Im really insecure since becoming a satanist.. O_o im not the person i used to be.. ;( im pretty messed up, since i wont even trust my girlfriend.. what could be causing this deppression and constant worry?

:D thank all of you, :) I appreciate the help, I never cleaned my aura. So i should probally learn how, Lol.. I just hope it works. I'd never do it i just feel disturbed.. and i dont like feeling that. Its made me feel relationship insecuritys.. Like i wonder if she'll leave me soon or...

I dont want people to think of me as odd, But i need help. When im with my girlfriend i feel powerful urges to smite her. Or cause her harm in some way.. I dont wana hurt her because i love her, Is this Negative influence? Or i am a dangerous person and i should kill myself immediately?

True, but noone i know could give me a proper outside view, Because London ontario doesnt have many satanists, and if theres any their usually self centered dicks, who dont give a fuck about anyone, and dont care about anything other then the furtherance of themselves. I dont really...

#1 thanks for that :) Im going to keep trying to focus it. #2 Idk.. it just happens by itself.. Im not sure what brought it on, But it now happens at will, before only in dreams or when i was high. It could be, Idk about my power :( i think i dont really have that much.

Im auctually worried, Hes a christian and a christian in power is no good thing for anyone, even their own false religion.. Im wondering if some effects could prove to be rather damaging to The Collective Power of All the leigons of hell, and The amassed satanist force... Truly This...

I have 2 questions. #1 Ive been practicing focusing engergy into a small ball that i can fit into my palm now that i can visibly see it, but when i begin to focus the engery ball doesnt stay in my hand, it starting growing Pretty large.. Does this mean i have a lack of concentration...

Barack obama, a chrisian now the president of the united states. Its a bad thing that hes a christian anyway, But now he has Power Christianity is dangerous to even its own false religion. Im kinda worried about what the effects could be on our factions.. Someone reassure me? :(

Match hatred with hatred and wrath with wrath. Abilify the blinded sheeps. Might makes right. ANNO SATANAS!

Likewise glad, Im also a satanist from the london area. Prehaps if it suites you we could meet sometime.

I was reading a few posts and i thought of, what if you have no faith what is your place in the afterlife? Do you just cease into nothingness?

No, Your Spirituality is a part of your being so to say. Plus denying your faith as a satanist is revulsing to me. Id keep being spiritualy open. :]