AskSatanOperator
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I am currently living with an abusive/toxic (potentially jewish) mother who has not only been stunting my advancement but has been making my life a living nightmare with constant screaming and driving me to fear doing anything. I can’t talk to my friends, I have a camera that is able to see everything I do in my room and everything I do is monitored and scolded. I have no privacy and I get constantly bombarded with toxicity and fear. I have no father due to my adoption and my mother has ruined my life as it is. I am still a teen minor and am not able to move out without causing more issues than started with. I have an older sister who lives separately with her husband and 3 other roommates. I was thinking of asking my GD and Satya for guidance to help me be able to leave this house at an earlier age. I have reported my mother many times to the school and police, yet everytime they say the same thing “you should listen to your mother, and then she won't get mad at you”. This issue falls deeper than just me not “listening” to her. Due to her not having a spouse, I am the only thing she has to hang on to, she doesn't let me wear things I want, doesn't let me talk to my friends or communicate with anyone outside who she knows.
She has abused me to the point of me fainting. No matter how much she loves me , that's not the way you raise a child. I had been sexually assaulted when I was 9 and had only told my mother 5 years later, she expressed no care whatsoever and instead just said it's fine and I'll be fine. She often slaps my ass as a “joke” yet even after I ask her to stop she just laughs it off. She makes me uncomfortable in many ways, even when she tells me to undress , specifically lift my shirt and take down my pants so she can make sure I don't “self-harm” anymore. No matter how protective you are, making your child undress is too far. At one point, she had made me take off my pants completely and had taken pictures of the cuts on my hips. These pictures included my pubic area and my bare legs. I felt very uncomfortable and it made me break down. I to this day hate her for that. She made my life a living nightmare. She doesn't want me to grow up and leave her to die, that's why she's so strict and wants to know everything that I do.
I am currently doing binding and was wondering if there were any workings (besides asking my GD and Satya for guidance) that I could do so I could either be able to move in with my older sister or somehow get my own apartment sooner and be able to move out earlier than 18. I also have a SS boyfriend who is always trying and can help me irl.
Any help would be appreciated and all words of comfort are thanked. I am happy I have such a strong and helpful community to surround myself in during this situation. Thank you all and HAIL SATYA AND THE GODS!!!
She has abused me to the point of me fainting. No matter how much she loves me , that's not the way you raise a child. I had been sexually assaulted when I was 9 and had only told my mother 5 years later, she expressed no care whatsoever and instead just said it's fine and I'll be fine. She often slaps my ass as a “joke” yet even after I ask her to stop she just laughs it off. She makes me uncomfortable in many ways, even when she tells me to undress , specifically lift my shirt and take down my pants so she can make sure I don't “self-harm” anymore. No matter how protective you are, making your child undress is too far. At one point, she had made me take off my pants completely and had taken pictures of the cuts on my hips. These pictures included my pubic area and my bare legs. I felt very uncomfortable and it made me break down. I to this day hate her for that. She made my life a living nightmare. She doesn't want me to grow up and leave her to die, that's why she's so strict and wants to know everything that I do.
I am currently doing binding and was wondering if there were any workings (besides asking my GD and Satya for guidance) that I could do so I could either be able to move in with my older sister or somehow get my own apartment sooner and be able to move out earlier than 18. I also have a SS boyfriend who is always trying and can help me irl.
Any help would be appreciated and all words of comfort are thanked. I am happy I have such a strong and helpful community to surround myself in during this situation. Thank you all and HAIL SATYA AND THE GODS!!!
