#601 I am embarrassed to express my opinion. And a little about my handwriting.

[AskSatanOperator]

Hello.
1) While others dream about something, say... Money, I dream about... stopping being afraid to express my opinion. I used to always think that I just don't know how to do it. Until one day I realized that I'm AFRAID to do it. I'm 14 years old, when at school they give me tasks "express your opinion on this! How did this or that character behave, in your opinion?!", I always reach a dead end. I'm afraid that my opinion will look too childish, like 6-7 years old, that I'll be laughed at, SHAMED... What is this? How can I overcome this? And I also noticed that in the presence of certain people I'm more embarrassed (I grew up with them all my early childhood, I suppose that they could have contributed to the fact that I now have this problem). What is this? Why? How can I fix this?
2) And about my handwriting. Well, how, "about my handwriting"... People always tell me that I write slowly. Recently I realized that I, how to say, subconsciously try to write so that the one who will read my text will understand me. I feel the speed in my hands, I know that I can write faster than I can, but it pulls me back. What is it? Please tell me, and how to get rid of it?
Thank you.

 

[AFODO]

You can overcome this by practicing this. You have this fear because maybe you experienced this once or twice but you don't have enough experience to realize that you won't be despised because of your opinion, most of the times. These practices you have to do is good for this.

You have to be able to read your notes, nobody will read them if you don't usually send it to your classmates. In anyways, if you find comfortable how you write now, you can write this way, otherwise try to write fast and ugly once, and maybe you find a comfortable middle point between the two. Again, practice makes perfect.

 

[Scorpio]

1) Generally, you answered this question by yourself - you are afraid of what others may think about you and how can they react, hence your fears while expressing your thoughts and opinions. Moreover, no matter what you say or express, you cannot avoid other people's opinions about you - to some extent we will always be judged by others. However, this should not stop you from expressing yourself, but this requires practise on assertiveness. Use solar runes like Sowilo and program it to made you more assertive or do Sun Square for self-confidence. Void meditation would be helpful too.

Remember to be yourself. Even if you say something incorrect, everyone makes mistakes. If it makes others frown upon you or laught, ignore and move on.
I'm not entirely sure what you mean by these people you mentioned, but if you feel that they don't bring anything good to your life, I would consider whether they are the right company for you.

2) Just write at your own pace - if you need a slow pace to make the writing legible, then write at that pace and take your time. Alternatively, you can always practice writing at home and you will get better over time.