Gods and Goddesses are not like "jesus" becoming upset when it watches people "sin" in masturbation; They have busy lives which are busy doing important things for many Planets/Worlds to sort out from reptillian and jew, and related, shit. Not to mention, They are also doing Their own advancements, and living Their lives.

You want to bake a cake and you keep burning it or adding too much or too little of some ingredients. You have the recipe, the ingredients and the tools to make that cake - Gordon Ramsay isn't going to come and show you how to do it; you have to learn yourself - you have all of the necessary things on the JoS sites to help you. If you are not proficient in baking tasty cakes, then bake shit ones and laugh at yourself at how shit they are, eat them, then try again and make another, and another and another... until you get it right. You just have to keep going until you get it.

If at first you don't succeed, then...what? You know what.


There was once a king of Scotland whose name was Robert Bruce. He had need to be both brave and wise, for the times in which he lived were wild and rude. The King of England was at war with him, and had led a great army into Scotland to drive him out of the land.

Battle after battle had been fought. Six times had Bruce led his brave little army against his foes; and six times had his men been beaten, and driven into flight. At last his army was scattered, and he was forced to hide himself in the woods and in lonely places among the mountains.

One rainy day, Bruce lay on the ground under a rude shed, listening to the patter of the drops on the roof above him. He was tired and sick at heart, and ready to give up all hope. It seemed to him that there was no use for him to try to do anything more.

As he lay thinking, he saw a spider over his head, making ready to weave her web. He watched her as she toiled slowly and with great care. Six times she tried to throw her frail thread from one beam to another, and six times it fell short.

"Poor thing!" said Bruce, "you, too, know what it is to fail", but the spider did not lose hope with the sixth failure. With still more care, she made ready to try for the seventh time. Bruce almost forgot his own troubles as he watched her swing herself out upon the slender line. Would she fail again? No! The thread was carried safely to the beam, and fastened there.

"I, too, will try a seventh time!" cried Bruce.

He arose and called his men together. He told them of his plans, and sent them out with messages of cheer to his disheartened people. Soon there was an army of brave Scotch-men around him. Another battle was fought, and the King of England was glad to go back into his own country.

I have heard it said, that after that day, no-one by the name of Bruce would ever hurt a spider. The lesson which the little creature had taught the king was never forgotten.


Keep saying that you have a lot of problems, etc., is not helping. That is hindering and making things worse, bit by bit. If you own and accept and go along with problems, then they will be problems, and there will be problems. OK, so you fell off your bike a few hundred thousand times and scraped your knee and your hand, then you gave-up because it stings. That won't win you the Tour de France. Only you can do things, at the end of the day. You have to keep going and be careful and consistent with things.

With not being able to concentrate, just keep working. Don't try to fight the intrusive thoughts, because - in my experience and from what others say - that doesn't work. Doing that is focussing on trying to stop the bad thoughts, instead of encouraging good thoughts and self-control and a voided Mind. Focus on what you want to achieve instead of what you can't stop or change. What you focus on consumes you. Start somewhere and keep going and don't give up. Be consistent and go steadily.

 

[SouthernWhiteGentile]

I really wish I had more interaction and was more important to Satan and the Gods. I always feel left out and ignored most of the time. I've tried to ask for help from them in the past several times for healing myself and advancing myself, but I never seem to get any response or help. I don't understand what the issue is or whats wrong with me.

I’ve asked for help before, not for some BS things like “Satan I demand you make me a kabillionare or else it means you hate me” but things that I don’t even want to talk about here.

I’m the same way with you when it comes to advancement. Dedicated in February 20’ and I meditated pretty good for about 3 months. I was trying to think about when or why I stopped but it was around may. Went on vacation and didn’t have the privacy to have my normal med routine and when I got back I just couldn’t get into it again. I had just finished “opening the soul” and I guess I didn’t know what to do next so I didn’t do anything. That’s just the person I am. I NEED a clear checklist and set of directions/how to do them or else I will just wander aimlessly, or not even wander at all and remain completely stagnant.

I’ve also been thinking about the past in general a lot recently and trying to figure out where I went wrong and became this dropout NEET. Was it my childhood and the environment or my own choices? I don’t know. You can usually look to a natal chart for some clues but I don’t know how to read it. It has been giving me extreme anxiety and insecurity recently.

Back your main point, Satan and the Demons don’t put in the extra work for me, or you, because I don’t do the same for them. I doubt they even know who I am and why should they? I’ve been fucking off for the past 9 months barley doing the bare minimum. I don’t even have a life. I just get up everyday, eat, go walk around for little bit, play ps4 (not because I enjoy It but because it is something to do) repeat this for a few hours, then I lay in bed and try to sleep while tearing myself apart mentally just to wake up and do it all again the next day.

It’s not that I am suicidal or depressed, I just don’t care about my existence anymore. Why would I want to complete the MO and become a God that lives forever? I’ve been a mortal for a mere 18 years and I am already unsatisfied and want this ride to be over, who would want to do this for eternity? I see no point of life if there isn’t an inevitable end and conclusion. Why read a book, or watch a film if it just goes on and on and on, I imagine it would get old eventually unless immortality came with unlimited pleasure.

I know I want to defeat the enemy and spread our ideas but it isn’t good enough for me. I just cannot find something to get enjoyment from. I thought by understanding me it will help you understand yourself since we seem similar enough. The email is open if you don’t want to talk about all of this publicly. That’s about all.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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What is wrong with your teeth? Do they hurt, or are they just not positioned correctly? If a few of the pronunciations get screwed up, it is still ok and this is the best you can do. The energy will still be generated if it is close enough. For runes and other mantras there are always alternative variants or other options that one can pronounce better. For the RTR, even if you botch the pronunciation of one letter, you still did the others correctly, and so on.

Depending on the condition of your teeth, there are ways you can go about fixing them, with a little brainstorming. Not every solution can be implemented on your own, of course, but some might.

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Its mostly because im lazy and don't get too 'into' my meditations and stuff.

That's ok. You just need to do a working for this. I would do something with Sowilo. Choose the variant that you can pronounce the best. Program it to give you the willpower and compulsion to want to advance yourself spiritually, mentally, and physically, in the best way possible for you.

Furthermore, void meditation is critical and you should be doing this as much as possible. Do this FIRST before you do anything else, as void meditation gives an immediate boost in willpower. Do something like 5 minutes, then rest, then do another 5, and so on. Do as much as possible, perhaps starting 15-20 minutes per day. If you are new to this, simply do smaller chunks.

Void meditation is critical for both your willpower, as well as for your control of mind, whether that is imposter syndrome or whatever. I think the attacks are self-inflicted if they seem to be happening every time you void meditate. If one is not very advanced, I highly doubt you would get attacked this viciously. Not to say you haven't gotten attacked before, but I don't think it happens every single time you try to void.

