OttoHart
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Today (give or take) marks 6 months since I started genuinely studying JoS for the first time. I am writing this post to tell everyone here what my experience was, how I got here, what I learned here, and to give thanks to some people who genuinely deserve it. Depending on what you are interested in, you can look at the bold underlined text to check what each section is about.
My story of discovering and joining JoS
I have always been looking for answers, for a purpose, and for wisdom, ever since I was a child. Ever since I was 7 and read a Bible for the first time, I understood something was terribly wrong. I never understood why a God would create such a complex and fascinating world, only for 90% of what is in it and what you do with it to not matter, and result in an eternity of either bliss or torture, which both just sounded equally as torture to me.
Ever since then, up until I was about 16, I considered that there had to be a "good" version of christianity, that was corrupted due to evils and political interest, based on what I had learned about the New Testament and ancient hebrew teachings.
I first discovered JoS 3-4 years ago, when I was trying to learn about Demons, Paganism and how the abrahamic religions came to be, when I stumbled upon the site. It opened me up to some great wisdom about energies, auras, the Vedas, Greek thought, invocation, meditation, theurgy, and so much more. But I heavily disagreed with the political matters and the syncretism. This is due to personal beliefs that I have since grown past. It was a bad understanding of the world, that wasn't productive, and most importantly, wasn't mine. It was fed to me. I tacitly ignored all of that and took what I felt was good, and continued studying on my own.
No less than probably 300 books later, enter the summer of 2024. I had finally settled into a good life and I was building things back up from scratch. I had stumbled upon HPHC on X and remembered JoS.
The fact that 90% of JoS made perfect sense, and that the 10% that I didn't like, I had no real explanation to refute, broke me. I wanted to truly give JoS an open minded try, and even study the "bad Hitler stuff".
It all made quite a bit of sense, after reading it.
I decided to give it a try by watching the Exit the Jewtrix and the Another Galaxy docummentaries.
...I was glued to my screen. My theories about the Goetia being Pagan Gods, my theories that abrahamic religion could not have been concocted out of benevolence, all the books I studied about ancient aliens while considering them only half truths, it all came together, made sense, and even answered questions I believe could not have answers.
I vividly remember writing in my journal:
"This is either the single best written conspiracy of all time, concocted by a mind more brilliant than has ever lived, or I genuinely found the truth."
I was still on the fence, but I leaned towards the former.
It was one day, where I was more free, and genuinely spent 15 straight hours just reading and studying JoS material. For 3 weeks, I was trying meditations (some of which I had read about before, but never in such a well designed and explained system of advancement) and slowly moved into actually practicing the things JoS preaches.
My goal was to find a single reason JoS isn't right. I couldn't find anything. And believe me, I tried.
To avoid being in a bubble, I extensively looked at sources that attack and dislike the JoS. Literally none of them put up good arguments. Literally all of them I could easily see were lies.
Then, a couple choice exchanges I had with HPHC further encouraged me. The words and help HPHC offered me will be expanded upon in the Thanksgiving section, as it showed me he is the real deal.
It was decided. I am trusting myself, and trusting JoS. I am doing the Dedication Ritual.
I fully expected to feel nothing, but it was as if I have found home once more.
The next day, I would look at the Sun, the clouds, the Moon, the trees, and read my usual books, and everything just felt more beautiful. Life was not dull, it was not unsaturated, I had hope and a vibrance I could never feel before.
My analysis later on makes me think it was because of heavy blockages or dross affecting me. Despite of being a very smart and kind person, usually, I always lived a bad life and came up short, and depression never left me. I can literally only describe it as spiritual illness.
I won't describe what is after this, because we would be here forever. My life after JoS has been one of hope, challenges, beautiful lessons, and I go to sleep excited for tomorrow. I've failed some goals, failed in some areas, succeeded in others, and everything is just... clear. Everything is easier.
If I made a mistake, that's weird, because a mistake never felt so healthy and good.
Spiritual and Paranormal Experiences
Here's what I have felt, as far as paranormal experiences while on this path, for those who are skeptics. I also must mention that I do not have the best ability at trance, and at feeling energy, and am certain it gets far more interesting on higher levels:
- vivid dreams where I would receive guidance I couldn't think of myself
- far better intuition that has literally saved my ass multiple times
- bliss, floating states during trance
- physically, genuinely, feeling the Wings of the Soul and where they are attached to my back
- being completely overloaded with emotions and energy from too much meditation
- slight electrical jolts in the back area that I also can not scientifically explain the feeling of
- feelings of simultaneous cold and heat that I can not describe
- what I can only call "genuine Truth experiences", the completely unshakeable feeling that a certain thing I learned is absolute truth about existence
- I have felt what an "enemy attack" feels like, on probably a much lower level than advanced members
- I have genuinely felt the energy and presence of the Gods during their Rituals, in most cases, and have identified unique "energy signatures"
What I learned and gained
- I am far better at controlling and understanding my emotions
- I can finally cry, not hide my emotions, and heal
- I have genuinely felt the effects of having stronger and more open Chakras, with real life manifestations within my behavior and my environment, that fit exactly what should happen
- I now understand the value of ancient things, and the value of keeping a heritage alive
- I have learned far more about empathy and understanding others by the approach of the JoS than by any "love and light" movement
- I have gained examples to look up to, in the great people of humanity, the Gods, the Clergy, and my own ancestors
- I have many people here I look up to, and many I consider true friends
- JoS, to me, among many things, is a place to genuinely make use of my talents, while understanding and defeating my limitations
- most likely so much more to mention
Thanksgiving
I deeply thank the entirety of JoS, for all of its achievements, and for bringing me all of this, and for offering me an opportunity to contribute and help others as well.
