Ghost in the Machine
Well-known member
Ol argedco luciftias said:----
I won't bother with how much you are exaggerating all that when that paranoid event was but a month's-lasting issue last year, and I had made a long post in apology for what happened to me shortly after and that I shouldn't have let such attacks get to me so deeply. Your strange and extremely incorrect dragon claim doesn't add up at all either when I only had anything to do with the dragon in a strong admiration of it's symbology and nothing more, it helped me to get through a hard time like some motivational poster. I'm sure you've been here long enough to know how damaging misinformation is, especially when you take it too far out of touch, none of these things were ever going on "for years", not even remotely close to a month or two for either of them.
As for Shannon and reading her, yes it was inappropriate and I was testing a new form of divination which proved to be bogus and I confessed this to her through e-mail, I had let my protective emotions of the people here get to me in aggression and extend beyond what was moderate and even necessary which I also confessed and apologized to her for through e-mails. I experiment a lot and learn through trial and shameful error, otherwise I wouldn't understand the same mistakes other people are making and how to help them. I don't even want to discuss those past times or phases or any of that garbage from the past any further in this discussion for reasons of my own. I'm building myself up again, not tearing myself down to revert back to those miseries.
Not a soul here is without their flaws or enemy attacks. Not a soul. This is a path of endless learning and far too many painful times do some of us have to do so the very hard way. I can admit when I'm wrong and I can apologize for it and try to do my damnedest to make sure it doesn't happen again, but there's always something new. We can know how to help others out of the same fires before they ever completely fall into the same exact pits we've had to exhaustively claw our ways out of each and every time.
So I hope you understand when I say not only is it painfully heart-breaking to have to notice, see and then face those pits every time and then repeatedly having to exhaustively expend real energy and effort to fight your way out of them and then have to feel the sting of shame and embarrassment that you had yet again fallen into another mistake of which should've never happened, but it is also such the case when others remind you each and every time of the very traumas of those pits and mistakes again and again as some argument against you.
Which is why if you ever make a debilitating and embarrassing mistake in your life no matter how many times you make new ones Ol Argedco I would never blame you for it or bring it up ever again in any dispute against you to justify any argument of mine, and I never have for anyone, I understand very personally. I only wish others would do the same for each other, but there's fantasized hopes and then there's the reality can't control.
I'm not discussing this particular subject any further.
In any event off topic, I understand all the trash that's been happening in people's lives what with the pandemic recently and the enemy working to utilize this month like they do every year for attacks against humanity, so I just hope that you and everyone else here are safe and well and to remember to stay strong through any bull that comes your way, all this garbage is temporary.