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As others have explained, it is not so easy to communicate with the Gods. In some cases, they give signs that can go unheeded, for example. They cannot directly communicate with your, based on your astral hearing, therefore they have to rely on signs. They also subconsciously try to guide you. These can go ignored or interpreted incorrectly, or not acted upon, and so forth.

They are very busy and so they cannot invest their full energy into you. It is not that they do not love you, but they have a billion other things that take priority. You are safe and therefore your situation is stable, therefore you can afford to wait until our situation stabilizes.

Don't ever doubt that they don't love you. It is just that immediate communication is not always viable, for all the reasons everyone has mentioned. You may not be conscious of the blessings, signs, or guidance that they have bestowed upon you, so don't think they simply do not exist because you cannot see them. Just do your best to stay strong here.

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There are plenty of problems or obstacles that can prevent someone from advancing. However, these obstacles can be overcome with the correct knowledge, effort, brainstorming, etc. You made a good decision in communicating your plight to us, despite it troubling you, so that you can receive help. Don't think you aren't alone in all of this.

Focus on this: Look into fixing your teeth if possible. Do tons and tons of void. Look into a working that will rev up your desire to advance and take action. Also make sure to continue doing yoga and staying physically well: this of course also influences the mind.

Come back to us with your progress and with any other issues. There is always a solution. You are not alone in facing these things. You are not the first to face physical problems, willpower issues, concentration issues, etc. There is always a solution, you just have to narrow it down and focus on it. Devise a plan of action and implement it. Keep pushing.

 

[Henu the Great]

The only way to truly progress is to keep doing things consistently, every day. Otherwise the progress is very slow, or non existent. One has to have long term goals so that seemingly slow progress when looking on daily scale will not bother.

 

[One Wire Phenomenon]

The Gods helped me find joy of satan when i was a kid and the rest was and is all up to me.

 

[Betelgeuse]

I really wish I had more interaction and was more important to Satan and the Gods. I always feel left out and ignored most of the time. I've tried to ask for help from them in the past several times for healing myself and advancing myself, but I never seem to get any response or help. I don't understand what the issue is or whats wrong with me.

Its mostly because im lazy and don't get too 'into' my meditations and stuff. About 2 months ago I broke down and tried talking to Satan and asked him for some help in my life and that I would do more warfare for him. I haven't been doing much warfare at all since my teeth are too damaged to vibrate certain words. But after I talked to Satan I tried my best to do at least 1 FRTR everyday despite my teeth being in such a bad condition. About 2 weeks had past after that and I didn't have any good experiences or help from Satan or any of the gods so I just gave up again.

Its a pretty common and usual thing that happens to me these days. I always ask for some kind of help on something important to me, I try to give in return, but I never get any help from them ever. I don't know what's wrong with me or why I never seem to get anything from them, no happiness or any assurance that they are there for me, or anything like that. I don't believe i'm a jew or anything at this point. I've been a member for about 6 years now, and I don't see anything at all jewish about my family. I know that I love to help and heal people and I have a love for nature and I know that I'm a good person at heart.

I don't understand why I've been through such a torturous life and why its a struggle to stay here as a part of JoS and keeping up with my meditations and advancement. I feel like my faith in Satan has been permanently scarred because of this. I need some kind of miracle from Satan and the Gods. I've swept my concerns and doubts under the rug and kept them hidden for a long time because I don't want people here on the forums to downtalk me on this type of subject, and I don't want to be some center of attention here because of another rant about being faithless or suffering. That's become a common enemy tactic these days to just cause mayhem and bring attention to themselves to post topics like that, but for me its legit. And after 6 years as a JoS member now its pretty embarrassing that I still go through this type of stuff and I still struggle a lot.
Its a lot harder to just sit down and try to clean all this bad energy or negative emotions off of my soul than you would think. I have a lot of problems like concentration issues and I always seem to get some type of attack whenever I try to do so. My mind wanders a lot and I still don't know if Satan or the Gods are there for me or watching over me. I have a bad case of imposter syndrome and I always feel unwelcome or like im doing something wrong or that Satan hates me for some reason, I don't know. Its bothered me ever since I joined JoS.

I hope Satan can hear me when I talk to him. I feel like he doesn't sometimes and I feel like im talking into the air or just into the empty void in my mind and nobody hears me. I hope Satan and the Gods can help me out of this sometime soon.

Firstly, I'm going to add HPHC's reply to you and luis's reply to you here, so as to keep these things together.

...

Since you last commented about the very same things it appears you did not try to rectify nothing really about these problems. So they will remain.

Your problems appear to be mostly psychological such as self inflicted and primarily of an out of control mind, more than anything else.

This can take twenty lifetimes and still be ongoing until you decide to sit down and address it, reforming thought patterns, positive affirmations, self acceptance, and controlling your mind.

You appear to have minimal control of your mind and you'll never be happy with a mind that is not at least to some extent taken control over. Because the mind will always generate the wrong stuff, fears, preconditions, to fuck you up.

It's not Satan that will change this because your habits are leading you there. You have the tools the rest is up to you. Even if you keep telling people here it's not going to change unless you change it yourself.

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From experience. Stop being lazy. The Gods can't do your meditations and spell for you. Asking for help when you dont do the work is not right, they are teachers and they may handle big things that you can't do but only if you do your part of the work. They have helped me when I truly needed them, one time there was this 'human' that was so drunk he started to hit me. The moment I called the Gods he stopped. This is just one of my experiences with them.

There probably will be other replies to you in that thread, but I won't add any after this. Now my reply to you -

I don't mean to be offensive or anything, but maybe it is that you just are not quite at an amount of ability where you can realise some things yet. Maybe you are putting expectations on things which is a bad thing to do, and also it seems like you definitely are relying on others instead of yourself. Again to use a weight-lifting analogy - you just have to do it yourself, slowly at first, then build up slowly and carefully.

You want to hear from Satan or a God or Goddess - in a sense say that this is you wanting to participate in weight-lifting events; it seems like you are not at such a level to be able to do that yet. You might not be able to lift and press 100 KG yet (say). Once you manage to do that, then you can move up to 101 or 105 KG. Maybe what it is for you is that you need to be able to lift and press 125 KG before you can hear and realise things from Satan and the Gods and Goddesses, but you're not at 100 KG yet. For you, getting from less-than 100 KG up to 125 KG might take days, weeks, months or years.

Maybe you want to be able to bike up a steep hill. You need to use a tricycle or a bike with stabilisers first, when you're young, then practice biking up a shallow hill first after you have managed to ride the bicycle with only 2 wheels. If you keep quitting after you keep falling-off, then you won't get very far...

