Family #76150 I miss the father I never had

[AskSatanOperator]

I hate worrying about things I cannot control. What should I do?
I don’t understand why my relationship with my father has deteriorated so much. I feel envious of other girls whose fathers love them deeply, treating them well even as they grow older and continuing to see them as their princesses. I don’t know what I did wrong. Perhaps it’s because I grew up, and he didn’t like that. Nowadays, he treats me like a stranger, and, to be honest, I no longer feel the desire to be around him.

 

[SaqqaraNox]

I think you should try to be assertive and ask him directly what is going on. If he is open to dialogue, this approach, as a first step, could allow clarity and avoid unnecessary assumptions. Many factors can come into play in life and lead to certain behaviors; assuming that you did something wrong or that you are the cause of someone else’s change in behavior may be a mistake. The emotional distance could instead be due to other difficulties his going through or negative thoughts, which are not easy to express, but it is not necessarily linked to a lack of affection. Some people are simply unable to manage what they are feeling.

 

[Symmachos-ZEUS/SHAITAN]

I hate worrying about things I cannot control. What should I do?
I don’t understand why my relationship with my father has deteriorated so much. I feel envious of other girls whose fathers love them deeply, treating them well even as they grow older and continuing to see them as their princesses. I don’t know what I did wrong. Perhaps it’s because I grew up, and he didn’t like that. Nowadays, he treats me like a stranger, and, to be honest, I no longer feel the desire to be around him.

In addition to what has already been explained to you

Some useful links:

Healing the Emotional Body (for men too, don’t disregard this)

You have your physical body, soul, astral body, mental body, and more. The Emotional Body is the part of the soul that can be damaged when you experience emotional trauma, grief, bereavement, abandonment, and so on. Many people have emotional outbursts, immature reactions, trigger episodes...

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How to Detach Unwanted People/Entities from Your Aura

 

[Epiphany]

I hate worrying about things I cannot control. What should I do?
I don’t understand why my relationship with my father has deteriorated so much. I feel envious of other girls whose fathers love them deeply, treating them well even as they grow older and continuing to see them as their princesses. I don’t know what I did wrong. Perhaps it’s because I grew up, and he didn’t like that. Nowadays, he treats me like a stranger, and, to be honest, I no longer feel the desire to be around him.

Some people just grow distant as their paths diverge. Relationships are like plants, you have to water and care for them. Transits could be at play that influence estrangement from your father or family. He could be experiencing transits of his own, or depression(which can cause people to clam up), or any number of things.

It's probably nothing to do with you, there could be things on his mind that he might not know how to deal with.

Try to stay close with him, think of a way to spend time and bond together. You could try mentioning that it feels like you're getting distant from each other, like SaqqaraNox said.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I can add, what you describe may come from lack of love in childhood.
Unloved or attended with coldness children may develop the idea they are not worth being loved because their parents did not manifest affection and love in the right way. This may create resentment against the unloving parent and envy against people who seems being loved.
The point is, unloved kids grow up unable to express love for others as they did not learn how to receive this. In case, both you are your father did not express love for each other so on the long run this created an emotional distance of hidden resentment.
This is only a possibility, hope this helps.

 

[MercuryWisdom]

I hate worrying about things I cannot control. What should I do?
I don’t understand why my relationship with my father has deteriorated so much. I feel envious of other girls whose fathers love them deeply, treating them well even as they grow older and continuing to see them as their princesses. I don’t know what I did wrong. Perhaps it’s because I grew up, and he didn’t like that. Nowadays, he treats me like a stranger, and, to be honest, I no longer feel the desire to be around him.

What helped me with these feelings is to also understand that Father Satan and the Gods and Goddesses are there for me and I’m infinitely luckier than someone who has a good father but doesn’t have Father Satan as a father-figure, role model, and guide.

The Gods are real and they are there for us and they show it often as long as we’re able to receive.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Psychologically, some fathers just can't adjust when their daughters become women, so they withdraw. They don't see that their daughter is essentially the same person, they only see that she is different now.

This sort of psychological problem is just one of the many disadvantages of being spiritually devolved with blocked chakras and a lower consciousness.

You can try a working with Green energy, Wunjo rune too, and affirm that your relationship with your father is now healthy and happy.

 

[HadesWithin666]

I agree with HPS Lyidia , this will help adjusting and improving any bad transit that you or your dad or maybe even both might have. Do what She recommended to you and also , do not let your hear break , be strong and have faith that all will end up good, but not any blind faith also do the spiritual working and Bless you Sister !

