AskSatanOperator
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In the last few weeks my mom has been in and out of the hospital, and currently we are in the process of running all the tests that are needed for the doctors. I don't exactly know all the details about what's going on, but it was confirmed that she has multiple tumors in her lung and around that area, one of them is highly suspicious of being a malignant one according to the doctors. I was told that one has an odd, undefined shape. She also has one in her liver, but those seem to be belignant ones as I was told. We're still running tests, and she'II have multiple ones done in the next weeks, like a brain MRI and multiple biopsies (I really hope I used the correct terms here). We don't know anything yet, but the doctor told us to don't give up hope, as we still have an about 10% chance that it's treatable. My mum had a full-body MRI about 4-5 years ago after an accident and she was completely fine then, so the tumors were developed somewhere in the last 4-5 years of time. Cancer runs in the family on my mom's side, my grandpa has lived for only 6 months after he got the diagnosis, he had an extremely agressive and untreatable type of cancer.
I'm extremely worried about my mom, I don't want to lose her and I have no idea what to do. I feel on edge all the time, and I don't really have anyone to talk about all of this. My family and mom acts exactly like as if nothing happened, she goes to work and does everything in everyday life as she did before. In the moment she doesn't have any other symptoms than having shortness of breath occasionally and caughing oftentimes. She's already making small preparations for her death silently, and a few times I caught her subtly talking as if her death was inevitable. I still have hope that even if it's truly malignant cancer it's treatable and she'd be all fine after receiving the help from the doctors. We still need a couple of weeks until the tests are done and analized, and I feel just so helpless in the situation. Is there anything I could do to help her, or do something at all? I really don't want her to die, I don't want to lose her. I don't know who my Guardian Demon is exactly, but I asked her/him about my mum and asked if she's really going to die. I received no answer as of now, or if I did received I haven't noticed it. I know that Demons has reasons for everything they do and say, and I'd completely understand if my Guardian deemed not answering the appropiate thing to do, I'm sure there is a very important and valid reason behind it if that's the case. I did see 666 and 444 multiple times a day around the same time when my mom first told us about her cancer, but I can't really decide what do they mean in this specific context. This was before I asked my Guardian, and I stopped seeing both numbers after a few days. I want to be positive and hopeful but it's just so extremely hard to do.
I'm extremely worried about my mom, I don't want to lose her and I have no idea what to do. I feel on edge all the time, and I don't really have anyone to talk about all of this. My family and mom acts exactly like as if nothing happened, she goes to work and does everything in everyday life as she did before. In the moment she doesn't have any other symptoms than having shortness of breath occasionally and caughing oftentimes. She's already making small preparations for her death silently, and a few times I caught her subtly talking as if her death was inevitable. I still have hope that even if it's truly malignant cancer it's treatable and she'd be all fine after receiving the help from the doctors. We still need a couple of weeks until the tests are done and analized, and I feel just so helpless in the situation. Is there anything I could do to help her, or do something at all? I really don't want her to die, I don't want to lose her. I don't know who my Guardian Demon is exactly, but I asked her/him about my mum and asked if she's really going to die. I received no answer as of now, or if I did received I haven't noticed it. I know that Demons has reasons for everything they do and say, and I'd completely understand if my Guardian deemed not answering the appropiate thing to do, I'm sure there is a very important and valid reason behind it if that's the case. I did see 666 and 444 multiple times a day around the same time when my mom first told us about her cancer, but I can't really decide what do they mean in this specific context. This was before I asked my Guardian, and I stopped seeing both numbers after a few days. I want to be positive and hopeful but it's just so extremely hard to do.