6 years as a SS here, you say. I've been here for a number of years, as well, and I have hardly advanced anywhere. You're not on your own. Maybe it is embarrassing, but meh. Who cares? We're not watching you nor judging how far you have or have not advanced, and Satan and the Gods and Goddesses are not like "jesus" becoming upset when it watches people "sin" in masturbation; They have busy lives which are busy doing important things for many Planets/Worlds to sort out from reptillian and jew, and related, shit. Not to mention, They are also doing Their own advancements, and living Their lives.

You want to bake a cake and you keep burning it or adding too much or too little of some ingredients. You have the recipe, the ingredients and the tools to make that cake - Gordon Ramsay isn't going to come and show you how to do it; you have to learn yourself - you have all of the necessary things on the JoS sites to help you. If you are not proficient in baking tasty cakes, then bake shit ones and laugh at yourself at how shit they are, eat them, then try again and make another, and another and another... until you get it right. You just have to keep going until you get it.

If at first you don't succeed, then...what? You know what.


There was once a king of Scotland whose name was Robert Bruce. He had need to be both brave and wise, for the times in which he lived were wild and rude. The King of England was at war with him, and had led a great army into Scotland to drive him out of the land.

Battle after battle had been fought. Six times had Bruce led his brave little army against his foes; and six times had his men been beaten, and driven into flight. At last his army was scattered, and he was forced to hide himself in the woods and in lonely places among the mountains.

One rainy day, Bruce lay on the ground under a rude shed, listening to the patter of the drops on the roof above him. He was tired and sick at heart, and ready to give up all hope. It seemed to him that there was no use for him to try to do anything more.

As he lay thinking, he saw a spider over his head, making ready to weave her web. He watched her as she toiled slowly and with great care. Six times she tried to throw her frail thread from one beam to another, and six times it fell short.

"Poor thing!" said Bruce, "you, too, know what it is to fail", but the spider did not lose hope with the sixth failure. With still more care, she made ready to try for the seventh time. Bruce almost forgot his own troubles as he watched her swing herself out upon the slender line. Would she fail again? No! The thread was carried safely to the beam, and fastened there.

"I, too, will try a seventh time!" cried Bruce.

He arose and called his men together. He told them of his plans, and sent them out with messages of cheer to his disheartened people. Soon there was an army of brave Scotch-men around him. Another battle was fought, and the King of England was glad to go back into his own country.

I have heard it said, that after that day, no-one by the name of Bruce would ever hurt a spider. The lesson which the little creature had taught the king was never forgotten.


Keep saying that you have a lot of problems, etc., is not helping. That is hindering and making things worse, bit by bit. If you own and accept and go along with problems, then they will be problems, and there will be problems. OK, so you fell off your bike a few hundred thousand times and scraped your knee and your hand, then you gave-up because it stings. That won't win you the Tour de France. Only you can do things, at the end of the day. You have to keep going and be careful and consistent with things.

With not being able to concentrate, just keep working. Don't try to fight the intrusive thoughts, because - in my experience and from what others say - that doesn't work. Doing that is focussing on trying to stop the bad thoughts, instead of encouraging good thoughts and self-control and a voided Mind. Focus on what you want to achieve instead of what you can't stop or change. What you focus on consumes you. Start somewhere and keep going and don't give up. Be consistent and go steadily.

Thanks, I appreciate these stories that can renew somebody's hope. I never mean to make a big deal out of this post though.
I'm now alone in this, and I know theres many other people here that go through the same thing that I do. A lot of them just leave JoS. I remember seeing people here and on the old forums before that would post daily and always be active, but suddenly they would just vanish and probably they left JoS because of the same problems that I have.
I've came really close in the past to leaving JoS and giving up too. But im still here because I know this is the best path to take in life. Sometimes I just want to be close to the gods like other Satanists, and I think about just throwing my life away and going full time with Satanism and working for Satan. But at the same time I've had a rough life and I need to just heal from trauma and past life karma, and I just want to use my abilities to attract a good life to myself. Its pretty stressful dilemma for me.
I'd love to go full time as a soldier of Satan, but I also want to just use my abilities to heal and help other people and I have a good and peaceful life without all of the stress of doing constant warfare and being attacked daily with negative thoughts and bad energy from the enemy.

 

[hailourtruegod]

A humorous but positive video for our brother here,

https://youtube.com/watch?v=tYzMYcUty6s

Emphasis on the people cheering you on.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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Went on vacation and didn’t have the privacy to have my normal med routine and when I got back I just couldn’t get into it again.

I don't go on vacations with others anymore because it will interrupt the meditations, unless they are cool with you being alone for like 3-4 hours per day.

I had just finished “opening the soul” and I guess I didn’t know what to do next so I didn’t do anything. That’s just the person I am. I NEED a clear checklist and set of directions/how to do them or else I will just wander aimlessly, or not even wander at all and remain completely stagnant.

You basically have to split your time between:
-cleaning (current filth, but also deep cleaning trauma)
-empowering (spinning, vibrating, yoga, inhaling, pranayama)
-protection
-workings of any kind (changing aspects of yourself, gaining material wealth, empowering planets, removing bad karma)
-warfare (FRTR, other RTR's, blessing rituals, online warfare, helping others)
-balancing (yoga, pranayama, targeting certain chakras)
-studying (not everday, but something like 15-30 minutes reading the JOS site and branching out from there)
-decent effort to stay physically fit (eating whole foods, proper sleep, yoga, cardio or resistance training)
-void meditation and trance training

You have to maintain a balance such that too much empowerment can empower dirt on your soul or negative karma. Too much cleaning, but not empowering, leaves you with less overall power. Not balancing yourself makes your power unregulated or you may be deficient in an element.

Your checklist is basically Astaroth's eight fold path. I tried to quickly find the link on the main site but couldn't. If you search the forums you will find it.

I’ve also been thinking about the past in general a lot recently and trying to figure out where I went wrong and became this dropout NEET. Was it my childhood and the environment or my own choices? I don’t know. You can usually look to a natal chart for some clues but I don’t know how to read it. It has been giving me extreme anxiety and insecurity recently.

Use a free interpreter website, such as cafeastrology. You can also google individual aspects for more details. For example: "sun conjunction moon natal" will show you what that means for your personality. You can also google for the description of what each planet or house means. For example, the moon reflects emotions therefore this will clue you in to that part of yourself. The houses reflect aspects of your life and so on. Astrology is complex and you may have to re-read your chart multiple times to fully make sense of it all.

To answer your question on being a NEET, just focus on the present. Yes, there may be past trauma or karma, but already demonstrated that you could meditate before, so there is nothing major in your path. Ask yourself what exactly stops you from engaging in the act. If you told yourself right now: "I now begin cleaning my aura", but you don't, what caused this?