I thank @Hp. Hoodedcobra666 for not giving up on me when I had questions and issues with the JoS, and for offering me a hand when it mattered most. I would not be here had you not talked to me.
I thank @HPS Lydia for being a constant source of joy, encouragement and positivity with her writings. Your work has helped me in so many ways, and I highly admire you.
I thank Lady Maxine, for everything she did in order to bring the JoS to the greatness it has today, from the very start. I have not had the chance to talk to you, and yet you helped me tremendously. I know you can see this, and I hope you are proud of me.
@Alexandros Iowno [JG] , thank you for everything you have helped me with. You are one of my heroes and inspirations in life, among the likes of Voltaire and Marcus Aurelius. But you are here, alive, physically, and I can read your work, interact with you, and learn from you directly. You may believe that you only interact with me every now and then, but every interaction we have, I consider formative for me. You have a beautiful influence that has helped me grow.
I want to thank @Demonic Tech , @VanceViktori888 , @ramses13th , @Shannon and @SATchives individually. Through my interactions with you, I have grown to consider you all genuine friends.
I also thank every single JG, @Henu the Great , @SeguaceDiSatanas and @Ol argedco luciftias , as I have read all of your works here, and keep up with your texts. They have all been very useful, and I can see you are all great people.
Last, but absolutely not least, I thank the Gods. I thank them for not forgetting me. I thank them for taking me in. And I thank them for everything they have given humanity.
From the bottom of my soul, thank you to everyone. In greater or lesser measure, you have contributed to someone improving their life.
I can't wait to keep growing, learning and improving here.
I want to see JoS seen as a legitimate, mainstream spiritual community, with billions of members. And I will do my best to give a helping hand for this to be achieved.
My story of discovering and joining JoS
I have always been looking for answers, for a purpose, and for wisdom, ever since I was a child. Ever since I was 7 and read a Bible for the first time, I understood something was terribly wrong. I never understood why a God would create such a complex and fascinating world, only for 90% of what is in it and what you do with it to not matter, and result in an eternity of either bliss or torture, which both just sounded equally as torture to me.
Ever since then, up until I was about 16, I considered that there had to be a "good" version of christianity, that was corrupted due to evils and political interest, based on what I had learned about the New Testament and ancient hebrew teachings.
I first discovered JoS 3-4 years ago, when I was trying to learn about Demons, Paganism and how the abrahamic religions came to be, when I stumbled upon the site. It opened me up to some great wisdom about energies, auras, the Vedas, Greek thought, invocation, meditation, theurgy, and so much more. But I heavily disagreed with the political matters and the syncretism. This is due to personal beliefs that I have since grown past. It was a bad understanding of the world, that wasn't productive, and most importantly, wasn't mine. It was fed to me. I tacitly ignored all of that and took what I felt was good, and continued studying on my own.
No less than probably 300 books later, enter the summer of 2024. I had finally settled into a good life and I was building things back up from scratch. I had stumbled upon HPHC on X and remembered JoS.
The fact that 90% of JoS made perfect sense, and that the 10% that I didn't like, I had no real explanation to refute, broke me. I wanted to truly give JoS an open minded try, and even study the "bad Hitler stuff".
It all made quite a bit of sense, after reading it.
I decided to give it a try by watching the Exit the Jewtrix and the Another Galaxy docummentaries.
...I was glued to my screen. My theories about the Goetia being Pagan Gods, my theories that abrahamic religion could not have been concocted out of benevolence, all the books I studied about ancient aliens while considering them only half truths, it all came together, made sense, and even answered questions I believe could not have answers.
I vividly remember writing in my journal:
"This is either the single best written conspiracy of all time, concocted by a mind more brilliant than has ever lived, or I genuinely found the truth."
I was still on the fence, but I leaned towards the former.
It was one day, where I was more free, and genuinely spent 15 straight hours just reading and studying JoS material. For 3 weeks, I was trying meditations (some of which I had read about before, but never in such a well designed and explained system of advancement) and slowly moved into actually practicing the things JoS preaches.
