I rarely post anything here as i tend to keep everything tò myself, but i think i'm reaching the lowest of lows (i don't get too much into details). I enjoy doing RTR's and It feels good to know what we know about the Gods, it's Just and existential carelessness about the majority of the human existence experiences. I had relationships, done Crazy shit and everything one would expect from a VERY troubled teenager/young man. In all honestly, i'm used to get pretty much everything i want (past lives with brutal deaths empowered me on a level i didn't even know existed, so i was kind of Born like this.. i'm not flexing 
i'm just saying i'm a lucky bastard) but that's the point, sometimes the overall situation of the planet make me just want to close myself in a room and let the world burn, even though i don't have huge (real) problems. I don't want to rant in vain, i'd Just like to know how the rest of you cope with certain things, like loneliness (obviously i can't spend more than 30 minutes with the average person without thinking about suicide anymore), the Anger of being constantly misunderstood or even attacked (i tend to speak about things that should be kept secret more than i'd like to admit), and overall the dreading feeling of sharing the planet with 9 billions brainwashed semi-automatic zombies. I KNOW Satan won, but i'm a bit worried about the way the war Will end. I even dreamdt about It (It felt more like a premonition), It was around 2035 and people were on the streets tò gather food, there was no electricity and shit like that. I don't want to spread negativity but i want to be realistic.. i mean is it even worth to make plans for the future if everything just gonna turn to shit before it gets Better? I've Always been pretty ambitious and honestly, It pisses me off to know that i've worked for a Life time to end up in a Mad Max scenario i know i'm selfish, but It Is what It Is, at least i'm doing my part tò end this fucking charade of an Era we are living. I Guess my question Is how do you cope with this on a "bad day" and seriously do you guys even think about the near future or you think we should Just accept we we're Born in very sad times.. how do you see the world in 10 years? God this sound like a job interview anyway let me ready some thoughts about It if you want to share.. cheers
i'm just saying i'm a lucky bastard) but that's the point, sometimes the overall situation of the planet make me just want to close myself in a room and let the world burn, even though i don't have huge (real) problems. I don't want to rant in vain, i'd Just like to know how the rest of you cope with certain things, like loneliness (obviously i can't spend more than 30 minutes with the average person without thinking about suicide anymore), the Anger of being constantly misunderstood or even attacked (i tend to speak about things that should be kept secret more than i'd like to admit), and overall the dreading feeling of sharing the planet with 9 billions brainwashed semi-automatic zombies. I KNOW Satan won, but i'm a bit worried about the way the war Will end. I even dreamdt about It (It felt more like a premonition), It was around 2035 and people were on the streets tò gather food, there was no electricity and shit like that. I don't want to spread negativity but i want to be realistic.. i mean is it even worth to make plans for the future if everything just gonna turn to shit before it gets Better? I've Always been pretty ambitious and honestly, It pisses me off to know that i've worked for a Life time to end up in a Mad Max scenario i know i'm selfish, but It Is what It Is, at least i'm doing my part tò end this fucking charade of an Era we are living. I Guess my question Is how do you cope with this on a "bad day" and seriously do you guys even think about the near future or you think we should Just accept we we're Born in very sad times.. how do you see the world in 10 years? God this sound like a job interview anyway let me ready some thoughts about It if you want to share.. cheers