More on this point below.

I’ve been fucking off for the past 9 months barley doing the bare minimum. I don’t even have a life. I just get up everyday, eat, go walk around for little bit, play ps4 (not because I enjoy It but because it is something to do) repeat this for a few hours, then I lay in bed and try to sleep while tearing myself apart mentally just to wake up and do it all again the next day. It’s not that I am suicidal or depressed, I just don’t care about my existence anymore.

To me it just sounds like you are operating on low bioenergy and/or fried dopamine receptors from the PS4. This is all fixable, but you have to push yourself a little to get the ball rolling. Once the ball is rolling, you will feel much better and able to sustain further empowerment.

For people who don't practice void, video games/youtube/porn can present itself as a giant distraction. You will have to actively fight this whilst simultaneously doing void. Remind yourself that your brain will adapt and suddenly everything else will soon feel interesting again.

You should disconnect the PS4 cable and hide it somewhere inconvenient, like chuck it behind or on top of a piece of furniture or something. Otherwise, just sell it. Obviously, one can still play on the phone in the same way, so you will have to install blocking apps. The point is that if you are wasting large portions of time on these addictions, they have to be halted. Once halted, the brain will reset over the next 2-3 days, even if you feel a little bored.

I deleted all my PC video games and installed phone blockers because I had to. Of course meditation is not as stimulating to the brain as video games. However, if you remove them, then your brain will adapt and feel more motivated to do "harder" stuff.

This may seem harsh, but the modern clownworld is full of distractions powerful enough to suck someone down to a couch potato state If you are in a NEET situation, that means there is no 8 hour block of school or work to get you away from these addictions. This is not unique to you. You have to fight this head on, however. Void meditation is absolutely crucial here and will make this way easier.

You will have to restart your meditation schedule, obviously. This is the easiest way to raise energy. Start with the yoga for a quick boost that requires comparatively less willpower to perform. Do the hatha yoga routine or the Tibetan 5 Rites, for example.

Why would I want to complete the MO and become a God that lives forever? I’ve been a mortal for a mere 18 years and I am already unsatisfied and want this ride to be over, who would want to do this for eternity? I see no point of life if there isn’t an inevitable end and conclusion. Why read a book, or watch a film if it just goes on and on and on, I imagine it would get old eventually unless immortality came with unlimited pleasure.

You are not experiencing life in its fullest expression, which you should know. You and everyone else who doesn't meditate is basically on battery hibernation mode, whereas Satan or someone who does the MO is blindingly full of energy. Combine that raw energy flowing through you, plus doing workings to support yourself, and life will be amazing to live again.

The ether is unlimited, therefore power and pleasure are unlimited. The Gods are tens of thousands of years old and still having fun, so this should show you that life is fun. What is not fun is when your life is interpreting by Jews, but this is what you are experiencing. Of course you don't want to continue life when it is merely filled with cheap, artificial activities. There is so much more to everything.

I know I want to defeat the enemy and spread our ideas but it isn’t good enough for me. I just cannot find something to get enjoyment from.

This line makes it further clear that what you are experiencing is basically an emotional or bio-energetic problem, not a logical one. Amp yourself up on energy or do void for 15 minutes and you will feel much more happy.

Also, spiritual warfare and advancement is not always fun, although it eventually becomes much easier. Initially however, it takes work and willpower. This is why you have to do void and do workings to augment your willpower, such as with Sowilo for example.

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Just take a deep breath and dust yourself off. Stand back on your feet. Do two things today:

1) Restart with an easy routine like the 40 day guide.

2) Limit electric Jew distractions. For example, give yourself 1.5 hrs max on the PS4 per day. If you are unable to maintain this, for whatever reason, then you know that one of your immediate obstacles is the PS4.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

The only way to truly progress is to keep doing things consistently, every day. Otherwise the progress is very slow, or non existent. One has to have long term goals so that seemingly slow progress when looking on daily scale will not bother.

Going off this same point: You just have to craft yourself a rudimentary schedule to follow. The 40 day plan is a basic guide, on can also make a forum post asking for help beyond this.

It is strange to me how many people think the willpower to follow their spiritual routine is something that they are either born with or will never have. Willpower is a skill, not a birth trait. You simply have to up your void then start and continue a working for more willpower.

This extra willpower will allow you to also organize your life in a manner that gains you more wealth and physical health, even without doing a working.

So people say that they don't feel like doing something: Ok, it is not big deal. It just means you have to do more void. You are not doomed or something.

This is not directed at you specifically, I am just sort of ranting.

 

[Ara666]

I really wish I had more interaction and was more important to Satan and the Gods. I always feel left out and ignored most of the time. I've tried to ask for help from them in the past several times for healing myself and advancing myself, but I never seem to get any response or help. I don't understand what the issue is or whats wrong with me.

I’ve asked for help before, not for some BS things like “Satan I demand you make me a kabillionare or else it means you hate me” but things that I don’t even want to talk about here.

I’m the same way with you when it comes to advancement. Dedicated in February 20’ and I meditated pretty good for about 3 months. I was trying to think about when or why I stopped but it was around may. Went on vacation and didn’t have the privacy to have my normal med routine and when I got back I just couldn’t get into it again. I had just finished “opening the soul” and I guess I didn’t know what to do next so I didn’t do anything. That’s just the person I am. I NEED a clear checklist and set of directions/how to do them or else I will just wander aimlessly, or not even wander at all and remain completely stagnant.

Have you ever tried HPHC 40 days meditation program? This should give you a clear set of directions you’re looking for

Here’s the link :

https://www.satanslibrary.org/Pdf_Library.html

Just start slowly. You don’t even have to stick to the days exactly as it says. For example, if by days 4-5 you feel like doing the breathing exercise is too much for now; you can start doing it by day 15 or 20… You get the picture. Just advance at your own pace. And find what works best for you.

You can even start experiencing with the meditations that are in the “beginning section.”

https://www.joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Satanic_Meditation.html

You know what really helps? Vibrating SURYAE into your soul and chakras for cleaning.

Sometimes when I visit relatives and friends, I don’t always have the privacy I need, so I just work around it the best I can. A few weeks ago for example, I had absolutely NO privacy to do my meditations. I only had some time in the evening, so, all I could do was physical yoga. Also, I couldn’t vibrate RAUM or SURYAE because a family member was sleeping in the same room as me. I admit I was a bit lazy to even imagine a golden white light around me just for protection. So, I ended up being sick on the 4th day… I learned from that mistake.

I’ve also been thinking about the past in general a lot recently and trying to figure out where I went wrong and became this dropout NEET. Was it my childhood and the environment or my own choices? I don’t know. You can usually look to a natal chart for some clues but I don’t know how to read it. It has been giving me extreme anxiety and insecurity recently.

