a new chapter in my life

[ukitsu43]

i am 18 and about to leave for the air force in march. there are a lot
of things i am questioning. okay first of i used to be in this group a
couple of years back. i was satanist out of anger and believed xtian
lies but im back more mature and hoping to really learn.i want to
experience true spirituality and i remember being most enlightened and
happy here with satan.
i turned a friends attention to the exposing xtianity link. however
though she has strengthened her resolve to not be xtian and accepts me
for me she does not join. she says she may stop talking to me if i do
magic. she says im gonna get possessed.
also i want to be more spiritually adept but i dont want to be attacked
away from home. if im open and speak my mind about how xtian sacraments
make my gut churn i may get attacked.
also im in a relationship. my boyfriend is not spiritual. i hide my
faith from him though i speak my mind on xtian sacraments. he is in the
air with his spirituality and i dont sense that he will leave me. but i
dont want him to think i am crazy. were also thinking of getting
married before i leave. what will happen? should i just keep my
spiritual side to myself from now on?

 

[Seth1]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "ukitsu43" <ukitsu43@... wrote:

i am 18 and about to leave for the air force in march. there are a lot
of things i am questioning. okay first of i used to be in this group a
couple of years back. i was satanist out of anger and believed xtian
lies but im back more mature and hoping to really learn.i want to
experience true spirituality and i remember being most enlightened and
happy here with satan.
i turned a friends attention to the exposing xtianity link. however
though she has strengthened her resolve to not be xtian and accepts me
for me she does not join. she says she may stop talking to me if i do
magic. she says im gonna get possessed.

*****This person sounds more of a hindrance to ur development than a
friend. Judging by her comments, i think she knows the truth about the
jews now- but still has her faith in xtianity.

also i want to be more spiritually adept but i dont want to be attacked
away from home. if im open and speak my mind about how xtian sacraments
make my gut churn i may get attacked.

****Think carefully and strategically. No need to put ur life in this
kind of position.

also im in a relationship. my boyfriend is not spiritual. i hide my
faith from him though i speak my mind on xtian sacraments. he is in the
air with his spirituality and i dont sense that he will leave me. but i
dont want him to think i am crazy. were also thinking of getting
married before i leave. what will happen? should i just keep my
spiritual side to myself from now on?

****** You want to get married to someone who will condemn u for ur
beliefs (that u have to hide from him), and will call u crazy for it?

 

[her majesty]

its not easy telling ur friends about ur religion and hoping they
will accept you for who you are. that is when the truth comes out
from who is the real friend and who isnt. for your boyfriend, i dont
think its a good idea to keep it away from him, esp when you and him
are going to get married. try to tell him nicely and gradually. start
talking to him about satanism and wat its really about. you
understand? try to build a building block first, dont just burst it
out. and if he wont accept you for who you are, dont break up with
him, just tell him that its ok if he doesnt believe in the same faith
as you, as long as he lets you have your own privacy with it,
meditations etc., and that you and him can still be together,
regardless of wat religion u guys are. so either way, it works out.
just dont force the religion into him and tell him to do the same
thing, dont force w/e he believes in down ur throat. i hope that this
helps and good luck in the air force!! *i wanted to join the navy lol
cause i love the uniforms, besides im more stable near land, im
afraid i might lose control and crash lol*

her majesty

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "ukitsu43" <ukitsu43@... wrote:

i am 18 and about to leave for the air force in march. there are a
lot
of things i am questioning. okay first of i used to be in this
group a
couple of years back. i was satanist out of anger and believed
xtian
lies but im back more mature and hoping to really learn.i want to
experience true spirituality and i remember being most enlightened
and
happy here with satan.
i turned a friends attention to the exposing xtianity link. however
though she has strengthened her resolve to not be xtian and accepts
me
for me she does not join. she says she may stop talking to me if i
do
magic. she says im gonna get possessed.
also i want to be more spiritually adept but i dont want to be
attacked
away from home. if im open and speak my mind about how xtian
sacraments
make my gut churn i may get attacked.
also im in a relationship. my boyfriend is not spiritual. i hide my
faith from him though i speak my mind on xtian sacraments. he is in
the
air with his spirituality and i dont sense that he will leave me.
but i
dont want him to think i am crazy. were also thinking of getting
married before i leave. what will happen? should i just keep my
spiritual side to myself from now on?

 

[desrier]

No, Your Spirituality is a part of your being so to say.
Plus denying your faith as a satanist is revulsing to me.

