Gear88 said:
Blackdragon666 said:
These thought patterns are what will keep you in the loop you're in Gear. And especially your refusal to do any serious work on your soul because you half believe it is real. Fortunately or unfortunately, it is all very real. These self limiting, sometimes even negative 'innocent' statements people make everyday are a big part of their reality in the future.
Can you even count how many people have joined the JoS and passed you in spiritual advancement in just this decade alone? Yet you still talk of whether the occult is real or not. The truth is that in your case, you're directly responsible for your non advancement, for your life sucking, for plenty of the problems you've highlighted on the forums. Free of charge, we have the necessary information to fix very many life problems and from countless testimonies it obviously works. I mean you can finish a square but can't spend a month vibrating the seed mantras into each chakra some 7 times, to give an example.
You have a destructive passive attitude towards your problems. Why would your life improve if you don't make effort to improve it? This will be your story for a long time until you take the necessary effort to deal with it.
What can I say that's been my life since being a little kid. It doesn't interest me to improve my life. Why improve if all it does is create more issues.
I guess I'm not spiritual what can I say. It's not my life's perogative to spend an unordinate amount of time fixing it.
I'll stay the course don't worry. Even if I'm old and don't advance what can I say it's like I've said to myself several times in the past growing up in the past decade and not having a girlfriend or a partner. "Oh well better luck next life" or "Oh well there are better guys out there".
My life is a worthless piece of shit. I've pretty much known that since a little kid. It's like my friend by middle school with all the niggernization and yo yo dawg bullshit and degenerate shit he pretty much shut down and I guess like myself received his mortal blows and decided not to advance any further in life.
I can't explain it any better or worse depending on which is the better way to explain. If I'm stuck in a circle or stuck like a broken record what can I say that's who I am. I guess I have no place in spirituality. It's no wonder why I'm dominated by my physical world and mentally intense.
I'm surprised I didn't become a xtian in my early youth.
But does it have to be this way Gear? Do you want it to be this way?
The truth is you don't. Which is why you do Venus squares for example to attract a partner. You can tell us all about how your life sucks and you don't care whether it changes but that example above gives away that you do desire to experience intimacy with another person. If you didn't care, you'd actually be actively doing self destructive things like drugs and who knows what else.
It doesn't have to be this way Gear. You can have the most beautiful Aryan women, maybe even raise kids and have a nice family, get wealthy, experience all the good things in life. No one is acting against you but yourself.
Even the bad stuff on your chart, Saturn didn't just decide to say pop up in your eighth house for example (I don't know your birth chart details, it's just hypothetical) and give you hard luck in sexual matters to the point of virginity at your age. What is in the chart is what you have accumulated in past lifetimes. Things you dwelt on, trauma you never healed from, self destructive habits and pessimistic thoughts, these are your present karma.
In fact if you were to reincarnate, in your case because of how much you dwell on the negative, there's no 'better luck' for you but amplified suffering.
I do care about you man and it does bother me at times in the few occasions you've popped up in my mind. It doesn't have to be this way. What you are not changing, you are choosing. In just two years your life could be way better than it is now if you choose to change it.
Whether or not you take spirituality seriously, you still have a soul and the laws of spirituality don't ever cease to apply. It's like when you read a normie's charts and their jaw is dropping every few seconds. All their life they never cared about this thing called astrology or that they have a soul. Did that prevent astrology from being accurate in their case? Of course no. The universe never stagnates with you when you do.
Being in a comfort zone where you don't have to bother with actively shaping your destiny and dealing with your problems can feel comforting but it is in fact the perfect brewing pot for even more difficult times in the future. It's hundreds of times better when you get out of your cocoon and experience things. To put it in simple terms, for example, its way better to experience sex with a partner and get to bond emotionally with them than say to masturbate all of one's life.
Lastly, don't be too hard on yourself Gear. You may have let your problems prolong and therefore caused your misery in some way but you're not the real cause of your life problems. People fall into these loops of suffering because occult knowledge was stripped from us a very long time ago but that is now changing. Try to look at your problems without concluding that they are meant for you, or they should stay, or it doesn't really matter whether or not they are there. Because you are human and you are not built to suffer needlessly.
You can look at them from the perspective of things on your soul which you can choose to keep and sulk over or do away with. It's like a disease that won't go away until you take the right medicine. Of course it sucks being sick and it may feel like you'll never be whole again. Maybe you're even feeling weak and doubt you have the strength to get out and acquire the medicine. But do you really have to be sick? Do you want to? Unless one is insane, they will of course want to heal. You only need to gather your strength, go out and get the medicine and in due time you will be whole again. The medicine is simply working on your soul.
Meditation is also something you grow to adore in time. Many people don't really have a natural inclination towards it because of the discipline required but the fact that you put effort everyday will make your subconscious ease into it and eventually accept it as normal and even essential. Many SS can't even go for long without meditating. I know you find it almost impossible to sit down and say vibrate words of power but that's ok, many have this problem early along the path. It also becomes fun when you get concrete results.
The Gods will also start investing more on you because you will need extra protection and guidance.
You don't have to follow the path you're following Gear.