Typo, *why don't you go to show the site to them

If they know you are Satanist/Zevist, why you just don't show to him/them the website so they can read and answers the question themselves?

In addition to the excellent advice given from above, you need to start thinking positive thoughts. What are negative thoughts good for? It only hurts yourself. Don't shoot in the foot by yourself.

Is considered acceptable but under certain conditions. Do not mix with race of host people. Don't destroy them, don't exploit them, things like that here. Maintain a contact in your native people, the ideal condition is to save a money and so return when you can both help your native people and...

it's up to you. try both and do what you feel better. Any time of day is good to meditation, if you want to know what time is "best" to meditate on 6th chakra, see planet times, meditate on moon hours. But if you can't in that time, you can do meditate in any other planet hours, still effective...

Just wanted to point one thing, music is good for relax, it can be used even as void meditation, the goal is able to be "disconnect" from outer stimulation, ie, can in be meditative state in any scenario.

The advice is to devote time on yourself, instead of making a curse, make an operation [if you are not very social person] to attract people who are more in agreement with your ideas, will become your new friends :-)

Hello. in addition to the advice given by others, I recommend that you read your birth chart, where Venus and related planets are positioned. That way you can better understand your sexual taste. From what you write, you seem to have a certain femininity, there is nothing wrong with that.