Back your main point, Satan and the Demons don’t put in the extra work for me, or you, because I don’t do the same for them. I doubt they even know who I am and why should they? I’ve been fucking off for the past 9 months barley doing the bare minimum. I don’t even have a life. I just get up everyday, eat, go walk around for little bit, play ps4 (not because I enjoy It but because it is something to do) repeat this for a few hours, then I lay in bed and try to sleep while tearing myself apart mentally just to wake up and do it all again the next day.

It’s not that I am suicidal or depressed, I just don’t care about my existence anymore. Why would I want to complete the MO and become a God that lives forever? I’ve been a mortal for a mere 18 years and I am already unsatisfied and want this ride to be over, who would want to do this for eternity? I see no point of life if there isn’t an inevitable end and conclusion. Why read a book, or watch a film if it just goes on and on and on, I imagine it would get old eventually unless immortality came with unlimited pleasure.

I know I want to defeat the enemy and spread our ideas but it isn’t good enough for me. I just cannot find something to get enjoyment from. I thought by understanding me it will help you understand yourself since we seem similar enough. The email is open if you don’t want to talk about all of this publicly. That’s about all.

Let me tell you that you’re a very smart guy. You already know there’s something wrong with this world and it needs to change. You came to our side and started to see the other side of the coin. But it doesn’t mean that you have to give up on your own existence. This world is fucked up because of the enemy. You know it.

You have been given the opportunity to start your life anew. Sure, it hurts. It’s painful sometimes. But when you keep on meditating and cleaning your soul, you will see that things get better. They really do.

Right now you feel this way because you know you haven’t meditated in 9 months. I know I used to feel like shit when I wouldn't meditate even for 1 day. It was horrible. All these negative feelings were coming back to me but when I got back to meditate regularly, I found peace inside myself all over again. Meditating improves your overall well-being for one thing. And you don’t face the same issues those that are without have to face.

I just think it would be a real shame to put this new life behind you and end with all of this. Don’t do this to yourself. Like I said, you’ve been given a chance. You have the power to change this and make things better for yourself.

 

[Henu the Great]

Going off this same point: You just have to craft yourself a rudimentary schedule to follow. The 40 day plan is a basic guide, on can also make a forum post asking for help beyond this.

It is strange to me how many people think the willpower to follow their spiritual routine is something that they are either born with or will never have. Willpower is a skill, not a birth trait. You simply have to up your void then start and continue a working for more willpower.

This extra willpower will allow you to also organize your life in a manner that gains you more wealth and physical health, even without doing a working.

So people say that they don't feel like doing something: Ok, it is not big deal. It just means you have to do more void. You are not doomed or something.

This is not directed at you specifically, I am just sort of ranting.

Your sort of ranting contains valuable info for those who struggle with that issue.

Void is paramount, and I would like to add that runic empowerment is one good avenue to pursue as well.

 

[FancyMancy]

suddenly they would just vanish and probably they left JoS because of the same problems that I have.

"Probably"? That sounds like you are wishing that to be true, so you can have others who identify with you.

because of the same problems that I have.

Excuse you! You don't have problems; you have solutions.

I think about just throwing my life away and going full time with Satanism and working for Satan.

We need to do Physical, non-Spiritual things, as well.

Its pretty stressful dilemma for me.

You keep affirming that things are shit. They are, therefore.

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To both of you, you need to just do something. Start with 1 thing and do that. If you do that for 3 months or 6 months and nothing else, then OK. "We all go at our own speed", so stop feeling down because we're - and I say we, meaning myself included - going so slowly. We're not Lydia or HPHC or Maxine or Hitler. We're not Vovim, Mageson, or Salem. We're not any poser, faker, or jew (unless we are and we're keeping that secret, of course). We're us, respectively.

Don't stop what current programme or schedule you are doing already (if any), but this is an example; if you're not doing any, then take this and try it -
do Aura of Protection and focus on that exclusively. Don't ask who, what, when, how, why or where; just do it. Masturbate in the morning (make sure you don't waste the orgasm Energy), have a bath/shower, eat breakfast, do your AoP, then get on with whatever else in your day. If you masturbate more than once per day, then use the orgasm Energy each time for your AoP. Start with 9 repetitions of a correct, positive, present-tense affirmation for a month or two, then reduce it down to 3 times for the affirmation (the JoS says only a few days is necessary before dropping down the AoP affirmation number, but we're going slowly here). Play computer games, watch TV and programmes, see what's happening. Do other things, do AoP again, then go to bed. After 3 months or 6 months, add something else to your programme after your AoP... Maybe 3 or 6 months is way too long; do 4 weeks instead.

To get over the upset, dismality, depression, feeling sorry for oneself, whingeiness - whatever you want to call it - either just move or take however-long to get through it. I don't expect anyone needs to reach rock bottom, but I don't know everything about anyone, so perhaps they do - but why? Why not not get that low? That is a longer way to climb back up. if we go that low, then we might bounce back, or we might splat and end up a big mess which we can't recover from. We on here can give only advice and encouragement. In one way, another way, more than one way, other ways...or other, you two and I are similar. You are not alone - but you are independent; I and we can't and won't do your work for you; you, on the other hand, will or won't continue to complain and move somewhere or nowhere. Do a thing for a while, then add a thing to that, then add another thing to that, etc. Only you can do it; I can't, he can't, she can't, we can't, they can't, Satan can't, the Gods and Goddesses can't. Only you can - and only you will or won't.

 

[SouthernWhiteGentile]

You basically have to split your time between:
-cleaning (current filth, but also deep cleaning trauma)
-empowering (spinning, vibrating, yoga, inhaling, pranayama)
-protection
-workings of any kind (changing aspects of yourself, gaining material wealth, empowering planets, removing bad karma)
-warfare (FRTR, other RTR's, blessing rituals, online warfare, helping others)
-balancing (yoga, pranayama, targeting certain chakras)
-studying (not everday, but something like 15-30 minutes reading the JOS site and branching out from there)
-decent effort to stay physically fit (eating whole foods, proper sleep, yoga, cardio or resistance training)
-void meditation and trance training

You have to maintain a balance such that too much empowerment can empower dirt on your soul or negative karma. Too much cleaning, but not empowering, leaves you with less overall power. Not balancing yourself makes your power unregulated or you may be deficient in an element.

Your checklist is basically Astaroth's eight fold path. I tried to quickly find the link on the main site but couldn't. If you search the forums you will find it.

I know what I need to do but it’s hard on my own. I need someone kicking me on the ass all the time to stay at it. I really wish I had someone IRL like a mentor, or a rather a personal trainer for spiritually to guide me on these things. At the same time I feel ungrateful and needy saying that because people like Maxine and other SS worked their way to the top all by themselves. I also hate asking for help or favors.

