AskSatanOperator
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I dedicated several years ago, but due to my lack of self-discipline and incorrect mindset I was unable to move forward in the path in any significant way. Right now, my goal is to change this, better myself and actually make some progress instead of only thinking about it. It's been a long time since I seriously meditated so I had began to do the 40 days meditation program for beginners all over again. It's all good so far and going smoothly but I have some thoughts that keep returning to me, more and more frequently. Which is anxiety and fear towards doing spiritual work. For example thinking that I'II mess something up and accidentally harm myself, or that something bad gonna happen to me if I do the meditations. I have these thoughts whenever I do something new, or something that I haven't done in a long time. Doing void meditation is fine for example, but the thoughts returned when I got close to doing the chakra opening meditations. Similarly, I have some kind of fear towards certain Demons, not every one of them may I add. In the past I've done Gods' Rituals before, and I can remember the exact same thoughts going on in my mind while doing them. They disappeared halfway, but at the start was always rough. One example I could bring up could be Lord Andras, I can remember being really anxious before doing his ritual.
I don't exactly know where this feelings come from, as I don't have any prior negative experience with any Demons or spiritual work. My experience with Demons is quite limited and always happened at the very base level, but despite this all the small interactions I had were really nice and positive. I even received help in a health crisis once.
My current tactic for dealing with the fears is to just simply ignore them and push through anyways. I always remind myself that no matter what happens I can't stop the program, I have to do my daily meditations always. If I happen to fail on a day that means I'II have to start all over again from day 1, and I most definitely don't want to make that mistake. As for my fear of Demons I have no idea what to do with it, outside of just laughing at myself when I get the thoughts. Thinking about it logically and with a calm mind I can see and completely understand how ridiculous it is for me to feel that way, and forcing myself to think logically does help a little bit, but it doesn't make the thoughts disappear. Any help, idea or trick would be highly appreciated.
HAIL SATAN!
I don't exactly know where this feelings come from, as I don't have any prior negative experience with any Demons or spiritual work. My experience with Demons is quite limited and always happened at the very base level, but despite this all the small interactions I had were really nice and positive. I even received help in a health crisis once.
My current tactic for dealing with the fears is to just simply ignore them and push through anyways. I always remind myself that no matter what happens I can't stop the program, I have to do my daily meditations always. If I happen to fail on a day that means I'II have to start all over again from day 1, and I most definitely don't want to make that mistake. As for my fear of Demons I have no idea what to do with it, outside of just laughing at myself when I get the thoughts. Thinking about it logically and with a calm mind I can see and completely understand how ridiculous it is for me to feel that way, and forcing myself to think logically does help a little bit, but it doesn't make the thoughts disappear. Any help, idea or trick would be highly appreciated.
HAIL SATAN!
