lonley little girl said:
I have one story that I want to share with you and I want to hear your opinion. All my life I felt some strange attraction and love for Satan, but like most of you, I lived with my Christian parents and I had to pretend. I felt that loves a child, but I thought something was wrong with me and I didn't want to think about it. A little over half year ago, I felt that love again, but this time I didn't resist. Not a day has passed in 6, 7 months that I have not thought of Satan. I thought about him almost all day. I admired him and I loved him. That's when I found Jos. 2 months ago I started thinking about doing a dedication ritual. Then the psychic attacks start. Since then, my head starts to ache and I am tormented by no reason. Not a day passed away in 2 months that I didn't have a headache, just as not a day passed away that I didn't think about Satan. That's not all. Nightmares, fears, insecurities also began to torment me. I was in mental disorder. I didn't know what was happening to me and why. I also thought that Satan didn't want me and wanted to drive me away in that way. I was desperate. Now I am almost sure that these were just horrible psychic attacks. I guess the enemy wants to scare me away from Satan. They are incredible persistent. I've been struggling with them for months. It's really hard. Today I bought a black candle for the dedication ritual and my head started to hurt more. One day a few weeks ago I wanted to do a dedication ritual with some candle I had and in some weird way I baked my tongue with some medicine and i couldn't. And now I have a headache as I write this. Your opinion would mean a lot to me. I would love to do a dedication ritual tonight. I apologize for the length of this post and for my English.
Hey, I hope you had a great Beltane's Eve and perhaps even dedicated! =)
Your English very good. Also I am German, so I don't expect anyone to speak English perfectly.
To me it sounds like your Soul really wanted to be with Satan again, eventho you lost your memory - your Soul still "remembers". Your Soul is longing for Satan. Also I do believe that Satan called you, and you percieved it, as your soul is open for him. You were probably with Satan in past lives. Feel honoured!
It makes me actually very happy how you feel about Satan, you are wonderful!
This sounds horrible, the enemy also made me go insane for a short period of time, so I know how awful this feels.
Yes you are right, this was the enemy and the enemy alone.
When I told my Sister about the JoS, about Satan, our Gods and Goddesses and about spirituality as a whole, she developed a SERIOUS interest in Satan and Spiritual Satanism.
When she decided to dedicate her soul.. that's when severe psychic attacks started.
She was sleeping, woke up, *felt* for the first time in her life a presence, and felt it approaching her, pushing down her chest, she was in terror.
She also had a Dream, where Azreal (an Arch-Angel), told her that he is her GD (which was a blantant lie, Angels are Monsters, they are those ugly grey aliens, many of us have seen them... unfortunatly), when she looked in his eyes she saw pure evil, and also his eyes did not look human at all.
Well, he tried to force and urge her to enter a circle (circles bind), she refused. She woke up, feel asleep again.. This Fucker waited for her, she had the same dream several times that night... It was awful for her.
Then when she finally dedicated, he visited her again, and told her that she has to undo the dedication asap, it was a horrible mistake, "YOU WILL REGRET THIS!". She told him that his attemps are useless.
They still tried to get her away from Satan, but she would just call Satan and her GD and they would get rid of the enemy for her, so she has peace.
The point is, this is all the enemy. The enemy tries to keep people away from Satan. Don't listen to them.
Even if you are of Satan, chances are they attempt to seperate you from Satan. But you are not alone, all you have to do is to call for Satan and he will extend you his loving and helping hand. You will receive Satan's light!
You just have to do the Dedication ritual. Even with an headache, or with a hurt tounge, or whatever. You just have to do it. The enemy is persistent, they will not give up. So just jump through the fire!
The psychic attacks will only STOP once Satan proctects you. SO you have to dedicate your Soul to Father Satan. Don't worry, he will accept you and take you in his loving and caring Family. When those Greys still try to attack you, you can just call Father Satan and your GD (Even if you don't know him/her yet, He/She will notice and help you).
There is no point to be afraid of the inevitable, you are of Satan, and you WILL find your way back to Satan.
Your Soul is LONGING for Satan.
And now words direct from the bottom of my heart.
Good luck on your path!
Hail Satan!