Hello Brothers and Sisters,
I need some help.
Yesterday, I relapsed into pot, I hate myself for it, I cannot believe that I would do that, when I KNEW the consequences!
I don't know what this is, if it's an attack, or the pot messing with my aura, or what, but I have just lost all will to fight.
I sound like a fucking coward, a loser.
But I cannot seem to get out of this pit. I feel physically weak, i feel like a weakling for saying this, but it was a struggle to do a reverse torah ritual. Any goals that I have seem so pointless now, so futile. It's like I want to do something, to do anything, but my body just says it can't. I can't even feel emotion, except for the hatred for myself, and how much of an idiot I was. Even writing this, I can feel that little shit in my head telling me to give up, to not send this message because this will make my Brothers and Sisters in Satan reject me. Alienate me.
Now I'm just complaining, excuse me for that.
To the point, does anyone know of any speeches, meditations, poetry, anything that can help me climb out of this pit?
HAIL SATAN!
I need some help.
Yesterday, I relapsed into pot, I hate myself for it, I cannot believe that I would do that, when I KNEW the consequences!
I don't know what this is, if it's an attack, or the pot messing with my aura, or what, but I have just lost all will to fight.
I sound like a fucking coward, a loser.
But I cannot seem to get out of this pit. I feel physically weak, i feel like a weakling for saying this, but it was a struggle to do a reverse torah ritual. Any goals that I have seem so pointless now, so futile. It's like I want to do something, to do anything, but my body just says it can't. I can't even feel emotion, except for the hatred for myself, and how much of an idiot I was. Even writing this, I can feel that little shit in my head telling me to give up, to not send this message because this will make my Brothers and Sisters in Satan reject me. Alienate me.
Now I'm just complaining, excuse me for that.
To the point, does anyone know of any speeches, meditations, poetry, anything that can help me climb out of this pit?
HAIL SATAN!