I don't have a soul anymore
Everything that lives biologically has a soul.
Now the issue is not whether you have a soul to work on, because you do. The issue is whether you have worked on it and in the right way. As long as you live you have one and so the problem is how much energy it has. But you have it.
everyday I live is more empty than the other,
Since you have a soul, take care of it and increase it. So you will have a strong soul more and more.
Here you go:
Protect your possessions. A more specific aura of further protection over the financial aspect of your life is also very good.
It is okay to use one's aura to attract specific things and situations
Good! Our pets are sacred! Dogs are sacred to Anubis!
maybe because I give him food
No, dogs really have a tendency to love the humans they live with. Think about when they go miles and miles crying just to be able to get home to their owners even though they traumatized them by abandoning them in the middle of highways (I've seen it done. Horrendous, I'll never recover). They could find food elsewhere and instead risk their lives by continuing to walk home even when undernourished in order to reach their human.
Solve one problem at a time. When you get a chance, do something financially to increase your economic income.
It is not a final conviction. Simply make the most of what you have today. You will get it back tomorrow anyway.
The Ritual of Valefor can help the situation. Ask him if you feel like it
.https://josrituals.org/ritual/demon/valefor-power-ritual.html
just been scammed recently,
Don't think about the past. Learn from the mistake to recognize when to give confidence.
Did you see that? That you want to save your situation and not be a passive victim means that you really care about yourself even though it may not seem like it consciously.
I don't want to live again
Your life could be managed to do good for many people and yourself. Instead of focusing on not wanting to live, focus on solving karmic problems between reincarnations
I don't want to have a life again
And waste all your potential because some thug made you sad? But become better rather, and give the delinquent reason to gnaw.
I always go back to the same miserable state
Because you have no knowledge of how to break the cycle. But on JoS there is this knowledge. So make use of it.
I can't kill myself also because I cannot imagine how painful must be that moment we leave the body
The most painful part is watching one's own dead body with no possibility of using it to do anything good anymore.
I feel like a dead body without soul,
Again, no Satanist should feel this way. Empower your soul.
I'm dedicated for long time
Did you see that? That's good news. So what are you waiting for to receive all the beauty of Satanism? You have dedicated your soul for Satan to take care of it, so what are you waiting for to allow it?
if I'm a Jew I will never practice that
But if you're not Jewish you really should. For obvious reasons.
I just can't I tried before know Satan.
You can't expect everything to work out perfectly for you in the first few years.
I only started feeling warmth by absorbing the fire element last year and have been dedicated since 2017, and I really felt NOTHING of the fire element before, now I just evoke it so I can stay warm even when I'm in shorts and short sleeves in the middle of winter for lack of season-appropriate clothes. And that's just one example. But by no means did telekinesis work for me in 2023, but even in my dreams I couldn't practice it, today instead I just lay my hands on it and visualize with some intention.
I have given you the most obvious examples from the physical point of view, but even absorbing energy, etc. the same applies.
I think I fucked it up with both sides
No. You're just at a starting point. Not in ruin.
