could it be that the mental illness i had it the past developed because of karma from my past life? its just a thoght that i had recently
because its pretty strange that life circumstances took me there by force even before i had any symptoms like it had to manifest somehow like everytime i tried to fucking leave this shit its always hunted me. and its been pretty much the only major obstacle in my life everything else pretty much been normal to me but this mental problem was ruining my life for a couple of years.
i really dont want to get into details here on the forum i can explain everything in privat on how it brutally tried to manifest itself, and it seems like its been some karmic charge.
i took my almost a fucking year of work on my soul to wipe out this thing so i can meditate freely. and i didnt even took any external help.
special thanks to satan for protection because i couldve been in deep trouble from my mistakes but it slightly affected me. just imagine a full blown schizo who live nornally and do all kinds of stupid shit because of poor judgment and get out of it easily. our gods are great and its been an honor and i got some good life learning experiences.
satan really take care of his own.
because its pretty strange that life circumstances took me there by force even before i had any symptoms like it had to manifest somehow like everytime i tried to fucking leave this shit its always hunted me. and its been pretty much the only major obstacle in my life everything else pretty much been normal to me but this mental problem was ruining my life for a couple of years.
i really dont want to get into details here on the forum i can explain everything in privat on how it brutally tried to manifest itself, and it seems like its been some karmic charge.
i took my almost a fucking year of work on my soul to wipe out this thing so i can meditate freely. and i didnt even took any external help.
special thanks to satan for protection because i couldve been in deep trouble from my mistakes but it slightly affected me. just imagine a full blown schizo who live nornally and do all kinds of stupid shit because of poor judgment and get out of it easily. our gods are great and its been an honor and i got some good life learning experiences.
satan really take care of his own.