My goal was to find a single reason JoS isn't right. I couldn't find anything. And believe me, I tried.
To avoid being in a bubble, I extensively looked at sources that attack and dislike the JoS. Literally none of them put up good arguments. Literally all of them I could easily see were lies.
Then, a couple choice exchanges I had with HPHC further encouraged me. The words and help HPHC offered me will be expanded upon in the Thanksgiving section, as it showed me he is the real deal.
It was decided. I am trusting myself, and trusting JoS. I am doing the Dedication Ritual.
I fully expected to feel nothing, but it was as if I have found home once more.
The next day, I would look at the Sun, the clouds, the Moon, the trees, and read my usual books, and everything just felt more beautiful. Life was not dull, it was not unsaturated, I had hope and a vibrance I could never feel before.
My analysis later on makes me think it was because of heavy blockages or dross affecting me. Despite of being a very smart and kind person, usually, I always lived a bad life and came up short, and depression never left me. I can literally only describe it as spiritual illness.
I won't describe what is after this, because we would be here forever. My life after JoS has been one of hope, challenges, beautiful lessons, and I go to sleep excited for tomorrow. I've failed some goals, failed in some areas, succeeded in others, and everything is just... clear. Everything is easier.
If I made a mistake, that's weird, because a mistake never felt so healthy and good.
Spiritual and Paranormal Experiences
Here's what I have felt, as far as paranormal experiences while on this path, for those who are skeptics. I also must mention that I do not have the best ability at trance, and at feeling energy, and am certain it gets far more interesting on higher levels:
- vivid dreams where I would receive guidance I couldn't think of myself
- far better intuition that has literally saved my ass multiple times
- bliss, floating states during trance
- physically, genuinely, feeling the Wings of the Soul and where they are attached to my back
- being completely overloaded with emotions and energy from too much meditation
- slight electrical jolts in the back area that I also can not scientifically explain the feeling of
- feelings of simultaneous cold and heat that I can not describe
- what I can only call "genuine Truth experiences", the completely unshakeable feeling that a certain thing I learned is absolute truth about existence
- I have felt what an "enemy attack" feels like, on probably a much lower level than advanced members
- I have genuinely felt the energy and presence of the Gods during their Rituals, in most cases, and have identified unique "energy signatures"
What I learned and gained
- I am far better at controlling and understanding my emotions
- I can finally cry, not hide my emotions, and heal
- I have genuinely felt the effects of having stronger and more open Chakras, with real life manifestations within my behavior and my environment, that fit exactly what should happen
- I now understand the value of ancient things, and the value of keeping a heritage alive
- I have learned far more about empathy and understanding others by the approach of the JoS than by any "love and light" movement
- I have gained examples to look up to, in the great people of humanity, the Gods, the Clergy, and my own ancestors
- I have many people here I look up to, and many I consider true friends
- JoS, to me, among many things, is a place to genuinely make use of my talents, while understanding and defeating my limitations
- most likely so much more to mention
Thanksgiving
I deeply thank the entirety of JoS, for all of its achievements, and for bringing me all of this, and for offering me an opportunity to contribute and help others as well.
I thank @Hp. Hoodedcobra666 for not giving up on me when I had questions and issues with the JoS, and for offering me a hand when it mattered most. I would not be here had you not talked to me.
I thank @HPS Lydia for being a constant source of joy, encouragement and positivity with her writings. Your work has helped me in so many ways, and I highly admire you.
I thank Lady Maxine, for everything she did in order to bring the JoS to the greatness it has today, from the very start. I have not had the chance to talk to you, and yet you helped me tremendously. I know you can see this, and I hope you are proud of me.
@Alexandros Iowno [JG] , thank you for everything you have helped me with. You are one of my heroes and inspirations in life, among the likes of Voltaire and Marcus Aurelius. But you are here, alive, physically, and I can read your work, interact with you, and learn from you directly. You may believe that you only interact with me every now and then, but every interaction we have, I consider formative for me. You have a beautiful influence that has helped me grow.
I want to thank @Demonic Tech , @VanceViktori888 , @ramses13th , @Shannon and @SATchives individually. Through my interactions with you, I have grown to consider you all genuine friends.
I also thank every single JG, @Henu the Great , @SeguaceDiSatanas and @Ol argedco luciftias , as I have read all of your works here, and keep up with your texts. They have all been very useful, and I can see you are all great people.
Last, but absolutely not least, I thank the Gods. I thank them for not forgetting me. I thank them for taking me in. And I thank them for everything they have given humanity.
From the bottom of my soul, thank you to everyone. In greater or lesser measure, you have contributed to someone improving their life.
I can't wait to keep growing, learning and improving here.
I want to see JoS seen as a legitimate, mainstream spiritual community, with billions of members. And I will do my best to give a helping hand for this to be achieved.
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