Use a free interpreter website, such as cafeastrology. You can also google individual aspects for more details. For example: "sun conjunction moon natal" will show you what that means for your personality. You can also google for the description of what each planet or house means. For example, the moon reflects emotions therefore this will clue you in to that part of yourself. The houses reflect aspects of your life and so on. Astrology is complex and you may have to re-read your chart multiple times to fully make sense of it all.

How knowledgeable are you? I would get a reading from HC or Lydia but they have enough as it is. I am willing to pay whatever they charge to anyone else that is willing to read it, once I have the cash.

To answer your question on being a NEET, just focus on the present. Yes, there may be past trauma or karma, but already demonstrated that you could meditate before, so there is nothing major in your path. Ask yourself what exactly stops you from engaging in the act. If you told yourself right now: "I now begin cleaning my aura", but you don't, what caused this?

What’s stopping me is myself. I know I need to this things but I just can’t. My mind is always making excuses or saying, “I will do it later”. I clean my aura after doing the RTR everyday but I’m usually so tired it’s not thorough at all.

For people who don't practice void, video games/youtube/porn can present itself as a giant distraction. You will have to actively fight this whilst simultaneously doing void. Remind yourself that your brain will adapt and suddenly everything else will soon feel interesting again.

I hate porn but I watch it because with no partner I don’t have any other sexual release.

You should disconnect the PS4 cable and hide it somewhere inconvenient, like chuck it behind or on top of a piece of furniture or something. Otherwise, just sell it. Obviously, one can still play on the phone in the same way, so you will have to install blocking apps. The point is that if you are wasting large portions of time on these addictions, they have to be halted. Once halted, the brain will reset over the next 2-3 days, even if you feel a little bored.

I started today. Call it coincidence but I left my earbuds somewhere so I do not have them. Most of the time when I should be doing these things I am listening to music, I normally go sit outside right after I get up and crank up the volume but today I didn’t have that option so I tried to meditate. I sat in a chair in the sun and closed my eyes for about 5 minutes. Maybe 30 seconds of it was actual void with no other thoughts but it is a start. Also instead of playing on my phone/music like normal I sat on the porch and did a word search with pencil and paper for a little bit.

I wonder what the relation is between music and dopamine is. Everyone talks about screens, drugs, and porn, but music slips under the radar and is probably the most addictive and time confusing for me. I am usually listening for an unhealthy amount of the day when I could be doing things for my advancement. I’m listening right now straight out of my phone speaker. I noticed today I was craving headphones. It really is a problem for me.

I deleted all my PC video games and installed phone blockers because I had to. Of course meditation is not as stimulating to the brain as video games. However, if you remove them, then your brain will adapt and feel more motivated to do "harder" stuff.

I remember last summer my phone was broke and I didn’t have one for about 2 weeks. It did feel refreshing even though all the other screens were still there.

This may seem harsh, but the modern clownworld is full of distractions powerful enough to suck someone down to a couch potato state If you are in a NEET situation, that means there is no 8 hour block of school or work to get you away from these addictions. This is not unique to you. You have to fight this head on, however. Void meditation is absolutely crucial here and will make this way easier.

That is a lot of my problem. I need somewhere to go and something to do.

You are not experiencing life in its fullest expression, which you should know. You and everyone else who doesn't meditate is basically on battery hibernation mode, whereas Satan or someone who does the MO is blindingly full of energy. Combine that raw energy flowing through you, plus doing workings to support yourself, and life will be amazing to live again.

The ether is unlimited, therefore power and pleasure are unlimited. The Gods are tens of thousands of years old and still having fun, so this should show you that life is fun. What is not fun is when your life is interpreting by Jews, but this is what you are experiencing. Of course you don't want to continue life when it is merely filled with cheap, artificial activities. There is so much more to everything.

I have become a pessimist recently. You’re right I’m not getting the real things out of life.

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Just take a deep breath and dust yourself off. Stand back on your feet. Do two things today:

1) Restart with an easy routine like the 40 day guide.

2) Limit electric Jew distractions. For example, give yourself 1.5 hrs max on the PS4 per day. If you are unable to maintain this, for whatever reason, then you know that one of your immediate obstacles is the PS4.

Should I do the 40 days even though I have already opened the chakras? I suppose they have probably closed again at this point.

You know what really helps? Vibrating SURYAE into your soul and chakras for cleaning.

Sometimes when I visit relatives and friends, I don’t always have the privacy I need, so I just work around it the best I can. A few weeks ago for example, I had absolutely NO privacy to do my meditations. I only had some time in the evening, so, all I could do was physical yoga. Also, I couldn’t vibrate RAUM or SURYAE because a family member was sleeping in the same room as me. I admit I was a bit lazy to even imagine a golden white light around me just for protection. So, I ended up being sick on the 4th day… I learned from that mistake.

Let me tell you that you’re a very smart guy. You already know there’s something wrong with this world and it needs to change. You came to our side and started to see the other side of the coin. But it doesn’t mean that you have to give up on your own existence. This world is fucked up because of the enemy. You know it.

You have been given the opportunity to start your life anew. Sure, it hurts. It’s painful sometimes. But when you keep on meditating and cleaning your soul, you will see that things get better. They really do.

Right now you feel this way because you know you haven’t meditated in 9 months. I know I used to feel like shit when I wouldn't meditate even for 1 day. It was horrible. All these negative feelings were coming back to me but when I got back to meditate regularly, I found peace inside myself all over again. Meditating improves your overall well-being for one thing. And you don’t face the same issues those that are without have to face.

I just think it would be a real shame to put this new life behind you and end with all of this. Don’t do this to yourself. Like I said, you’ve been given a chance. You have the power to change this and make things better for yourself.

Thanks for the advice I have no intention on walking away from this but it is easier to just be the goy that is ignorant of everything, but once you are redpilled it is impossible to go back.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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How knowledgeable are you? I would get a reading from HC or Lydia but they have enough as it is. I am willing to pay whatever they charge to anyone else that is willing to read it, once I have the cash.

Not knowledgeable enough for a reading, sorry. Most online interpreters will highlight prominent natal aspects, both good and bad. Additionally, look at your North Node house + sign to see stuff that you need to work on. If you google this, there will be blogs explaining what your North Node's qualities mean. This is an easy and generalized way to see what may be holding you back, instead of looking at each planet, each sign, each house, etc.

What’s stopping me is myself. I know I need to this things but I just can’t. My mind is always making excuses or saying, “I will do it later”. I clean my aura after doing the RTR everyday but I’m usually so tired it’s not thorough at all.

