a quastion about unwanted thoughts

[nissangtr32]

Questions about unpleasant thoughts

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Hi, I am a young man living in Korea.

I have been suffering from trauma since a few months ago
I got it, and it caused me to have an unwanted obsessive compulsion.
It restricted my freedom, and it limited me
Made me have a Joy of satan initiation ritual.
I think it was a good choice,
I think our gods are very kind and good.

Hail our gods.


A few days ago, I performed a standard ritual and in my dream
"When you're having a hard time, come to me."
I received a message like that.
I am very grateful for this message,

But In my daily life, compulsion of thoughts is very painful
It's one of those.

The themes of the ideas,thinks are as follows.

If i do something
The idea that our gods are insulted (even includes abusive language)
the thought of unwanted curses, etc

These ideas are the mainstream.

And After that, "Who cares?" It's not my job
There are also thoughts like that follow.

These ideas usually come to me in the form of ocd.
(the mental illness at the top)
I fear that I will not be free from these thoughts.

I fear that these thoughts will insult our gods.
I respect them and cherish them.
But these thoughts limit my freedom.(Of course I'm ignoring it, but I'm worried.)


And I'm afraid these thoughts will send you unwanted energy.

I lost golden child 1 stop pushing yourself,

I don't know what this is trying to teach me.


I even feel guilty about writing this. (I feel like I'm taking out the old one)

Also, I started to write music 5 or 6 years ago
Started and I will produce music for our god.

I really want it

I'd like you to give me some advice.

Thank you
I wish you having Blassing our god.

 

[Draconi666]

I think you should relax about all this little bit. It is completely natural that you have fear and doubts in the beginning, this is old programming which will be deprogrammed with your efforts to do so. keep in mind you are moving step by step there, where you will start to fix everything.

Gods understand you more than yourself actually, so you can definitely be more calm about what you think, work little by little on yourself keep meditating, yoga. Study truth a lot, as this will deprogram you in a big part. Make yourself stable as fuck with all the practices and knowledge given in JoS, everything rest will happen for you as your part will be done, also don’t forget to aim at spiritual warfare.

Keep going, and know you are going out of everything what hinders you, and taking your life in control.

Read HP Maxine’s sermons, it will give you knowledge needed to navigate real world. There is countless of those in JoS and on the forums. Also HP HoodedCobra666 sermons. Educate yourself, advance and keep going, and put all interest in doing this, you will change your mind in time like that.

Good luck.

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