Trying to do the basic aura cleaning, I get hung up sometimes trying to figure how to visualize myself first off. They say visualize a bright light all over. It's a weird issue but sometimes I have no problem and I Invision it covering myself like a giant ball of light.. But other times I can't see myself, it's hard to explain but it's like I can't visualize myself but I get a weird feeling that.. I'm far away, like when we dream and observe ourselves doing things..and then I keep trying to visualize the light but I start feeling numb and tingling and start having a panic attack and have to immediately break out of it. I'm almost certain it's from past emotional trauma I've been through. I tried void meditation but I still felt bad . I'm not thinking of anything when it happens.. I'm not seeing bad stuff or hearing bad things. It's just anxiety and I don't know why... People say you see your Aura as grey and dirty when you're depressed, etc, I can't see mine at all yet.. Thing is I remember being able to when I was younger.. I knew my color although it was faint and harder to see because I was new to visualizing it..and I didn't have this problem like I do now.