if one doesnt have black candles, does the color matter specificly, or could one do the entire rituals in their own ashterial temple (pardon my english skills) if candles are a problem in rituals.

im new to this, i dont know much about anything , just that i was raised christian but iv been thrown around by ""noone"". iv experienced a women talking to me calling me her love and such when i wished for a lover, shes still with me. iv knowtice flames move when i get near them , i have ?? on...