 

[AskSatanOperator]

I was his first daughter, I'm the eldest. He raised me as a man and alone, my mother left me with him when I was 3 years old, I didn't have a mother and I barely had any female role models.
As I grew up he put me aside to live the life he didn't have (no, it wasn't in my adult life, it was in my childhood/adolescence). I know that my mother's pregnancy and her leaving me was very upsetting, but I didn't ask to be born, and as they were brought up in a "no abortion but it's OK to neglect your child" environment, everything got worse.
He has a younger daughter now, who he doesn't treat at all like me, she's his little girl...I'm his eldest son who unfortunately came into a woman so he treats me like a man.
I've even thought: "Is it karma? Could it be that he was my son in a past life and I'm "paying for it" if I've been bad?
I'm getting to know myself little by little but I know a lot of things that I'm capable of and a lot that I'm not. I would never do this if I had children, regardless of the time.
If I don't sort it out in this life with him, could it be that I have to sort it out in the next life? even if I just forgive him and go on with my life as strangers? I wouldn't want to have any more contact with him.
thank you for your replies.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I was his first daughter, I'm the eldest. He raised me as a man and alone, my mother left me with him when I was 3 years old,

Possibly your father has a resentment for your mother left him and you, and project this on you. He may have been hurt by that situation and he mentally connects you to the past. Does not seem your fault anyway.

 

[Meow!]

I was his first daughter, I'm the eldest. He raised me as a man and alone, my mother left me with him when I was 3 years old, I didn't have a mother and I barely had any female role models.
As I grew up he put me aside to live the life he didn't have (no, it wasn't in my adult life, it was in my childhood/adolescence). I know that my mother's pregnancy and her leaving me was very upsetting, but I didn't ask to be born, and as they were brought up in a "no abortion but it's OK to neglect your child" environment, everything got worse.
He has a younger daughter now, who he doesn't treat at all like me, she's his little girl...I'm his eldest son who unfortunately came into a woman so he treats me like a man.
I've even thought: "Is it karma? Could it be that he was my son in a past life and I'm "paying for it" if I've been bad?
I'm getting to know myself little by little but I know a lot of things that I'm capable of and a lot that I'm not. I would never do this if I had children, regardless of the time.
If I don't sort it out in this life with him, could it be that I have to sort it out in the next life? even if I just forgive him and go on with my life as strangers? I wouldn't want to have any more contact with him.
thank you for your replies.

One I wish i could give you a hug cause it sounds like you need one. Two if you don't want to be around the idiot then don't be. Nothing says you have to be so don't hurt your self by being around him. You have done nothing wrong so get the past life bullshit stuff out of your head it's not that at all. It's his own resentment toward your mom and nothing more. He obviously has issues and took them out on you. So please for the love of the gods get the whole "paying for it" crap out of your head cause it's only causing you pain and it's not true.
You need to focus on your own soul and life now. Cleaning your chakras and aura and walking the path. Since he wants to leave you by the way side then leave him behind. If one day he decides to want to reach out and talk then handle it at that time but for now focus on yourself plain and simple.. You need to heal yourself. Maybe also look into a bit of counseling so you have methods to work thru any mental issues that can crop up as you get into meditating.
Good luck sister.


Hail Father Satan

 

[Epiphany]

I was his first daughter, I'm the eldest. He raised me as a man and alone, my mother left me with him when I was 3 years old, I didn't have a mother and I barely had any female role models.
As I grew up he put me aside to live the life he didn't have (no, it wasn't in my adult life, it was in my childhood/adolescence). I know that my mother's pregnancy and her leaving me was very upsetting, but I didn't ask to be born, and as they were brought up in a "no abortion but it's OK to neglect your child" environment, everything got worse.
He has a younger daughter now, who he doesn't treat at all like me, she's his little girl...I'm his eldest son who unfortunately came into a woman so he treats me like a man.
I've even thought: "Is it karma? Could it be that he was my son in a past life and I'm "paying for it" if I've been bad?
I'm getting to know myself little by little but I know a lot of things that I'm capable of and a lot that I'm not. I would never do this if I had children, regardless of the time.
If I don't sort it out in this life with him, could it be that I have to sort it out in the next life? even if I just forgive him and go on with my life as strangers? I wouldn't want to have any more contact with him.
thank you for your replies.

It's not your fault.

Difficult family relations can be indicated by astrology. He may have an afflicted 5th house, which rules the 1st child, and you may have aspects between Saturn and the Sun, or the 4th/10th house axis(home, mother and father), Pluto or Neptune may be involved along with the 3rd house(siblings and the immediate environment) or the rulers of these houses may be afflicted.

I was born into a difficult family dynamic too. I can only say that it gets better with time as you grow and develop an understanding. Therapy helps to understand things and re-regulate yourself, and researching attachment trauma and listening to people's stories who been through similar things was very beneficial and healing for me.

I've decided not to keep negative people in my life, and people that didn't value me. It's peaceful now. I found people who are more like family to me than anybody and are a positive influence in my life.

You could accept it for what it is and move on, focusing your efforts where they'll bear more fruit. Dynamics like this can be complicated and difficult to change since the karma of many people are involved.

Some things may never change, or if they do it could be a long time down the line. Don't do something you'll regret, but don't regret not doing anything either. Don't sit in a bad situation waiting for things to change because they probably won't.

It's not your fault. You deserve to be seen. Do what's right for you and find the people who will really see you.