If you are mentally tired, then this is just a willpower thing. If you are more physically tired, then you expended too much energy. You will want to inhale energy to charge yourself back up. Also, daily yoga will improve the body's physical energy.

I hate porn but I watch it because with no partner I don’t have any other sexual release.

Yeah, it is hard. You'll have to do a working for it. Just try to convince yourself to tone it down a little bit. Like only sticking to one video, or to only looking at comics, or only looking at pictures only, etc. Porn is very mental and not a true reflection of your actual need for release. In the moment, ask yourself if you can just watch youtube or lesser entertainment instead and see if you still feel horny in 10 minutes.

I sat in a chair in the sun and closed my eyes for about 5 minutes. Maybe 30 seconds of it was actual void with no other thoughts but it is a start. Also instead of playing on my phone/music like normal I sat on the porch and did a word search with pencil and paper for a little bit.

Sounds like a good start. Don't focus on the results of the void training, like whether you are successful or not. Just focus on consciously trying on holding the void state as much as possible. It is the act of trying that builds the skill.

I wonder what the relation is between music and dopamine is. Everyone talks about screens, drugs, and porn, but music slips under the radar and is probably the most addictive and time confusing for me. I am usually listening for an unhealthy amount of the day when I could be doing things for my advancement. I’m listening right now straight out of my phone speaker. I noticed today I was craving headphones. It really is a problem for me.

Yep, it is an addiction like any other. You also have to evaluate how distracting something can be based on its current state. What I mean is, listening to a CD player only gives you the option of that CD. Listening on Spotify, for example, lets you immediately and instantly switch between tons of songs and any point within them. This makes it much more instantly gratifying to the brain.

That is a lot of my problem. I need somewhere to go and something to do.

It is always harder to self-motivate yourself to do something, even more at home. This is because the only pressure to work is basically coming from yourself, not anything external sources. With this in mind, don't beat yourself up so badly. Just know that you will have to fight daily to change this.

95% of the youth and millennial are stuck in this dopamine trap, but they only need enough willpower to flip burgers or something. Meditating requires full use of the brain, more than other activities, and therefore has higher willpower demands.

You will want to focus on void and consider a working for willpower and compulsion. Here is what I use with 96x Saulo:

The energies of Saulo now and permanently give me the willpower, ability, and compulsion to consistently advance spiritually, mentally, and physically in the best and fastest ways for me, in a healthy and positive manner for me. (x8)

Should I do the 40 days even though I have already opened the chakras? I suppose they have probably closed again at this point.

Yes, you probably should. The 40 days is just an easy start. Do not pile yourself up with 4-5 hours of work, just start easy. Once you are consistently at a higher level of power, you can then sustain a working for even more willpower. However, if your burn yourself out after 5 days of doing every meditation in the book, then you won't want to do anything else.

This is also the case with the new meditation schedule coming up: Just go easy, don't think you are now burdening with hours upon hours of meditation. Consistency is more important.

Lastly, given that your (and nearly everyone's) limit is their willpower, you should design your routine to be very heavy on void meditation. I would do this first in the routine as well, and even like 5-10 minutes right when you wake up so you start the day off well.

The brain acutely changes after void to have an easier time managing its own emotions. In addition, it starts to change permanently as well. It is like a muscle and if you suddenly put your brain under a large influence of void training, then it will respond quickly and start changing its neural structure. It is no different than if you started playing guitar: the more you practice, the better you get. You cannot go wrong with more.

Good luck man!

 

[SouthernWhiteGentile]

You will want to focus on void and consider a working for willpower and compulsion. Here is what I use with 96x Saulo:
The energies of Saulo now and permanently give me the willpower, ability, and compulsion to consistently advance spiritually, mentally, and physically in the best and fastest ways for me, in a healthy and positive manner for me. (x8)

How many days is this for? I thought about making a mega-working with runes to help free me from all addictions and past trauma but I will do this as well.

Lastly, given that your (and nearly everyone's) limit is their willpower, you should design your routine to be very heavy on void meditation. I would do this first in the routine as well, and even like 5-10 minutes right when you wake up so you start the day off well.

I’ll have to add this with the 40 day program.

Good luck man!

Thanks.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

How many days is this for? I thought about making a mega-working with runes to help free me from all addictions and past trauma but I will do this as well.

Well, with all workings you have to do 40 days minimum to permanently influence the soul. From there, you have to judge the effects and whether they are at the level that you would like. Obviously you can redo the working at a later date, but this may not always be convenient if you want to start on a good astrological date.

The Saulo working that I mentioned is pretty broad, encompassing all aspects of a person, however it is aiming to achieve something great: where the person would have like a mini fire in them urging them on always. I personally plan to carry it to at least 80 days, given the usefulness of it. My primary limit is my productivity, therefore it makes sense to go hard on this working.

Between the Saulo working and a working for past trauma/addictions, you have to weigh what is most important. You can do both, but it may take you some time. The Saulo with 96 reps takes me about 30 minutes or so.

If the working you are planning is for all addictions and past trauma, this is is pretty broad and you want to make sure you can back it up with the necessary amount of energy. It may make sense to first target any active addictions, then later you can target past trauma separately. You have to make a judgement call on what is the priority.

 

[Ara666]

Thanks for the advice I have no intention on walking away from this but it is easier to just be the goy that is ignorant of everything, but once you are redpilled it is impossible to go back.

You have no idea what you're missing.

 

[Thousahll]

I think your problem lies on lack of resolve. What do you see yourself 5 years from now? 10 years? The Gods are going to return here on Earth, if I am you, I should always do the best version of myself. Sorry but in my own opinion, you shackled your own self....you limit yourself.... You need to become more mature. Always remember that we all started in point zero of our lives in this path. Some of the members here took even a lot of years just to get a simple communication with the Gods. If you don't help yourself, then who will? Father and the Gods are guiding us if we stay true to our path and that is towards Godhood. I am sure they are giving you signs.

Also, they believe in you. Life is always giving us a lesson. I am sure you are learning some things from your problem. You must overcome yourself. Master yourself. Control your emotions, don't let your emotions control you.

Always do void meditation, empty your thoughts. And also Hatha yoga with controlled breathing. Do SATANAMA and Alternate Nostril Breathing Exercise. Always clean yourself and your chakras. And always spin your chakras.

This may be blunt but in some cases please don't make excuses. I myself haven't interacted with Father and my Guardian in such a way that I can successfully converse with them but honestly its okay for me. Better even. Because for me it only means that I haven't reached the threshold yet. Not enough. I am too far on reaching that level yet. But I am happy because there's so so much room for improvement.

Enjoy the moment of being here and now. Look at the Sun, that's our will! The undying will of being a Spiritual Satanist!

