syrex666
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- Apr 20, 2023
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*I wanted to post this on my profile status but the website changed so much that I forgot how to do it.*
I was inactive in the forums for the past 5 months now.
Generally, I was always very inactive since I joined the forums. Taking a peek in the threads here and there but never really posting anything.
Looking at those past 5 months I've much evolved as a person now but I de-evolved in the SS path. Back to level 0. New game - press start.
Trying to stay in the SS path and doing other stuff in life such as studying is really overwhelming, at least from my end.
But that's how life works, right?
I really wonder how some of you guys keep up with this. All of those RTR's that you guys do regularly, learning new things about the SS path and doing other stuff like chores, studying, working etc. and not feeling burned out is really impressing. The amount of sheer fucking will that you guys have is amazing and I would like to know how you guys cram all this up in to your daily lives. It's inspiring, I want a piece of it too haha.
I neglected my SS path and I feel disgusting, but I'm not backing down. I just need some time.
What time? I need time to figure out how can I incorporate efficiently my SS journey into my daily life.
I neglected my work on translating High Priestess Maxine's articles into Polish.
I neglected my assignments just to come back to this forum and write this post, LOL.
Who cares, someone will be faster than me and will translate it eventually.
I always wanted to do "this and that" in this community but in the end I didn't do shit.
Come to think of it, I should really stop writing this post, stop bitching around and finally start contributing to this community ASAP, even if it's in small amounts.
A lot of people in this world say a lot of words but do nothing. Like me.
But atleast now I know what I did wrong.
I'm not begging for help,
I do not seek any validation or some other weak-ass bullshit like that.
I'm writing this post solely for self-reflection and general curiosity how you guys doing it.
Yeah sure, help from you guys is very much welcome, but I'm just as fine figuring it out myself.
Everyone's journey is different and everyone need to figure it all out themselves, which method is best etc.
Some people even like to invent their own methods for figuring out different things in life.
Life is not a race, everyone's different, everyone will have (or had) their setbacks and that's OK.
I was inactive in the forums for the past 5 months now.
Generally, I was always very inactive since I joined the forums. Taking a peek in the threads here and there but never really posting anything.
Looking at those past 5 months I've much evolved as a person now but I de-evolved in the SS path. Back to level 0. New game - press start.
Trying to stay in the SS path and doing other stuff in life such as studying is really overwhelming, at least from my end.
But that's how life works, right?
I really wonder how some of you guys keep up with this. All of those RTR's that you guys do regularly, learning new things about the SS path and doing other stuff like chores, studying, working etc. and not feeling burned out is really impressing. The amount of sheer fucking will that you guys have is amazing and I would like to know how you guys cram all this up in to your daily lives. It's inspiring, I want a piece of it too haha.
I neglected my SS path and I feel disgusting, but I'm not backing down. I just need some time.
What time? I need time to figure out how can I incorporate efficiently my SS journey into my daily life.
I neglected my work on translating High Priestess Maxine's articles into Polish.
I neglected my assignments just to come back to this forum and write this post, LOL.
Who cares, someone will be faster than me and will translate it eventually.
I always wanted to do "this and that" in this community but in the end I didn't do shit.
Come to think of it, I should really stop writing this post, stop bitching around and finally start contributing to this community ASAP, even if it's in small amounts.
A lot of people in this world say a lot of words but do nothing. Like me.
But atleast now I know what I did wrong.
I'm not begging for help,
I do not seek any validation or some other weak-ass bullshit like that.
I'm writing this post solely for self-reflection and general curiosity how you guys doing it.
Yeah sure, help from you guys is very much welcome, but I'm just as fine figuring it out myself.
Everyone's journey is different and everyone need to figure it all out themselves, which method is best etc.
Some people even like to invent their own methods for figuring out different things in life.
Life is not a race, everyone's different, everyone will have (or had) their setbacks and that's OK.