Id keep being spiritualy open.
:]

 

[ukitsu43]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Seth" <jri9vero@... wrote:

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "ukitsu43" <ukitsu43@ wrote:

i am 18 and about to leave for the air force in march. there are

a lot

of things i am questioning. okay first of i used to be in this

group a

couple of years back. i was satanist out of anger and believed

xtian

lies but im back more mature and hoping to really learn.i want to
experience true spirituality and i remember being most

enlightened and

happy here with satan.
i turned a friends attention to the exposing xtianity link.

however

though she has strengthened her resolve to not be xtian and

accepts me

for me she does not join. she says she may stop talking to me if

i do

magic. she says im gonna get possessed.

*****This person sounds more of a hindrance to ur development than a
friend. Judging by her comments, i think she knows the truth about

the

jews now- but still has her faith in xtianity.


also i want to be more spiritually adept but i dont want to be

attacked

away from home. if im open and speak my mind about how xtian

sacraments

make my gut churn i may get attacked.

****Think carefully and strategically. No need to put ur life in

this

kind of position.

also im in a relationship. my boyfriend is not spiritual. i hide

my

faith from him though i speak my mind on xtian sacraments. he is

in the

air with his spirituality and i dont sense that he will leave me.

but i

dont want him to think i am crazy. were also thinking of getting
married before i leave. what will happen? should i just keep my
spiritual side to myself from now on?

****** You want to get married to someone who will condemn u for ur
beliefs (that u have to hide from him), and will call u crazy for

it?
well i did talk to her. shes just concerned. and shes been with me
through a lot of grief and pain and shes a tre friend. also i did
talk to my boyfriend last night. it wasnt that hed stop loving me
cause hes not like that. but he is an advocate for everything because
he doesnt have a firm belief in anything. and he might have thought
my choice of religion was crazy. i lost people by revealing that
before. and i didnt want to lose him.

but he was very understanding and said he didnt appreciate me holding
that secret but he could understand why i did. were still gonna get
married. he says he believes in magic and hes willing to help me
advance in my spiritual jouney so ling as it doesnt drive a wedge
between us. that was his only condition.

to not let my journey cause me to say goodbye to him or to do
something unforgivable like murder or cheating on him. i love that
man and i thank satan for him.

 

[her majesty]

see, everything worked out well! satan is protecting u, just keep on
believing!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "ukitsu43" <ukitsu43@... wrote:

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Seth" <jri9vero@ wrote:

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "ukitsu43" <ukitsu43@ wrote:

i am 18 and about to leave for the air force in march. there
are
a lot
of things i am questioning. okay first of i used to be in this
group a
couple of years back. i was satanist out of anger and believed
xtian
lies but im back more mature and hoping to really learn.i want
to
experience true spirituality and i remember being most
enlightened and
happy here with satan.
i turned a friends attention to the exposing xtianity link.
however
though she has strengthened her resolve to not be xtian and
accepts me
for me she does not join. she says she may stop talking to me
if
i do
magic. she says im gonna get possessed.

*****This person sounds more of a hindrance to ur development
than a
friend. Judging by her comments, i think she knows the truth
about
the
jews now- but still has her faith in xtianity.


also i want to be more spiritually adept but i dont want to be
attacked
away from home. if im open and speak my mind about how xtian
sacraments
make my gut churn i may get attacked.

****Think carefully and strategically. No need to put ur life in
this
kind of position.

also im in a relationship. my boyfriend is not spiritual. i
hide
my
faith from him though i speak my mind on xtian sacraments. he
is
in the
air with his spirituality and i dont sense that he will leave
me.
but i
dont want him to think i am crazy. were also thinking of
getting
married before i leave. what will happen? should i just keep my
spiritual side to myself from now on?

****** You want to get married to someone who will condemn u for
ur
beliefs (that u have to hide from him), and will call u crazy for
it?






well i did talk to her. shes just concerned. and shes been with me
through a lot of grief and pain and shes a tre friend. also i did
talk to my boyfriend last night. it wasnt that hed stop loving me
cause hes not like that. but he is an advocate for everything
because
he doesnt have a firm belief in anything. and he might have thought
my choice of religion was crazy. i lost people by revealing that
before. and i didnt want to lose him.

but he was very understanding and said he didnt appreciate me
holding
that secret but he could understand why i did. were still gonna get
married. he says he believes in magic and hes willing to help me
advance in my spiritual jouney so ling as it doesnt drive a wedge
between us. that was his only condition.

to not let my journey cause me to say goodbye to him or to do
something unforgivable like murder or cheating on him. i love that
man and i thank satan for him.