Dreams usually happen when we are asleep but our minds are awake. An average Human dream 3-5 times a night, We hardly remember one of them. So, maybe you do dream its just that your mind was at a sleepy stage and you can't remember. We all know after dedication we all feel peaceful inside so...

Our dreams are manifestations of desires which relate to obsessions and it is very usual for us to dream about ourselves showing affection to our crushes or vice versa. I am not saying that it does not mean anything. But It is usual to receive dreams like this and they are normal. 

Hey buddy I know how you feel. I used to belong to the Sikh religion too till I couldn't take it any longer and decided to dedicate myself to Father Satan. My family isn't that religious but they always make me pray and shit like that. Relax, you're not alone. If you need someone to speak to you...