In closing, please read this message of Lady Haures as stated by Her disciple:

There is a many great things coming,
that you must prepare for.
It goes beyond discipline and focus,
it becomes a necessity everyday
as breathing is, if not more so
Your mindset and attitude,
behavior and actions,
either make you a winner, a survivor
or you will fall with the old world
that you, and others
must clean up in preparation for the
New World that is on your doorstep.
There is no more time for waiting
to get your shit together,
You must see the urgency and move
with the tides.
We have reached the end of our rope with you,
You must change your ways
or fall into ashes with the enemy
And face your Maker when you die;
Or would you rather live, honorably and honestly
Drinking with the gods
And dining among friends?
Would you rather be rotten and weeded out
or take your rightful place as a Satanist?
We have much work for you to do,
there is no time to lose.
We would hate to see you go, don't throw your potential away
It's time to prove your love and loyalty to Satan and the Gods of Hell
in action.

 

[SouthernWhiteGentile]

Well, with all workings you have to do 40 days minimum to permanently influence the soul. From there, you have to judge the effects and whether they are at the level that you would like. Obviously you can redo the working at a later date, but this may not always be convenient if you want to start on a good astrological date.

The Saulo working that I mentioned is pretty broad, encompassing all aspects of a person, however it is aiming to achieve something great: where the person would have like a mini fire in them urging them on always. I personally plan to carry it to at least 80 days, given the usefulness of it. My primary limit is my productivity, therefore it makes sense to go hard on this working.

Between the Saulo working and a working for past trauma/addictions, you have to weigh what is most important. You can do both, but it may take you some time. The Saulo with 96 reps takes me about 30 minutes or so.

If the working you are planning is for all addictions and past trauma, this is is pretty broad and you want to make sure you can back it up with the necessary amount of energy. It may make sense to first target any active addictions, then later you can target past trauma separately. You have to make a judgement call on what is the priority.

I’ll have to start this soon preferably when the astrological time is right.

 

[Henu the Great]

I’ll have to start this soon preferably when the astrological time is right.

Waxing Moon Leo next week is ok. Waxing Sagittarius is better, but for that you'd have to wait for to end of May...

 

[Jack]

I really appreciate how Blitzkrieg is answering all these questions. Friend, you should make a document and copy/paste these. As you see the problems faced by people are repetitive and generally fall into the same categories.

 

[Henu the Great]

I really appreciate how Blitzkrieg is answering all these questions. Friend, you should make a document and copy/paste these. As you see the problems faced by people are repetitive and generally fall into the same categories.

To be honest I think he already does that.

 

[SouthernWhiteGentile]

Waxing Moon Leo next week is ok. Waxing Sagittarius is better, but for that you'd have to wait for to end of May...

So I can start it at any time on the 25th just not VoC.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I really appreciate how Blitzkrieg is answering all these questions. Friend, you should make a document and copy/paste these. As you see the problems faced by people are repetitive and generally fall into the same categories.

To be honest I think he already does that.

I have the "document" in my brain and I usually just rattle off as much as I can recall. I should organize it in writing, however, to make sure I get the wording down perfect and make sure I don't miss important aspects of each point.

 

[Henu the Great]

Waxing Moon Leo next week is ok. Waxing Sagittarius is better, but for that you'd have to wait for to end of May...

So I can start it at any time on the 25th just not VoC.

Hour of Sun is best, and preferably when the Sun is waxing - that is until about 2-3pm. Depends where you live.

 

[Anonymous]

I really appreciate how Blitzkrieg is answering all these questions. Friend, you should make a document and copy/paste these. As you see the problems faced by people are repetitive and generally fall into the same categories.

This is very true. I've been reading this and I can relate to this issue. As such, I took everyone's advice. And thank everyone for sharing their experiences and knowledge.

Can't add much more to this, but I'd like to say, as someone have who been through the same and was pretty close of losing all hope. I hope you guys are back on track. Never give up. Fight for your life. Tame your own self. Know where to put limits and know where to break limits. Look deep inside with honesty and be humble with your own self and have an open mind to whatever you find inside you. Have more goals and less expectations. Specially if they are unreal. I strongly advise pushing yourself into Astrology. Believe me, I've been where you are or worse who knows. And what changed for me was getting to know my real self. Astrology helped tremendously. I know what you're thinking, Astrology it's such a hard work to learn that so complex. It's not that hard. I mean, its extremely complex. But you can figure out the basics pretty easily such as planets, houses, signs, aspects, and they can sometimes tell a lot of information about yourself and certain areas you need to tackle, and then work your way from there. Don't jump into conclusions though, make sure you get a proper interpretation. With the aspects, degrees, signs, configurations, whatever. Just start reading the page on the JoS. Whatever you can't understand just Google it. There's nothing wrong in that. When you figure out the basic concepts get back to JoS and use it to figure out the chart. It is THAT easy. However depending on how complex your chart and configurations are, it may take longer or not to read it through. I'll leave this video here that'll show you the basics it helped me a lot to then come to Azazels Astrology and use it and understand it. Your mind is making it to be harder then it actually is in reality (don't take me wrong it's still very hard to do a complete reading) https://youtu.be/-4vNK05bEjo

Really, I am forever going to advertise Astrology, as it changed my entire life in just a few days. I've got answers to most of the hardest questions. It also shows you certain areas you need to empower in order to create balance with the negative influences. If you are skeptical as I was, just reach through the chart. It won't lie. It won't make up anything. It will show you things you already know are fucked up. It will also show you where you are strong. And these things, I'm assuming you already know them deep inside you. Otherwise you wouldn't be here. My point is you'll know it's all true when you start interpreting the chart and start getting answers to the hardest questions you ever made to your own self. Push yourself. Once you shift the mindset in the brain it all starts falling into place. Make a plan, a simple yet effective one. You've got all the tools. You're not a newbie so you know which meditations do what. Get into that and make your own program. As other suggested and even got you some examples of where to start.
By looking at your chart, you will KNOW that you are not weak, certainly have bad placements such as we all do that will emphasize weaker areas. But don't dwell much on that. Focus on what's good. And focus on empowering that good that you see in the chart. Most of this work has to be mental and psychological effort and war with your own self. And its something you can never escape from. You have to face the real you. The sooner you get out of your comfort zone and do this, easier it is. As much as you'd like life to be easier it won't get that way. I do understand the feeling really. Everything seems to be such a huge problem in the way of things. I know. And I lived this life for years. Embrace it. Life is fucked up (the way the world is at the moment, anyway) . You might have certain planetary placements that fuck you up even further. But you're here. So believe in yourself. And see for yourself. Look at the chart and know where your strengths are. Focus on them and never give up.

That's just my piece of advice. Hope you are doing better by now. Both of you