I've healed a lot from trauma but I've turned jaded and into a misanthropist. I look at humans and only see degenerates and wish they would hurry up and die for the jab. All i've ever wanted was to be loved, respected, valued, and shown that I matter but instead people just kick me when I'm already down and completely dehumanized me.
I dont understand either because Im extremely beautiful and contrary to popular believe I am a sweetheart and have a big heart, even old bulllies have admitted it. One girl said she bullied me because im very beautiful and shes jealous that I get a lot of attention for men and that im intelligent.
Men only see me as a trophy to parade around, and girls dont want to be my friends because I look better than them and theyre scared I'll take their boyfriend away that I dont want in the first place. I'm tired of woman competiting with me.
Tired of people disrupting my inner peace.
I just really am bitter at this point and find myself daydreaming about becoming an advanced satanist and killing a bunch of people with black magic.
I sincerely apologize for these dark thoughts but I hate this world, hate how shallow and vapid people are, I hate how the average IQ is very low, I hate this crab in a barrel dog eat dog squid games mentality everyone has, the lack of basic empathy and compassion, and how in order to feel power and valuable people have to bully and dominate others. People who are in groups are even worse. groups are dangerous
Just a whole list of it.
i have learned finally that being kind, genuine, authentic, caring about real world issues like the exploitation of children by corporations, and wanting to make the world a better place only brings extreme suffering. Even if I got lip injection and did what my peers do theyd still be fake friends who are there for clout but not when I'm down and talk badly behind my back.
I just really want them all to go. I hate my christian parents , I hate my peers, I hate this society, and I hate being sensitive and being an empath and caring so much. I just want to be a sociopath now and only focus on making money and destroy everyone who has ever hurt me and the people making earth degenerate.
I dont understand either because Im extremely beautiful and contrary to popular believe I am a sweetheart and have a big heart, even old bulllies have admitted it. One girl said she bullied me because im very beautiful and shes jealous that I get a lot of attention for men and that im intelligent.
Men only see me as a trophy to parade around, and girls dont want to be my friends because I look better than them and theyre scared I'll take their boyfriend away that I dont want in the first place. I'm tired of woman competiting with me.
Tired of people disrupting my inner peace.
I just really am bitter at this point and find myself daydreaming about becoming an advanced satanist and killing a bunch of people with black magic.
I sincerely apologize for these dark thoughts but I hate this world, hate how shallow and vapid people are, I hate how the average IQ is very low, I hate this crab in a barrel dog eat dog squid games mentality everyone has, the lack of basic empathy and compassion, and how in order to feel power and valuable people have to bully and dominate others. People who are in groups are even worse. groups are dangerous
Just a whole list of it.
i have learned finally that being kind, genuine, authentic, caring about real world issues like the exploitation of children by corporations, and wanting to make the world a better place only brings extreme suffering. Even if I got lip injection and did what my peers do theyd still be fake friends who are there for clout but not when I'm down and talk badly behind my back.
I just really want them all to go. I hate my christian parents , I hate my peers, I hate this society, and I hate being sensitive and being an empath and caring so much. I just want to be a sociopath now and only focus on making money and destroy everyone who has ever hurt me and the people making earth degenerate.