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No, not giving up just hate it. It also doesn't help that I have an attachment I can't get rid of and when I try to meditate it distracts me. You know how meditation opens you up to entities and other beings on the astral. I will also admit that part of my resistance is fear. I had a terrible...

Where do I find kundalini yoga? Would it be possible to meditate during it? ------------------------------

If I were you I'd try out a temporary polygamous relationship first to see how you feel about it. Is there arrangements like this? Also, if there is even a slight chance you'll want a boyfriend later, I wouldn't go that route. ------------------------------