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[AskSatanOperator]

I feel out of place, as if I don't belong anywhere... sometimes I would like to disappear and never return... what could that be? I would like to be someone else, with another life.

 

[EnkiUK56]

I feel out of place, as if I don't belong anywhere... sometimes I would like to disappear and never return... what could that be? I would like to be someone else, with another life.

Depression that mate. You got friends to reach out to here, what about in the open?

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

I feel out of place, as if I don't belong anywhere... sometimes I would like to disappear and never return... what could that be? I would like to be someone else, with another life.

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[Engineered Trasformation]

I feel out of place, as if I don't belong anywhere... sometimes I would like to disappear and never return... what could that be? I would like to be someone else, with another life.

There may be multiple reasons behind your feelings, also overthinking is one.
A possibility is, some buried feelings are emerging from your subconscious (consistent meditation may trigger emotional healing this way).
Wanting to be someone else, or disappear, is a consequence of self-hate or low self-worth perception.
Is there anything in your past you constantly blame yourself for? Did you suffer any emotional or physical trauma in your early life, bringing to self-blame?
If you unconsciously want to disappear, you probably do not love yourself enough to sustain your existence in full.
What I would do is, digging if there is some unresolved trauma/issue in your mind, bringing to negative feelings like this. Self-talk during void meditation may help to find out this.

 

[Yang]

This seems like a simple mental issue, but unfortunately, due to the lack of control of the mind, we often mistake this mental state for something concrete, which it is not.
Do meditation in the void.

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