Kavya Shukra
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I'm wondering if there is a solution for autism. When I was born, I was born breech, and according to the doctors, they told my mom that I was nearly drowning in placental water and caused damage to my brain, tho just a portion of it. They expected me to be retarded or 5 years behind. I couldn't talk until 5, and while I was extremely intelligent, I have horrible social issues (alongside Saturn in the house of Aquarius/Pisces cusp, and in the 5th house, so this isn't helping AT ALL. However, I just recently did the Saturn 45 square for 9 days to strengthen Saturn in my chart.) I've had a history of constantly going to a mental hospital, and been there 3 times. And Christianity made it even worse until I left. And even worse, is the anxiety and worry about if I'm a Jew or not. I did the RTRs and I felt really good afterwards, and did various other RTRs in the website, alongside the JoS prosperity and protection rituals. But, lately I just have been feeling insecure and alone, mainly just personal regrets, and low self-esteem. And mainly because I always end up alone. Loneliness isn't healthy, especially when prolonged, but I can't escape this curse of always being alone. Isolation and never being able to keep company for too long, as something always happens and fall outs or separation or people leave me. It low-key does drive me insane.